Consciousness And The Absolute / The Final Talks - Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj - Audiobook - Part One

0:10 consciousness and the absolute the final talks of sri nisargadatta maharaj par 1 May 1st 1980 now does a Yanni see the world a Yummie is aware of the origin and the value of consciousness this beingness which has spontaneously dawned on him this same consciousness plays a multitude of roles some happy some unhappy but whatever the rules the Yanni is merely the seer of them the roles have no effect on the Yanni all your problems are body mind problems even so you cling to that body since you identify with the body mind you follow

0:56 certain polite modes of expression when you talk I do not I might embarrass you you may not be able to take what I say I have no sense of propriety you are bound by your own concepts and notions actually you love only this sense of I you do everything because of this you are not working for anybody nor for the nation but only for this sense of I which you love so much but I like to act I like to work all these activities go on but they are only entertainment the waking and deep sleep states come and go spontaneously to the sense of I you spontaneously if you like working but find out if this sense of I

1:45 is real or unreal permanent or impermanent the eye which appears is unreal how unreal is it I have proven the moment the eye is proven on real who is it who knows that the eye is unreal this knowledge within you that knows the eye is unreal that knowledge which knows change must itself be changeless permanent you are an illusion Maya an imagination it is only because I know that I am unreal that I know you also are unreal it is not like this because I am real you are unreal it is like this because I am unreal everything is unreal

2:35 consciousness depends on the body the body depends on the essence of food it is the consciousness which is speaking now if the food essence is not present the body cannot exist without the body would I be able to talk can you do anything to retain this sense of I as it came spontaneously so it will go it will not forewarn you by announcing I am going tomorrow a doubt has arisen and you are trying to find the solution but who is it who has this doubt find out for yourself May 10th 1980 how did I get to the truth that I prevail everlastingly by meditating on

3:20 the meditator by i am-ness merging into i airiness only then did I understand with my two naturists the great sages meditated in the same way nobody has told me how to do it I did not seek this knowledge externally it's routed within me I meditated like the sages and saw vision initially there was space and in the space I saw the principles embodied actually they have no bodies but in my vision they had buddies I called them Prakriti and Purusha the male and female aspects of cosmic consciousness until the union of Prakriti and Purusha the dynamic all-pervading consciousness lay in a

4:06 dormant state and the union of the male and female aspects emissions were planted in the female of these figures when these emissions merged in the womb they started taking form after nine months of gestation an infant was delivered that consciousness which was planted in the womb was the causal body the Linga daija in that Linga they are the knowledge I am was in a dormant condition this is what I saw in meditation how did we lose this pure consciousness state every being experiences this but a state either directly or potentially but he is so wrapped up in this objective world that he loses his

4:51 identity you must know what this I am principle is it appears spontaneously and with its appearance begins the riddle of conceptual life how do I start this search for myself start from the very beginning in this gross world I began with my parents because I knew full well that my principle was already dwelling there in the collection of their bodily elements out of which are emanating but I came to the conclusion that I could not be that principle which came from the mother's body there is nobody here who is a hundred years old does that mean that a hundred years ago you did not exist I don't know the one who said I don't know

5:38 must have been there in short you were not like this but you must have been something you must comprehend this correctly 100 years back I was not like this so the one pointing this out must have been there you did and do exist unto eternity what I'm expanding does not relate to worldly knowledge you do not want to give up either worldly knowledge or so-called spiritual knowledge and yet through these worldly concepts you want to understand the riddle of your existence and that is precisely why you are not able to understand in truth your state is one of absolute bliss not this phenomenal state

6:24 in that non phenomenal state you are full of bliss but there is no experience of its presence in that state there is no trace of misery or unhappiness only unalloyed bliss what am I talking about Ananda bliss because you want some satisfaction according to your own concept you try to qualify unalloyed bliss the term ananda has significance only when it signifies that the bodily beingness is available to experience it when you are in deep sleep and you start to see forms you're actually dreaming now in those dream forms coming from your own beingness whatever you see even in the waking

7:10 state doesn't it come from your own beingness which is dwelling within the body in deep sleep consciousness was in a dormant condition there were no bodies no concepts no encumbrances upon the arrival of this apparently wakeful state with the arrival of the concept I am the love of I am woke up that itself is Maya illusion does Maharaj mean that the experiencer of the three states is the self that is the saguna brahman state because of your beingness the other states are the dream world is very old it is not new you see old monuments in your dreams your beingness is very powerful the emergence of this beingness

7:57 itself constitutes time everything is beingness but I the absolute am NOT that in meditation there was space when suddenly two forms appeared out of no form prakruti and purusa and the quintessence of these forms was the knowledge I am there were no forms then suddenly forms appeared just as in the dream world you as a dreamer are sleeping on the bed but in your dream world you see a body and you think it is you and you are doing everything through this dream body in that same way bodies are created in the so called waking

8:42 state the prakruti and Purusha state has no form and is eternal having neither a beginning nor an end but from it come the five elements and with them simultaneously the body is formed at the moment that time is first experienced this process is ever continuing with a body form merely indicative of the opportunity to experience time this explanation will not reach home to everyone at the moment of so-called death with what identity would you like to depart as parabrahman the absolute which I call parabrahman what is it like what you are doing is multiplying words with words concepts with more concepts maharaja must take me

9:30 out of this can you define what you are my must have your blessing to understand what I am you are very adept at word games while I am talking about knowledge that is beyond this phenomenal world you are trying to understand through worldly concepts and words give up all these concepts and inquire into the nature of your beingness how did you happen to be ponder it the real blessing of the guru comes when your knowledge itself spouts inside you May 14 1980 doctors have diagnosed that this body has cancer

10:16 would anyone else be as joyful as I am with such a serious diagnosis the world is your direct experience your own observation all that is happening is happening at this level but I'm not at this level I have dissociated myself from sattva-guna beingness the ultimate state in spirituality is that state where no needs are felt at any time where nothing is useful for anything that state is called Nia Vanna near guna that which is the eternal and ultimate truth the essence and sum total of this whole talk is called Satguru parabrahman that state in which there are no

11:01 requirements after the dissolution of the universe when no further vestige of creation was apparent what remained is my perfect state all through the creation and dissolution of the universe I remain ever untouched I have not expanded this part my state never felt the creation and dissolution of the universe I am the principle which survives all creations or the dissolutions this is my state and yours too but you don't realize it because you are embracing your beingness realizing it is only possible when one gets support from invincible faith from that eternal

11:47 Satguru parabrahman the state this parabrahman principle is eternal and is also the Satguru it is the eternal property of any devotee of a guru July 29 1980 why did this consciousness arise you are both the question and the answer all your questions come from your identification with the body how can any questions relating to that which was prior to the body and consciousness be answered there are Yogi's who have sat in meditation for many many years seeking answers to this question but even they haven't understood it and yet

12:32 you are complaining it is a great mystery it is a mystery only to the ignorant to the one not identified with the body it is no longer a mystery Maharaj cannot convey it to us I keep telling you but you don't listen does maharaja see us as individuals there are no individuals there are only food bodies with the knowledge I am there is no difference between an ant a human being and his vara they are of the same quality the body of an ant is small an elephants is large the strength is different because of the size but the life force is the same for knowledge the

13:19 body is necessary how did maharaja get the name nisargadatta at one time I was composing poems poems used to flow out of me in in this flow I just added Mizar Kidada I was reveling in composing poems into my guru cautioned me you are enjoying composing these poems too much give them up what was he driving at his objective was for me to merge in the absolute state instead of reveling in my beingness this was the way I realized knowledge not through mental manipulation my guru said this is so and for me it was finished if you continue in the realm of intellect you will become entangled and lost and more and more concepts

14:07 consciousness is time flowing continuously but I the absolute will not have its company eternally because consciousness is time bound when this beingness goes the absolute will not know I am appearance and disappearance birth and death these are the qualities of beingness they are not your qualities you have urinated in odor is coming from that now you that odor no I am NOT this beingness is like that urine can you be that beingness absolutely not you require no more sadhana for you the words of the guru are final

14:53 October 5th 1980 I have no individuality I have assumed no pose is a person whatever happens in the manifest consciousness happens people identify me with their concepts and they do with their concepts tell them it is consciousness which is manifest nothing else who is talking who is walking who is setting these are the expressions of that chemical I am i you that chemical you talk about heaven and hell this Mahatma or that one but how about you who are you a meditation one sees a lot of visions they are in the chemical the realm of your consciousness are they not all these things are connected only to

15:40 that birth chemical you are not this chemical I am spiritual knowledge should not be studied it is knowledge derived from listening when the listener hears it and accepts it something clicks in him this i am-ness is other Ness it is an expression of duality November 8 1980 why is it that we naturally seem to think of ourselves as separate individuals your thoughts about individuality are really not your own thoughts they're all collective thoughts you think that you are the one who has the thoughts in fact thoughts arise in consciousness as our spiritual knowledge

16:27 grows our identification with an individual body mind diminishes and our consciousness expands into universal consciousness the life force continues to act but its thoughts and actions are no longer limited to an individual they become the total manifestation it is like the action of the wind the wind doesn't blow for any particular individual but for the total manifestation as an individual can we go back to the source not as an individual the knowledge I am must go back to its own source now consciousness as identified with the form later it understands that it is not that form and goes further in a few cases it may reach

17:15 the space very often there it stops in a very few cases it reaches its real source beyond all conditioning it is difficult to give up that inclination of identifying the body as the self I'm not talking to an individual I am talking to consciousness it is consciousness which must seek its source out of that no being state comes the beingness it comes as quietly as to align with just a feel of I am and then suddenly this place is there in the space movement starts with the air the fire the water and the earth all these

18:00 five elements are you only out of your consciousness all this has happened there is no individual there is only you the total functioning is you the consciousness is you you are the consciousness all the titles of the gods are your names but by clinging to the body you hand yourself over to time and death you are imposing it on yourself I am the total universe when I am the total universe I am in needed nothing because I am everything but I cramped myself into a small thing a body I make myself a fragment then became needful I

18:47 need so many things as a body in the absence of a body do you and did you exist are you and were you there or not attain that state which is and was prior to the body your true nature is open and free but you cover it up you give it various designs November 9th 1984 the type of dispassion which Maharaj is teaching us be taught to children know if that's done that'll have no ambition to grow further they must have certain ambitions certain desires for their proper growth the one who has fully investigated himself the

19:33 one who has come to understand will never try to interfere in the play of consciousness there is no creator with the vast intellect as such all this play is going on spontaneously there's no intellect behind it so don't try to impose yours to bring about any change leave it alone your intellect is a subsequent product of this process so how can your intellect take charge of or even evaluate the whole creation investigate yourself this is the purpose of your being spirituality is nothing more than understanding this clay of consciousness try to find out what this fraud is by

20:19 seeking its source November 12 1980 the i am-ness the manifest brahman and his vara are all only one ponder over this and realize it this is a rare opportunity one were all has been explained in great detail so take full advantage of it you are the manifest brahman I have told you many times which your to skate is but through force of habit you again descend into body identification the stage has now arrived at which you must give up this bodily identification the bodily activities will continue until

21:05 the body drops off which you should not identify with them how are we to do this you can watch the body so you're not the body you can watch the breath so you are not the vital breath in the same way you are not the consciousness but you have to become one with the consciousness as you stabilize in consciousness dispassion for the body and for the expressions through the body occurs spontaneously it is a natural renunciation not a deliberate one it does not mean that you should neglect your worldly duties carry these out with full zest shouldn't we rediscover the freedom of the little baby from the body understand the source

21:52 of child the child is a product of the sperm of the father and they ovum of the mother consciousness is there in the child as it is in the parents it is always the same consciousness whether in the child or the adult there is only one consciousness you must become one with and stabilize in that consciousness then you transcend it consciousness is your only capital understand it to what extent do you know yourself I have held the feet of Satguru beyond that I don't know anything you must do that but you should understand the meaning of feet of Satguru understand that as movement begins with

22:37 the feet so movement begins from no knowingness to knowingness when the knowingness occurs that is Satguru movement go to the source for that movement but the i am-ness begins the effort are the one who has arrested that movement will not go to waste holding the feet of the Sun guru is the borderline between knowingness and no knowingness November 17 1980 don't we have to discard all knowledge you must have a thorough knowledge of this consciousness and having known everything about the consciousness you come to the conclusion

23:24 that it is all unreal and then it should drop off having listened to these talks said and meditate that which I have heard is it true or not then you will understand that this is also to be discarded the principle which can pass judgment on whether the world is or is not that principle antedates the world that by which everything is known whether it is or is not who knows this when I say parabrahman then you say that you understand names are merely an instrument for communicating do you understand what I am driving at the yani knows that this is all an illusion that there is no path but if from within the

24:11 illusion one is convinced that there is a path and there's somewhere to go does it make sense to use techniques to get to that further illusion illusion is it a word or not there is word there relates to a concept that is a name only is it not yes so what the illusory word do you want that will satisfy you November 18th 1980 my present outlook is without limitation total freedom ultimately one must go beyond knowledge but the knowledge must come and knowledge can come by constant meditation by meditating the knowledge I am gradually settled down and merges

24:58 with universal knowledge and thereby becomes totally free like the sky or space those who come here with the idea of getting knowledge even spiritual knowledge come here as individuals aspiring to get something that is the real difficulty the seeker must disappear when you know your real nature the knowledge I am remains but that knowledge is unlimited it is not possible for you to acquire knowledge you are knowledge you are what you are seeking your tool being exist prior to the arising of any concept can you as an object understand something that existed

25:44 prior to the arising of a concept in the absence of consciousness is there any proof of the existence of anything consciousness itself is mind is thought is all phenomena all manifestation apprehending this is being dead do I am the body while alive this kind of knowledge comes only in a rare case and is a very elusive kind of knowledge where no effort is necessary in fact effort itself is a hindrance it is intuitive understanding then should all spiritual disciplines be dropped at the highest level this is so the earlier levels you have to do your homework those who are able intuitively

26:32 to grasp this lose their interest in worldly Affairs having lost it what would they get whatever they have lost they will have lost as an ordinary person but what they get in return will be fit for a king those who have comprehended and who have reached a certain stage will not ask for anything but everything will come to them spontaneously there will be no wish for it nevertheless it will be there this does not happen for an individual it happens for the universal manifestation or for the one who has become one with this true nature for the yani only witnessing is taking place

27:20 November 20th 1980 the principle which can no itself is in the organism in the worm crawling it is there because the worm knows itself instinctively by listening to my talks you will be transformed back to your original state prior to your birth right now in spite of your present life it will happen my present dog is quite different now at a higher level therefore I do not invite anybody to listen to my present talks I recommend that nobody should come and listen because they will develop a diss passion for their family or daily life language energy and vital breath energy should merge and stabilize otherwise if

28:08 you allow them to go outward they will be dissipated if you want peace stabilize at that point where you started to be stay put their home is the unstruck sound the arm pronounced word you don't respond to my talks you have not been able to perceive the nature of your consciousness consciousness is something like the drama of a play play acting you are unsupported you have no support at all the birth the parents all this is illusion taking the body as oneself is an accident if you don't cling to the body as your identity everything is alright when

28:53 beingness forgets itself that state is parabrahman this knowingness is not your true state it is the outcome of the food essence body and you the absolute are not that November 21st 1980 whatever I had thought earlier has now changed what is happening now is that even the slightest touch of individuality has completely disappeared and it is consciousness as such which is spontaneously experiencing the result is total freedom all the time there was complete conviction that it was consciousness which was experiencing with that eye which the consciousness

29:39 was experiencing was there now that is totally disappeared therefore whatever happens in the field of consciousness I Who am there before consciousness I'm not concerned in any way the experiences of consciousness experiencing itself nevertheless understand what consciousness is even if consciousness is not an individual the basis and source of consciousness is in the material what I say is still in the conceptual world and you need not accept that is truth nothing in the conceptual world is true once the disease was diagnosed the very name of the disease started various thoughts and concepts

30:25 watching those thoughts and concepts I came to the conclusion that whatever is happening is in the consciousness I told the consciousness it is you are suffering not I if consciousness wants to continue to suffer let it remain in the body if it wants to leave the body let it either way I am NOT concerned all kinds of things were happening thoughts and experiences and they were credited to my account but once I have seen what it is all those account books have been burned and I no longer have any account how old musing it is to see someone who thinks of himself as an individual who thinks of himself as a doer or achiever whatever is happening and the

31:10 experiencing of that happening takes place in this consciousness when the IM arises November 24th 1980 if there is no difference between what is prior to birth and what is after death there is no difference is there any reason for attempting to learn who we are now isn't at all the same the light coming from the Sun and the Sun itself is there any difference the only difference is what happens in the middle whatever happens between birth and death is also an expression of the consciousness only even in the realm of consciousness you pass the time entertaining various concepts what else are you doing is

31:57 Maharaj playing with various concepts no it is consciousness it plays by itself does Maharaj is consciousness play even though he is detached from it consciousness is not private property it is universal though we understand this sometimes it seems confined to a body you are trying to understand with the intellect just be when I tell you that you are that dynamic manifest knowledge you are everything what else do you want I am aware that I came here because Maharaj gives me the mirror but this time he is showing me that I am my own mirror that is why you should not stay for long after we leave here what are we to do it is up to you if you abide in consciousness everything

32:44 will be happening spontaneously if you are still it body mind level you will think that you are doing something if you really abide in what I say you become one with yourself then people will be serving you they will fall at your feet whatever is necessary for you will happen activities are bound to happen consciousness can never remain inactive it will always be busy that is its nature when you come here you have certain expectations certain aspirations but after listening to my talks you lose all that even when I have an intuitive understanding of this what is this reluctance to give up all that I am NOT you not stabilized firmly in that

33:29 understanding your conviction should be such that no question should arise in the future about that for example a person is dead and has been cremated that it's all over is there any question about that like that it will be all over what effort do I need to make toward that effortlessly just be when the consciousness fully understands the consciousness will it embrace the body as itself it is in totality it is not going to pick out a fragment of the manifestation and say I am this the consciousness expresses itself as does light this five element don't play is the manifestation of consciousness the effulgence of consciousness only the play of the five

34:17 elements will finally merge into the consciousness because it is an outcome of the tanta sness November 25th 1980 people come here and stay for days weeks even months the first few days what they have heard takes root and that is when they should leave so that what has taken root will have time to grow in blossom as soon as the seed takes root they must go what has taken root must bloom must express itself within each heart Maharaj has said in this respect that the teachings were his gurus but the understanding was his my guru told me that consciousness alone is the Guru all other development sprouted within me the

35:04 fruit should grow on your own plant I should not so my understandings in you I have no use for traditions or traditional knowledge if you do the slightest research on tradition you will see that it is all a concept I am concerned with only one fact here I was in my wholeness not even aware of my awareness then suddenly this consciousness sprang up how did it come about that is the question which needs investigating one must understand how clever this fraud of Maya is first it shows us our body and makes us believe that we are the body but the body is nothing but respect the fertilized sperm and in that sperm the consciousness is

35:50 latent you see what a fraud it is the essence of the body is the essence of the foodstuff and this consciousness lies dormant in it from the very beginning in that consciousness is the entire universe having seen this who ever as understood is bound to be quiet knowing that this is only a transient happening an enormous structure of concepts being taught to us as knowledge is based and the simple appearance of consciousness December 5th 1980 this sickness gave the confirmation that there is no personality no individual sickness to whom sickness is part of the functioning

36:37 of the entire manifest dynamic Chaitanya it is the play of consciousness my true state is prior to consciousness that state does not depend on the consciousness there is a couplet we sang it bhajans to Chakrapani Chakrapani means the i am-ness the life-principle the manifests in suppo it is like this cigarette lighter the gas s such has no light but its manifestation is the flame it is full of light life energy even in the atom and sub atom that energy is there the functioning of consciousness takes place spontaneously and one does not know what will happen for instance I say

37:25 something in M will translate it one way B will translated another in whichever way they have understood it this is the way the process will go this chakra pani is like a flywheel Lord Krishna said rotating all beings that energy which moves all things in the waking state is latent in deep sleep how long is one unaware of awareness one doesn't know but suddenly consciousness arises does anyone think along these lines is it not amazing that consciousness which might remain latent for any length of time suddenly arises spontaneously is universal consciousness ever aware of itself as universal consciousness or

38:10 does it become aware only when there is a form awareness is not aware of its awareness if you get too much involved in what I am saying you will throw away the books you are writing everything I will finish the books then I am finished to Jean done you have promised me that you will complete the books universal consciousness will not write the books now will you write the books it will happen spontaneously December 8 1980 I am talking about the consciousness which works through this body at the moment but which is not visible this consciousness is not limited to the body but is universal consciousness I can't

38:56 speak of anything else now the person who is already dead is not worried about anything whether the people like it or not doesn't matter perhaps you may be getting some blessings some benefits from listening to my talks I don't know all my actions are the actions of universal consciousness appearing to work through this bunny and I do not remember something from the past and then act it is all action in the now where does the consciousness come from it never comes all goes it just appears to have come what is Maharaj know this and we do not it is not difficult for you to know also but with what identity are you asking is it karmic didn't karma be changed it is all consciousness

39:44 working not this one or that one working it is all consciousness can Maharaj out of compassion give me a push into that state of universal consciousness yes of course I can do that but you must listen to me you must have complete faith and whatever I tell you about yourself and you must behave accordingly by nature I am non manifest yet I am manifested but I am really not manifested can you live like that as the non manifest as long as the attribute is there the quality of the attribute the I am is there therefore I can speak like this if it goes away what happens the sense of I has come and

40:31 has gone that is all I'm not going to die one who has rejected this identity will understand Maharaj said that he is not going to die how can one who is not born died when people first learned about this illness those who have affection from he came to talk to me or wrote to me giving advice and medicine whatever is happened will happen I have no interest I don't have fear so I don't have to do anything it is quite in order that those who have affection for me right and come to discuss things with me I don't listen to them and that is also quite in order because I am not afraid of anything you are asking Who am I and you are not

41:17 going to get an answer because the one who'll get the answer is false you may have an idea a concept and you will think you have found yourself but it is only a concept you can never see yourself what is sat-chit-ananda it is words you can take it that sat-chit-ananda is the limit which your mind can describe of that state which cannot be described your true state is non manifest the manifestation comes and the words come the one who experiences satchitananda is there before the experience December 15th 1980 consider the status

42:03 you have reached if you are able to understand what I say and if you have understood there will be no status at all your worth cannot be measured you have done all your homework and now your sadhana or spiritual practice is bearing fruit now you are here let it grow in you you don't have to go to anybody else after you would leave this place that part of the work has already been done by you because you are worthy of that state of realization you are here today get to know that I am without words which arise in the morning knowing the self abiding in the self knowledge is not a mere intellectual knowing you must be that and you should not move away from it

42:50 remain firm do not consult others about the advice I have given to them abide in what I have told only you kill that curiosity to know what others are told to each seeker the appropriate advice is given unless you abide in your own true nature you will not be able to gauge the depth of another's nature when you try to understand others the self-effulgent nature oneself should open up completely you will know yourself in the process the knowledge being expounded here you will not find in any books now having given you so much you may see me tomorrow or you may not that is a material but don't forget what I have

43:37 told you about yourself December 18th 1980 this consciousness is like a screen and I am the screen understand what I say without concepts you are adding new concepts now go to zero concepts there are many spiritual seekers whose aim is to acquire sufficient merit to reach a certain place such as heaven but I Kunta I have had no aims except to find out I was not aware of my awareness and suddenly I became conscious that I am where and how did this consciousness arise on me that was my inquiry going back to that

44:22 state when the presence of phenomena was not there that is original knowledge of the original self so I went back tracing this original self and I reached a stage where I wanted to know what my state was before this consciousness arose that is the destination which I have reached Brahman is vara God all these are names given to the consciousness when it is conscious of itself if you have properly understood this knowledge what will be your position at the moment of so-called death it will be watching what is happening this consciousness gradually loses everything and ultimately consciousness is no longer conscious of

45:10 itself that state cannot be described it is called para Brahman the supreme absolute but that is only a name for communication purposes this line of inquiry started when I noticed that from the moment one wakes up until one falls asleep one is very busy doing something or other what is it that compels us to do these things because of what does this go on then I came to the conclusion that it is my beingness the fact that I am conscious of existing which is working throughout the day that was how my enquiry started in the body the indwelling principle that consciousness abiding in the

45:56 consciousness it became all manifestation now transcendence of the consciousness has also occurred with the appearance of consciousness the absolute knows it is I am this is the experience there are other experiences now in this time factor but experiences are gradually dropping off including this primary experience I am it is only the consciousness that is going to disappear the absolute is always there what a form the perfect state caught up in these experiences and trying to derive certain benefits out of the experiences is it spontaneous yes whatever experiences

46:43 were happening in this field of knowingness the ultimate principle got caught up in that it accepted some experience as itself accepting experiences as the truth it gets more and more involved December 22nd 1980 just now I was lying down in the waking State but with no perceiving or receiving of any words something like the prior to word state now the last traces of personality or individuality have left me last year I used to talk to people with a certain affection but that is not available now my growling place in the grocer world is gone now presently it is

47:29 in the subtler sphere as in space the effect of these talks is that you will stabilize in the very source from which the word sprout abiding in the dynamic manifest consciousness is abiding in the words of the Guru the meaning of the mantra I have given you is that you are the manifest dynamic principle not the body when you abide in that to become that people think that they are coming here of their own volition but it is the consciousness which is bringing them here because the consciousness wants this knowledge my talks are addressed to the consciousness you have identified with the body but you are not the body it is knowledge which must understand its own nature and merge with the

48:16 knowledge which is its source people come here and ask for blessings they don't understand that the knowledge that one is not the body but the consciousness within is the blessing December 25th 1980 when we are busy with our worldly jobs what should we keep in mind because the I am principle is there it is moving all over to recognize it you put on various uniforms in order to give it an identity but the principle is already there and because of that principle you are engaging in various activities unless you wear the uniform the body you will not be able to conduct any activities

49:02 this knowledge is meant for the Isabella principle which is presently caught up in the illusion that it is the body mind you have accepted the identity of the uniform and that identity becomes your ego is vara is the manifest principle by which all activities are carried on and as no form the forms are given because of the Five Element they'll pray now that principle gets completely lost in the uniform and is recognized by the uniform only you have the fear of death because you fear losing your identity the body since the uniform is available to you by all means use it but understand that you are not the uniform

49:47 what does one do when the uniform gets troublesome recede into your own self be one with your true self this i am-ness enjoys various experiences it becomes a beggar or King is this body eternal the body has been changing all during your life which identity is you I identify myself with my body I know that who I do give me a photograph of the meaning of that word I you can't principal has no name or form or shape my from conclusion is that whatever is done through the uniform is perishable it is not going to remain which uniform

50:35 has any permanency once you know that you are not the form or the name of that uniform it is all over suppose you have hoarded some thousand rupee notes and suddenly the government order comes that they are all invalidated once you discard this i am-ness uniform what remains is the parabrahman that which is eternally current is the parabrahman will Maharaj help me discard my uniform what is the need it is not eternal it never was we have not discarded ours that is the problem now tell me when that knowingness was not there what experiences did you have that little touch of a anis and you felt the existence of yourself in the world now

51:23 to give up this knowingness where's the need if you accept that uniform as yourself then the question of giving it up will be there give up your identity with the body try to know yourself it is merely knowingness you cannot perceive that state you come here because you are ignorant not because you are knowledgeable this knowledge I give is only to remove ignorance December 30th 1980 I think there should be beauty in the whole manifestation you should not get involved in what has appeared take a tree the bark the leaves the blossoms the fruit all have a

52:10 different nature if you get involved in the appearance of these you lose sight of the source the tree intellectually you have understood but you have to be one with it you have to identify with what you have understood understand that the seed of this body is the sperm of the Father mixed with the oval of the mother that it is the seed for the manifestation of phenomena but I am NOT the seed I am NOT the phenomena nor am I the consciousness which is time-bound the names and forms which you see a consciousness only your consciousness is very pure and that's why you are able to

52:56 judge the Atman is colorless but it is able to judge colors etc no sadhana is over you have reached this place this knowledge is for those who have no desires the self-knowledge is the most precious knowledge to you who search for the self I explained this type of knowledge I'd lead you to a state where there is no hunger no desire therefore I am not inclined to invite those who are worried about their possessions and the relations to listen to my talks when you have knowledge you see that the consciousness I is all-pervasive as long as the consciousness is there with the witness of the consciousness has no I am and that is your true

53:43 eternal nature I love gives rise to great joy and at the same time there is nothing so miserable as I love living up the body is a great festival for me what is the worth of all the activities of human beings it is all entertainment just the pastime you get pleasure only when you forget yourself and deep sleep you are forgotten yourself that itself is joy it is the Atman not the personality that is drawn to spirituality I will not expound knowledge in the future a few words here and there will be all January 3rd 1981 beingness has the

54:31 quality to become whatever you think of whatever concept you feed to the consciousness the consciousness will provide you with that whatever you hold on to intensely you are bound to be that that is the quality of your consciousness you should never think that you are the body consciousness is not the body as a result of the body the beingness is felt but beingness is all-pervasive consciousness alone feels the experience of consciousness but I the absolute I'm not that whatever is known as known by consciousness is in the field of consciousness the consciousness and the knowledge will subside when the food

55:16 body dies the absolute always remains the seat of knowledge is planted in you by these talks now you have to follow it up you must nurse it ruminate over it so that the Tree of Knowledge will grow January 4th 1981 I was pondering what maharaj said about all consciousness being the same this morning and for just a few seconds it was as if everything was 1 and I was behind it is this the aim that is not the aim it is so it is there and it is only because of identity with the body that what is doesn't seem as if it is please understand that there

56:03 is only one thing to be understood and that is that you are the formless timeless unborn that is because of your identification with the body as an entity that your consciousness which is universal consciousness thinks that it is dying nobody is dying because nobody was born the millions of forms are the manifestations of consciousness it is the millions of forms which get created and destroyed but Universal consciousness itself is unborn and undying just imagine if all the millions of forms which have been created was still here how could other forms be created it is because consciousness is

56:50 unborn and undying that the millions of forms get created and destroyed it is a continuous process understand that what you are is this unlimited universal consciousness only that in which consciousness manifests itself is limited and is created and destroyed the total potential consciousness remains it is unlimited you're seeking knowledge from the standpoint of identification with the body and whatever can be grasped by the mind when this body machine is there the technique of using it is there and that is what you are identifying with now but it is not your to identity you have no control over it

57:38 it has appeared it will disappear I talk to you from the perspective of the universal consciousness and I know that all bodies are the essence of food and that they will vanish January 7 1981 every time something happens now instead of getting involved in it I am seeing that everything is that I am this I am experiencing that witnessing takes place there is nothing to be done it is total freedom for one who does not identify with the body everything is happening on its own and I have no concern with it if that is so it means that you have understood everything and there is no need for you to linger your any longer

58:24 another person it is different for me I have to make an effort not to get involved in thoughts when I meditate it is the nature of the life force to express itself through thoughts and words so they will keep coming if you have to make an effort in the beginning not to get involved make that effort until it becomes effortless does the Ani have a mind and thoughts also although thoughts come and go the yani is not concerned thoughts will come in consciousness witnessing also takes place and consciousness you must have the conviction that you are consciousness thereafter there is nothing for you to do leave it to the consciousness to do what is to be done whatever happens happens spontaneously

59:10 where is the seed of consciousness in every particle of the juice of the body in the scriptural books it is normally given that there are various chakras those are available if you want to locate them like that but according to me it is throughout the body what is the difference between the body and consciousness what is the difference between sugar and sweetness the sweetness is there and the sugarcane juice in the body the sweetness is the knowledge you are the consciousness this knowingness is due to what what is the prerequisite for business is it the body the body is necessary to sustain consciousness for

59:56 the body to be food is necessary is it not yes if the body does not remain consciousness will not remain in the absence of the body and consciousness what are you I don't know now you want to get some benefits some advantage for yourself to whom is the benefit consciousness if you are not the body or the consciousness then what are you when you realize the self knowledge then the self is released liberated then what then you know definitely who you are that by which you know you know that also is that liberation liberation means what it is no more there I flick the

1:00:41 cigarette lighter on and off this cigarette lighter is the body the consciousness is the flame now it isn't there anymore it is liberated where is the need to label it in the absence of consciousness January 8 1981 outwardly you can imitate a yani but the yani has no fear he is the ultimate the ultimate state is that state in which there is a total end to this body name and form when there is no form shape color name who is there to ask anything whatever happens you accept it based on your identity with the body and the body is time-bound I have experienced that it

1:01:29 is not being what do you understand by the experience what is the significance of the experience is it not an experience of anybody any experience occurs where there is a change if there is no change there can be no experience it is not an experience it is a state of being non being that would you say is and is not is it according to words or is it an experience I will not play hide and seek with words that what you are describing is it an experience or just words it is likely that you have been influenced by what you have read and heard and therefore what you are saying is only what you have heard is that right or is what you are saying a practical experience which you have had

1:02:16 I said before it is not anybody's experience first I thought I was the body then I experienced that I was not the body but I was the consciousness then I got the experience that this consciousness is not really me and there is no form no individuality no nothing is that your experience the experience is that there is no body nothing that I am and I am NOT what is it that is no longer there the consciousness of the body now there is no center thoughts don't come from the center as a body if thoughts don't come from your Center as an individual body then how do the thoughts come do you now identify

1:03:01 yourself with the thoughts do you think the meaning of the thoughts and you are one in the same no one has really transpired what is the change the changes that the center in consciousness which was there is gone the center I am is gone tell me something about that Center first there was a center of identification in the body and now I don't feel that now there is no borderline now there is no particular entity i M means the knowledge you are that is now unlimited the knowledge I am has no limitation at all that is right thank you now I must go when he talks saying I am

1:03:48 doing this who I am doing that what he means is I am that knowledge of I am that is consciousness because unless the consciousness is there the body is not in deep sleep we are not aware of the body we are aware the body only when we are awake and the consciousness is there therefore when I say this I mean that it is this consciousness which I am and not the body which comes later sickness is an aspect of consciousness and I am NOT the consciousness I am NOT the i am-ness whatever sickness is there is in the domain of consciousness with the aid of consciousness sickness is being experienced when I shall be

1:04:33 totally in my ultimate state when this consciousness is finally extinguished that is my total perfect state when will I have no experience of this illness just as the Sun sets only when this consciousness sets would there be perfect health or no experience of this sickness so long as the consciousness is there the sickness must be experienced what is my pleasure or happiness nothing other than this knowledge I am this consciousness your idea of knowledge is something you can catch hold of something you can feel and put into your pocket this knowledge is not of that kind when I know that I am knowledge itself what can I hope to get

1:05:21 January 9th 1980 what are thoughts they are the result of previous conditioning which the mind is add are the thoughts of the yani and the ignorant one different from one another the difference is that the yani has divorced himself from the body mind the body mind thoughts will come and go but the yani is not concerned whereas the ignorant one gets involved in those thoughts and the ignorant one considers himself as a name and a form should I keep in mind constantly that I am consciousness only you are consciousness and consciousness is you and that's it it is not necessary to always keep your attention on that fact when you know that this is your finger is it necessary to constantly

1:06:08 repeat that it is your finger what is there to be done when an action must be done or a choice made how should one make the choice just understand that it is not your personal action or choice do not get involved as the door why do you get involved in all these concepts first find out what you consider yourself to be my you an entity get that problem solved instead of getting involved in all kinds of concepts one are you you cannot understand with your intellect it is beyond the grasp of the intellect January 11 1981 the spiritual experiences which I have are they

1:06:54 something which should not be there what is it it is all entertainment your present here your body not the result of someone's entertainment so long as you know that the experiences are only appearances in consciousness it is alright understanding is not a matter of time if you really have perceived the truth that is simple in quickly grasp the conscious presence depends on the body and the body is nothing but the sperm and ovum so where is this you this body is like an instrument this says I am like an announcer presently you think that you are the body mind in whatever concepts you have collected are flowing out when you begin spirituality you reject the

1:07:42 body mind with I am not that then you come to the I am only without words then you are everything you're not confined to the body because of the instrument of the body that feeling of consciousness is there and I the absolute and not that having stabilized in the consciousness the next step is to be in a position to observe the consciousness and all the play that is happening in the consciousness just don't understand attachment to the body and to the consciousness is very strong to get rid of it is very difficult the birth principle the chemical around which the body formation takes place as no form or design and actually didn't exist that non existing thing suddenly came into

1:08:30 existence what is the validity of its existence it is an apparition only it can't be the truth that's why I dare talk like this this is a big hoax a big fraud created out of nothingness can you create something out of nothing whatever I said is securely planted in that birth principle of yours you cannot extract it and due course it will proliferate into knowledge I don't want life even for a moment but in that momentary life there are so many lies I'm not afraid of death with the death the imperfection is removed consciousness the stigma of imperfection is gone what remains is total perfection

1:09:16 there is no guarantee that I will make you tomorrow but the reality is that there is no separation at all between you and me because we are one do not imagine any separation January 12 1980 I strike this lighter and the flame will last as long as the fuel is there is there any question of emancipation or awakening for that flame the body and consciousness would come into being because of the five elements can there be any emancipation for them the one who is prior to the appearance of the elements is always there what you are doing is using your mind and intellect

1:10:03 but what I say is not based on the intellect but rather on whatever comes up spontaneously in consciousness you try to fix that knowledge which spring spontaneously from consciousness into the structure of concepts you have built out of the mind and intellect this can never happen why do I feel such satisfaction here in Maharaja's presence because that need which arises in consciousness and brings you here is satisfied some people come here for knowledge I talked because the words naturally come out there is no intention behind my talks that you should get knowledge others come here because they are in difficulties I make no determination

1:10:48 that those difficulties should go away but the fact remains that in many cases they go away I merely sit here people come and go I am NOT concerned they come here from wrong distances because the consciousness feels the need to come here the individual doesn't come here because of an intellectual decision to come here consciousness takes him by the ear and brings him here my next-door neighbors don't come but people from all corners of the world come here with a sense of urgency why but the first time I came here Maharaj told me that my i am-ness was a food product and that lord krishna's consciousness was the same as a donkey's consciousness i tried to get a reservation out of bombay that day but

1:11:34 i couldn't get one for a week and I had to stay many talented and well-known people have come here but they come with great humility is there any of them who has knowledge about himself I am practicing na ma Jabba is that all right recite the sacred name that is all right but the important thing is to recognize and understand what is the presiding principle by which you know you are and by which you perceive everything else you must look at yourself get to know yourself the riddle of spirituality cannot be solved by your intellect at the most your intellect can provide you with livelihood whatever you try to become that is not you before the words

1:12:20 come out before you say I am that is you you must be concerned only with yourself don't worry about anybody else what are you January 14th 1981 the ultimate state is that state in which nothing exists neither I nor you know manifestation can Maharaj described the ultimate state can I cut up my sleep and make the design of it disassociate yourself from your body and tell me something about that can you describe it my dogs are not meant for normal human beings the normal person's field of understanding does not go beyond his own body the one who identifies with the

1:13:08 body is the consciousness itself it mistakenly assumes that it is the body and behaves as if its unlimited potential has been limited by this one single phenomenon therefore with this identification whatever behavior the consciousness adapts will be limited by the body the one who understands this ultimate meaning of life gets disassociated from the body and a transformation takes place the consciousness is universal universal like the day universal like the night to that principle you cannot give a name or a title who is the one who knows that there was no day no night the consciousness was not there day and

1:13:55 night remembering and forgetting the waking state in the deep sleep State are they one in the same thing or are they separate the capacity of consciousness is something astounding I didn't know I was and then suddenly I knew I am this i am-ness is the power of maya is the desire to be free wrong there is nothing happening nobody is bound therefore there is no question of liberation it is only when one thinks of himself as an individual that he thinks of bondage in liberation whatever concepts you have collected in this world are totally useless understand that the total manifestation is the child of a barren woman

1:14:40 but having understood this give full attention to your work and let that work be done as efficiently as possible take good care of this work that you do in the world because it is an orphan January 17 1981 in the consciousness is their doer ship and also witnessing everything is in the realm of consciousness or all the actions in the world being done through consciousness the movement of the five elements also the sum total of the five elements is consciousness it's beautiful to praise this consciousness by consciousness no oh yes whatever you are only you know

1:15:27 and the body is only the knowledge no person for practical purposes you use various names in the body why is this consciousness saying I you etc consciousness is one but it manifest into many so for practical purposes you say I you etcetera my consciousness is due to this body sustained by this body not other bodies in your consciousness all bodies are there maharaj said that I am NOT the body that the body is in me if you are an author a number of books are potentially in your pen since when did you realize that you are when the body and consciousness appeared the sum

1:16:12 total of my spirituality is now nothing even the word nothing is not there so there is no spirituality left suppose I do not like my body or even the vital breath what can I do the body is there vital breath is there and therefore this i am-ness is there they are functioning by themselves why should I worry about it it is having its play let it have it so long is that knowingness i am-ness is there that attraction will be there for others the knowingness is the outcome of the food Boni when this body is consumed where is that i am-ness there is no such thing as spirituality whatever is is only this worldly life in

1:17:00 the five-element don't play you are nothing better than vegetation just as grass is growing human beings are growing will anybody accept this birth is a material aspect if you are yourself alone that state will not be felt but if there is a foreign element only then the suffering starts on you the original this foreign element is imposed that is why it is suffering you will not inquire into what you are because you are intellectuals you will prepare delicacies all of your intellect then you will go on needing that even in spirituality you employ your intellect you prepare so many delicacies out of

1:17:47 your concepts and you relish them they could hint from what I have said that you experienced the world at all is the result of somebody's fun now that has become the source of misery is it possible to be in a wordless state can you live without words words are very necessary we are prisoners of our own concepts just inquire into that earth principle you are because you are the father and mother are it's a simultaneous happening because of their action you are and at the same time you have parents without their bodies what are they try to understand what they could be without their bodies ignore the

1:18:33 action because of what you are and then try to recognize what the parents are as a result of these two presences there is a third presence I am now will you clear out those concepts of yours about parents January 20 1981 earlier the knowledge used to overwhelm me and I would invite people to listen to the talks but that time is gone now now I don't encourage people I don't keep people here for very long I give them a dose of knowledge and send them away it is most incredible in the guise of that little so-called birth everything has happened not only the i am-ness but the whole manifest world has

1:19:20 appeared is it believable actually I am NOT but I feel that I am because of the incident of that birth when you get this knowledge you will realize that knowledge of this world in consciousness are not even worth your spit you can spit it out they will not be run worthy I appeal to you with my folded hands don't get in to spirituality whatever knowledge in concepts you are having only that final spark is to be applied you have everything the raw material is already with you the symbol of birth and death is already removed the factual

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