0:01 all right everybody we're going to dive into Teresa vva lyola John of the Cross and St benedic so sit down these were while you're sitting I just to tell you that these what they have in common they have a lot in common other than being Catholics but beside that um there's something that I think is so delicious is about these great Mystics and one is that one is that um these profound Saints tough radical
0:48 misbehaving um often arrogant stubborn human beings and then wiping the floor with you and then that's who generally makes the best Saints and that's because they that you're exactly the type of person who would stand up to the people that need to be stood up to so God doesn't waste a badass ego okay and so that's absolutely what's true and that was lyola ignacius lyola that was Teresa
1:36 Vila and that certainly was uh Benedict they had this in common Francis ofi most definitely the these patterns of these saints were that they they had this very Earthly engagement of personalities and when they were called and this is something thing that perhaps you should bear in mind because you have no idea how your life unfolds or what it is to be called and though what it means to be called These Days doesn't happen like it did in the 12th century or the 10th Century or the 15th when Francis of AI stood in in the
2:22 forest and he heard a voice say Francis rebuild my church or the way it happened with Teresa of aval where she had what's called a conversion experience when she was in the monastery she was already in her Convent but she entered as a as a nun as a girl who was interested fascinated with the life of a nun but then she had a conversion experience which is something that I had a trainer who had a conversion experience the man that I worked with at the gym you'd never know it but I did and but he say 6 fo five
3:08 Thug and he was a thug I mean he was a hired man who beat up people it's exactly what he did he beat up people and then he beat them up bad with guns and did serious damage because he was in the drug culture in Chicago that's a bad place to be in the drug culture have you read the news like 60 people die a weekend if you think I'm exaggerating think again my one of my best friends just lost one of her employees to a gunland killing it's bad okay so he was driving home one day and he heard the voice of Jesus on the radio it wasn't literally
3:55 playing on the radio but he heard it in here and according to him Jesus saidh are you killing my people and no matter what station he turned he kept hearing Jesus right now these are ex this kind of experience and the many many many many many that I can tell you about are not exp are not experiences that can be proven by anybody so if you say there's no proof you're absolutely right that's one thing we agree on he drove to a hotel room he got on his knees and he wept and he prayed for
4:41 three days he was converted he's a fundamentalist Minister now and a Healer his name is Willie I wrote about him in one of my books and by the the way during the the Bush Administration which was yet another Administration that I had a lot of problems with we were having breakfast and I was screaming and yelling and screaming and yelling about George Bush I couldn't figure out why willly was Willie wasn't agreeing with me and he just kept his you know he was eating his breakfast and I thought well then I'll scream louder I I expected expectations I
5:28 expected him to agree with me me because I'm always right when it comes to political fools and and and I I expect there's my word to be agreed with and Willie wasn't agreeing with me so I got louder and more petulant more demanding and I said how can you not just see my point how can you not agree with me and Willie just looked at me and he said I'm not judging him him and I said why not and he said because I haven't prayed for the man I can't I'm not allowed to say a thing and I took my fork and I want to
6:14 turn around to stab him and I said God I hate when you're right but therein lies The Genius of his soul when truth you know he had a conversion experience that kind of Truth just poured out of him there's your proof people don't make up he was living his proof how do you know some the the an experience is authentic they're the truth of what they said is oozing out of them it comes out of them at breakfast and the thing is it touches you and it causes you to have to convert
7:01 something it's electric if he had been a fraud and you remember this if someone's had a genuine if someone's genuinely been touched by God however you define God however you define that word if someone's genuinely been trust it touched by that holiness that Holiness never stops touching them and it goes through them to you it goes through them to you and then you to others it never
7:49 stops now we're going to apply all that as I take you through each one of these great Mystics who so have changed my life so have changed my life so you take a jewel from them and um perhaps it can become part of your own reference and when I talk about Teresa and John and lyola and them I no longer teach from the position of Catholicism any more than when I teach about roomie or um dos for me I only talk about the truth and not tell you something else about them when a person has a mystical
8:38 experience and and especi like these great people they would and they came to the point where they began to write about their experiences they ceased to write about Catholicism they were no longer Catholics they were cosmics and what became important for them it became important for them to communicate away into that Holy realm for everybody it was not important for
9:23 them to get you into the church it was important for them to get you into heaven to get you into you to get you into a higher path but not into the church they no longer spoke like that and in fact because they no longer spoke like that what they shared was they became targets of the church the church began to suppress them because they recognized that they had become holy beings and therefore they were a threat to the politics of the
10:09 church okay now in your life in your personal life for the rest of your life because I am going to get to but this is what you need to bear in mind because you are and have have opened up in the world behind your eye I don't know what your vocabulary is but there is such a thing as a sacred holy vocabulary I know that people are accustomed to using the word energy so that they are used to saying you know Energy Medicine or we're going
10:57 to work on someone's energy but I know because I'm one of the finest healers ever because I am um that I have long before I ever stepped forward to even offer my help about healing I was absorbed in the mystery of it why people don't heal to why people do so long before I even went near anybody I spent years trying to figure out why we do not
11:42 heal in order to kind of figure out how come who heals and who does not heal what what what what is the difference here what determines that difference what what is it exactly and a great deal of it were the words how we understood um how we saw ourselves and I recognized that people spoke in terms of energy and they did not understand that at some point that when you use the language of energy
12:28 words and you chose to speak you only got the power of the vocabulary you used this is really important to get what I'm telling you you only get the power of the vocabulary you decide to use so if you are working with Energy Medicine that's all you're ever going to get and there's no power in Energy Medicine at all not the kind you need it's not until you recognize that what you really need is Grace and that you have to make the transition to
13:15 Grace you need a more powerful word and all that goes with that word that the word energy is never going to help you there's nothing sacred about it there's nothing holy about it there's nothing about the word energy that will ever help heal you zero nothing nothing ever that in order to heal a disease that is rapidly disintegrating your body your mind your being you need a word that's connected to a legion of angels you need a word that can get you to a high altitude that for
14:02 you is connected to the word faith energy does not connect you to the word faith I'm sorry but it doesn't they don't have anything in common not even a letter nothing zero nothing energy does not connect you to the word devotion it doesn't connect you to the word belief you don't require anything to use the word energy a light bulb will often get you to it but the word Grace gives you
14:48 hope it implies that maybe just maybe just maybe probably yes indeed there's a force standing next to you from another realm that in fact has your best interest at heart and at soul that there is such a thing as the realm of healing and the angels that go with that and you would not be mistaken that is the truth you need that word and you need to understand that word one
15:34 of the teachings of Teresa of Avala and here's oh I that girl is just too good to be true okay so what she taught her nuns she taught her sisters is really one of the great teachings and that's that she taught her sisters to look for God in this small details of their lives now this is one of the most healing pardon me this is one of the most healing things that you can practice for yourself is to look for the power of God to look for God in the smallest small and smaller details of your life where
16:21 you stumble and where you will fall is that you look for God in great big huge things in great big huge proofs in great big huge dramas because you want God to be great big huge because you want things in big neon signs because you don't want to fail because you want things to be obvious because you always tell yourself that you're afraid and want to be this vulnerable little person so that someone comes to your rescue and somehow you want to present yourself to the cosmos so that God doesn't do
17:07 anything disastrous to you you got to get over yourself you got to stop treating yourself like a vulnerable frightened 2-year-old who can't get over problems on this planet stop it if I was your spiritual director I'd say knock it off you don't get one ounce of compassion from me none zero move on you you can't behave as though you're the only human being who's ever faced a bad day or whoever will your life is very short and what
17:54 your homework is with me is to get a very small calendar in and I'm going to say that's the length of your life that's it that's all you get so if you want to sit here and cry about how frightened you are put every day on there and that's what we'll do and see how good that makes you feel but what you don't get to do is blame one person ever again for your choice to complain about being frightened that's what you have to give up because that's what Teresa would do are you with me the First Choice you do is to choose to never again ever use another person's name in
18:44 excusing the choices you make for your life never you can never use your past ever can never use mommy or daddy you can never use anybody else ever again as the reasons why you make the decisions you do from now on every choice you make begins and ends with I or me here's a Teresa of Avala teaching you may never ever blame another person for a decision you made the only occupant of
19:31 your body is you that's it no one occupies your body but you unless you want to claim possession that's it and if you were to say to me as a mother Reverend but I could play the part tragically but if you were to come up to me and say but this person said but that person said I would say I would focus my attention on you and say let's I want you to say that
20:16 whole thing again through you what would you say unable to mention anyone else how would you put it and what finish the sentence I what I made a decision uhhuh and okay okay my response would be i w well I would keep the dialogue going until because that wouldn't accomplish anything that wouldn't accomplish that
21:02 states the obvious I would keep the dialogue going until you as my devil directe would say my instincts and intuition was off the mark now I need to figure out why why I why I did not trust my guidance what would what did what I obviously got guidance to do something and I chose to act against it that's what I would expect that's what I would expect is that kind of precision that saying that you're
21:48 responsible and this is an important thing will never help you will'll never help you and I'm going to take a moment here this is what makes Ignatius Lola Teresa Vila John of the Cross so brilliant because they especially Ignatius he initiated what's called spiritual Direction he was the first one and one of the teachings in spiritual direction if I was your spiritual director you'd see the difference one a common dynamic in our society our very
22:34 therapeutic Society has been to encourage people to say I take responsibility but the truth is as somebody who's also been watching the disintegration of your health and the speed at which you age and the speed at which we don't heal is that the words and because I'm a Wordsmith I have watched the significance of every word we say and its impact not only on how we lose our
23:23 power but what empowers us and it wasn't until until I got I I my own life took me down the path of mystical language that I began to see a see a difference in the speed at which we could heal when a mystical infusion of vocabulary was put into somebody's head when they took out the word energy and put in the word Grace when they took out the word like for example when they would instead of saying I know I'm responsible and suddenly and shifted to a position of
24:12 I'm accountable I need to account for this to myself to my inner world and I need to make a diff I need to I need to reflect operative word I need to reflect on why I did this and in Teresa's language I need to look for the small details in me as to why I did not listen to my intuition because it told me to do something and I did not agree with it this is the level at which you gain
24:58 what Teresa of Ava called self knowledge knowledge of yourself not therapy stuff but knowledge of yourself why am I who I am why do I do what I do now in today's world we Define romantic intimacy by finding a partner Who quote really knows me whatever garbage that means but but in romantic code what it means is that you find
25:44 somebody who somehow is able to articulate these vast caverns in yourself so that you don't have to speak speak them yourself so that you don't have to do that and you think that's romantic somehow that qualifies as romantic that you don't have to be aware of yourself yourself that because someone sees you clearly that that is an indication of Romance when that is a is a parlor
26:33 game children okay unless you know yourself how will you make any kind of Clear Choice for yourself know yourself and you know the universe so one of the practices that all the mystics had in common and that all all philosophers I mean think people of the inner now oh I just thought of something pause button now you haven't been asked this before so don't just do a knee-jerk reaction and throw your hand up as though okay I can answer that real fast no you
27:20 can't you have to really say wait a minute I have to think about this are you a person who does deep reflection or are you a person who just gives knee-jerk reactions which are you who's a knee- jerker as a rule a knee-jerk reaction then you don't think about it twice later how many of you read deep poetry okay how many of you read deep novels okay that's good good good good good okay okay so reflection would be part of
28:07 your inner World okay so I have to remind myself you'll excuse me that I'm not dealing with Americans I'm wondering I'm wondering how come so many hands are going up and I realized I'm not in America oh you'll have to excuse me it's so refreshing okay that's where you know in my country half has the Fourth of July and the other half has July 4th okay now I'm going to add John to the Cross here
28:55 um a phrase here has come into common use which is um Dark Knight of the soul and it's not uncommon to hear people say I'm in a dark night have any of you ever used that phrase so it you see okay but I I how many of you have said that phrase but not really before you knew that it was from um a renowned mystical text written by a Spanish Mystic the leading Spanish Mystic of Spain okay so and you know how he came
29:43 to write it okay so it's worth knowing because it relates to all of your lives and the reason all of this relates to your lives is this is the again the extraordinary moment in which you are all of us are living you know in entering the the nuclear age you know what happened was we came into the world of quantum physics which made mean nothing to us we're like oh God is she going there again yes I am just for a minute and that's that in the world of quantum physics
30:28 what happened was the scientists the world entered the place where science became invisible where they started to study invisible matter the world of quantum particle particle physics where they went from matter to the world of energy are you with me here this is such a big deal because prior to that everything they studied was matter so if someone had said to to the to a scientist in 1922 do you realize the world is full of particles that are energetic they would have gone what are you talking about so that if 1922 and 1932 and 1935 if someone had
31:16 said there's atoms there's particle there's quirks there's Quantum there's the whole world that we now know that thoughts are that light is a wave and particles things that we are now basing the construction of our universe in they would have said none of that exists so the world they were taught as the world the world we were taught does not exist anymore you have to really get this you have to get that the world you were taught is not the world that
32:01 exists you have to get this in your blood and in your bones that the world that does exist now is a world in which the way everything should be taught now beginning with our anatomy to the anatomy of the Earth to the anatomy of life has to begin with the world of energy before the world of matter it has to be including our anatomy the way I articulate it has to be energy Anatomy first this is how you
32:48 are made you have an energetic anatomical system the Earth has an energetic anatomical system all life has an energy system why because everything is a duplicate everything is a duplicate nothing exists out of the order of nature nothing it's not possible it is not possible and that is the nature of God and that's how you know God you know God because there's no exception to God that's one of the Expressions what does Teresa Vila teach God Almighty look for
33:33 God in the small detail and the small detail is nothing exists out of the laws of nature you want to know how God what the nature of God is nothing exists outside of God it cannot be otherwise so you think that doesn't mean anything that is the gargantuous hugest mystical truth you have to shrink yourself like a genie and squeeze yourself into that bottle get in there just like a genie and think okay I'm in this truth that says nothing exists outside this truth
34:19 what what I what is that mean now imagine you're in that truth and it animates like a floating bubble and now you're in this truth and it starts driving you around and you're floating in the trees and out because you are one with everything everything is one breathing all life is now breathing together with you all of life is just breathing together and you you're one with everything everything is just one big huge one and it's you're breathing with the animals and they see you and you see them and it's just one huge breath all life and then you you feel the breath of creation as soon as you think something
35:05 you see molecules and atoms forming around the vibration of your thoughts taking a command and forming a river of creative creation itself and you realize that's going to actually become something like an energetic snake that begins to form its way into substantive matter and you realize everything I say takes this energy but it becomes a directed snake of creation and you realize everything is this flow of dance of creation and it's all one it is all one one incredible Oneness and you and this is
35:50 how all of nature is one big huge there is nothing that exists outside of it nothing and this is how you begin to think so the all these all of it works so the major law here is one of I feel the flow of Nature and nature always flows toward balance so no matter what I can just let go cuz nature will always bring me toward balance and if you're really still you'll notice that your whole system has the word balance plugged into
36:36 it that's a soul code so your soul is coded to always bring you back to balance part of God in your blood and in your bones in your organic theology is always programmed to get you toward balance in your reflection your prayerful reflection if you say should I say this should I do this you should automatically turn to the word balance will this put me in balance or will this throw me out of balance and your entire
37:23 system will answer you your stomach will speak first your stomach will speak first your throat will answer and your head so your solar plexus your throat and your head right here the congruent Zone will always answer you this is how your intuitive system speaks to you this is the balance of your ship this is like your metronome it will speak to you okay because this is how nature is programmed this is God and your blood and in your bones you're organic the the the the
38:11 heaven speaks to us through our Design This is organic theology you can always count on the nature of God it's programmed into us in our very fiber in our fiber the nature of God is law is law itself are you with me here this is this is such an important thing to understand you know one of the teachings of Teresa whom I'm madly in love with is that she and one of the teachings of all the mystics is in my language here's your
38:56 mantra humble up humble up what will always get you in trouble is your pride you're hubris it will always always always get you in trouble and your little book about how people should treat you and how people should think about you and here's what's true if you die tomorrow you would all have a very small funeral and nobody would miss you the next day except a handful of people have I made my point and the world would continue to spin and within a few weeks all our bodies would be
39:41 rotten and even less people would miss us as their lives would absolutely go on without us have I made my point so your little books about how no one can talk to you in that tone of voice I would suggest you edit those and here's the word humble up humble up I've seen people get their knickers in a Twist because someone got on a plane before them where's that plane going to go they're waiting in line to get on a filthy tube a filthy tube that hasn't even been
40:26 properly cleaned but they have to get on there before anyone and I'm thinking you're getting on a filthy tube you can't wait to get on there and buckle yourself in an uncomfortable seat you silly this this is what an ego does this is what a ego an unharnessed ego does and if you have that kind of unharnessed ego okay you have to kind of think to yourself I can't even control myself around a filthy airplane so don't you dare go praying for a Highest Potential when you can't
41:11 even be a guardian of your lowest humble up got it okay another thing Teresa of Avala would always say to her you know when you are she she would always say to her to to her girls she would always say to her girls you don't deserve anything deserve is a word that will always get you in trouble so to tell yourself that you deserve something is a very interesting perspective and you will make incredibly sabator choices
41:57 if you want to eat something then damn it eat it don't do a Prelude that says I deserve this cuz I've had a good day bad day as if somehow or other that is going to be like a a calorie exorcism it's not if you want it eat it if you want to buy something don't tell yourself you deserve it because was just buy it and own the fact that you're going to have a debt don't be what I'm telling you is grow up and stop doing the song and dance around why you do what you do stop it go
42:45 straight for the jugular the word deserve this is like when I hear people use that when there is a crisis that happen happens these people don't deserve this they're innocent they don't deserve the tsunami the fire the losing the deserve is one of those words which means the reason I cannot tolerate the use of that word it's as if to suggest that somehow there is a God that operates on laws like human beings do that bad things only happen to bad people and that we know what those bad things are and that somehow we can tell who a
43:34 good person is and if they're good people they don't deserve any bad things happening and we decide bad things are anything that is painful anything that causes the loss of money anything we know exactly what what bad is that word gets you in trouble and if you were ever to give up a word I would suggest you consider that one
