0:00 hi everybody welcome thank you for making the journey here to Vancouver um and to this wonderful hotel that we're going to uh have an opportunity to um spend some time together and um pursue a wonderful subject guts and God and uh I'm very excited about that I'm I particularly want to um express my thanks to so many familiar friends and I feel like half of you are family and so it's fun to teach that and the atmosphere is going to become I'm sure a very gracious and loving one because that's what happens when we come into a
0:47 place and we fill it we're the only ones in this hotel yeah yeah so when you hear people rattling next door if they're too loud feel free to bang on the walls because there really is a good there's a chance you will know everybody and you can wear your you can wear your robes in the hall because you're only going to run into someone you know seriously I would like to begin the workshop with a blessing because it I I really do like to enter into something sacred and holy with Grace so I'm just I I just would like to say um hover over us God because we are entering into uh the examination of our
1:34 relationship with you and uh that is the biggest Journey for any human being is to look into the soul of oneself and invite the presence of God and that is Holy listening to listen to The Holy so bless you bless us and let Grace hover over us as we work together amen so I wanted to just I'm not going to say too much tonight except to just warm us up because um you've traveled it's late and some of you are on what who knows what
2:20 time zone so I won't I won't cause you to kind of get to the point where you have to hold on to each other to stay in your seat but I do want to say a couple of things about what we're going to be where we're going I want to launch some thoughts into you and that's that you know this Workshop the idea has come out of many years now for me of being in the uh being involved in spirituality I don't think I've NE I have never not been involved in spirituality but the route of um looking at it through
3:06 um healing through what are Miracles through um the struggle people have in looking for God looking for spirituality looking for meaning and purpose and then you know one day it occurred to me and sometimes when things occur to you in one of those epiphanies it it's it's sometimes they're so big that it takes your breath away and it was one of those and um and it occurred to me that there was a time not so long ago where there would never be a workshop like this ever that that my experience today with people is that it's much more the
3:53 case that people that I meet are more certain about what they do not believe that what they do believe that it is much more the case that you have a deep faith in what you and I and you know for certain exactly why you've been disappointed in absolutely what you have no faith in than what you have any faith in at all and that today that seems to be the nature of spirituality what you are certain you do not believe in forms more of one spiritual life than what someone does believe in it's become inverted it's become upside down that to
4:40 be able to say this is my devotion this is what I believe is a very rare thing in somebody to have any sense of conviction or devotion or sincere faith that somehow or other the word faith has become tied to religion to religion and religions become a rather repellent thing to many people it's it's something that makes someone go like this as if faith and religion have anything to do with each other in this regard faith is what you know to be so without proof that's what faith is it's what
5:26 your inner experiences validate for you that which you do not need another person to validate I'm going to spend a lot of time with you on this because I now this is Carolyn the Healer coming through on this end I've spent a long time looking at why people heal and why they don't I even wrote a book on it today I would write a much more updated version because I have continue to to examine that and as the mysticism part of my life engaged which it had yet to do when I wrote the first
6:12 edition I did not yet realize the role that Faith or what we believe or the capacity to believe anything played a role in our cap our capacity to experience a miracle now I'm going to say this again because it's really important that that you you grapple with this that what it is you are capable of having faith in um sets a kind of a climate inside of
6:59 you and how much you are able to sustain that has a lot to do with whether or not you can sustain the experience of a miracle that has more to do with whether or not you heal rapidly or not it's whether or not you have enough Faith to sustain something phenomenal that has happened to you because you if you do not have the stamina of Soul when someone says don't be ridiculous that couldn't have happened and if you do not have the stamina to say it did
7:44 happen and regardless of what you say it did happen I know what I experienced the majority of people do not have the faith to sustain the tsunami coming at them that says sorry but in my world that doesn't happen well perhaps it doesn't in your world but it did in my world and your doubt is not coming into my world keep your doubt and your bitterness out of my world because it's not coming in here now when we talk and we're going to go deep into this because this has more to do
8:31 with what the experiences that happen to you and how you understand God how you understand God what you are able to sustain in yourself you're the you determine so much more than you realize by what you are able to coordinate in your in your life with the people with whom you live what you would uh imagine yourself experiencing and whether or not in your own conscious or unconscious way could you then take that experience and blend it into the world you live in or do you consider that to be too risky and you might think oh no I really
9:17 want I'm telling you that if push came to Chev most of you in this room would walk away from it would walk away from something miraculous as opposed to actually allowing it to come into your life and that's the truth that's the truth I've been around this far too long now to know I speak from expertise because the consequences of it are what most people can't sustain okay it's because you don't know how to explain you don't know you can't take the CH okay so this is
10:03 where when I talk to you about where do we begin with God and guts this is the guts part this is the guts when people people keep up extraordinary barriers to their inner world that are all self-produced because they're terrified of the kind of clarity you actually can access the type of Purity inside that you can access because of how your world will change of how your world will change and how rapidly it would change and how quickly it would change you know in
10:49 in in previous times not so long ago just prior to the 60s we wouldn't have a workshop like this because nobody questioned Faith nobody had questions like we have today they wouldn't they wouldn't even exist nobody did nobody questioned you know whether there's a God or whether was this or or for what purpose do was I born nobody ever spoke like that nobody even thought about things like that because it those questions were so huge and do you know there was a time when in the monastic years where if you thought about asking
11:36 for what reason was I given life do you know the size of that question for what reason God did you give me life now I'm sure many of you have asked some version of that question yes or no and what did you expect it the answer would be serious I'm serious so your job you thought it was a job so you were born for a job really okay so you thought God was an employeer and you were born for a job what else so if you're unemployed you have no purpose that's what it feels like to you but okay anyone else level of
12:24 kindness I'm sorry how does that answer the question like what how am I going to share kindness and word Jud in my life okay okay well in a manast you know like in the in the days of the carite days in the early days or the trapis it would be much more the case that you would have to prepare to a and ask that question that you would go to your spiritual director and you would be told you would go into a preparation to even ask that question because the understanding is that question is going to change your life because what you are actually doing is you're saying shed take away
13:11 everything that is a distraction from me understanding why my soul is on this Earth not my personality not my fears but my soul not my need for attention not my need for anything my soul what's what did you send my soul to do on this Earth maybe maybe you sent me here only to stand at the corner and hold the umbrella up for people but whatever it is that's all I want to do now and our ego doesn't have the wherewithal to to say that kind of prayer because the ego is always saying look I'm lonely so it better be for me whatever you gave me whatever purpose in life it better be for me cuz I'm not
13:58 happy and it better make me happy and it better take care of all my needs and da d d da but in the monastic sense it's whatever all these things that make you unhappy are what's taken away from you all the distractions and what's left is what usually emerged for for people and it still is the case is that the life things that you would never never have seen choices you would never make become the way of your life that it's not that it's it's that your life begins to unfold around things that you would never have allowed in
14:46 because for for reasons of ego for reasons of other distractions this would they would have not the those choices would not have been part of your life so the way that part of you that deeper part that says you know for what reason did you put me here that is not something you can intellectually know it is something that becomes revealed when everything when all the reasons you thought fall apart and it becomes revealed is that making sense to you yes no yes okay
15:31 I'm looking for a yes or a no no no I'm I'm looking at this one woman in the front seat and I don't know your name otherwise I Jen Jen or put it this way have you ever ended up doing something that you didn't realize it worked out for the best and you couldn't see how in the beginning it would there that's an incident you think I would never chosen to do this but the fact is it worked out for the best something that works out for the best that you never would have chosen to do is a small example of what I'm talking about just like that and you didn't see how it could have and you never would
16:17 have chosen it but in the end it was exactly the right thing and sometimes it kills you to admit it that's the hand handiwork of the Soul right there right there okay it's the kind of thing that um well when when we ask that question we pray very close to the Bone what am I doing here what do you really want of me and that kind of prayer I often watch who's capable of saying it who's really capable of praying that
17:02 deep and close to the Bone without conditions because the truth is prayer is that powerful prayer is that powerful like what what's in the invisible world what's in the Unseen World and how do you know anything's there and and you know cuz you could think like am I talking to the air I mean what's out there and and are there are there really is there anything really out there and I thought maybe it would be fun just to talk about inspiring true things tonight so that it kind of leaves you in a great place how does one prove that there's
17:47 things like Angels or that every prayer is answered or that the pursuit of God is worth your effort particularly now that the disruptions in you are all for reasons that if your life is for example finding a different direction or things are not working as you think they should that there is the handiwork of something other than you at work in your life that it's sometimes very difficult to understand that um the way Heaven works is that when you when the goal of
18:36 Heaven is is not to make you happy and it's going to be very disappointing to understand this but happiness is not the number one thing on the list what the number one thing on the list is actually to make you aware of you it's to make you aware of how power powerful everything you do is and the consequences of every one of your choices to everybody to yourself and to the whole of creation this is the actual goal of the non-physical world it's not about you finding happiness you finding love you finding this to say that heaven could
19:21 care less about that is a masterpiece of understatement not kidding you not kidding it it is so not their goal that's your goal but it's not theirs the goal of the non-physical world is to make you conscious of the powers of cause and effect action and reaction choice and consequence of how powerful every single thing you do is how powerful every single thing you say is the power of every word and we're going to spend some time on that the power of every thought
20:06 the power of everything how you look at someone how one thought in your head one thought about one person actually is felt by that person and that tiny little droplet of negativity has enough Force to in that person's magnetic field to bring them down for the day just enough or bring them up for the day just enough to even determine if that person's going to do something like make a bomb in the basement commit suicide or decide not to and I'm not kidding you because if you look at yourself on your worst day on your sad in your saddest moment
20:53 the thing that stopped you from becoming just that much more sadder that much more desperate but was actually one small and that was it and maybe that was one small kind thought when someone was looking at you and you didn't see it and it got into you and that's called Grace and you didn't see it you didn't see someone looking at you maybe somebody was looking at you and saying oh that poor person and that compassion flew into you and you didn't see it you didn't see it that someone was looking at you with compassionate eyes that s that day and saw how heartbroken you were and maybe for that small moment set a prayer for you or had a kind thought for you and you didn't see
21:39 it and in that moment that was the moment that you sat there and thought I can get through this but you don't know where that came from that's where it came from that's how powerful you are that's the goal that's the goal of your god of God that's the goal of your guides that's the goal of the Angels that's the goal of the seraphim the ch ch every one of them the whole teamwork it is not about finding happiness and jobs and all that nonsense that's Survival we'll we'll get to that tomorrow I'll get I'll lay out the whole map but this is the name of the game and your biology is designed to cooperate with exactly what I'm talking about which is you make choices
22:25 that negotiate the balance of your energy and you will pay for it with an illness you'll pay for it because your system will let you know that you are hemorrhaging if I make a a choice and I I become jealous of your medallion I've got to have that Medallion and then I make up a narrative that says she always gets the prettier medallions she always does I've seen it for years and I want that Medallion and I start telling myself that everything goes well for her and her I'm sorry what's your name Brenda Brenda for Brenda's life because she has that Medallion and this is what we do we make up stories that's how our life works we
23:11 make up our own narratives if I have that Medallion then everything will be white with me and we start telling ourselves this and now I'm creating a whole big fake Universe around a fake story and a fake medallion but don't think Brenda's not feeling this because she is because part of me wants her to feel it but what's happening to me is I am now hemorrhaging you can't see it but I can feel it there's a part of me that's just and it's coming right out of me and this is how we put ourselves into
23:57 suffering position and we start hemorrhaging and what we do is we start falling out of balance and what's the law of nature the law of nature is a law of balance stay in Balance balance is the nature of Nature and it's the nature of your nature so to take it back even if when someone if you're going through a very difficult time and you think this will never end the fact is ending is built into this into the pain it's built in because that's the nature of nature that and the and the
24:45 and this is God in the system this is the m of what Teresa V my beloved Teresa V would say God in the details I love the way she is God in the details how is it built into nature you're not rewarded for your suffering it's that it's Des it has to stop because that's the nature of nature you suffer this much and then the balance has to come in and bring you back to the other you understand the Phoenix has to Rise From the Ashes because that's the way life has been designed whether you're an atheist and agnostic or a a Believer it doesn't
25:33 matter you will rise from your ashes because that is how Nature's designed to take you out of your suffering to end all those cycles and then we go through another one because that's how it's designed there'll never be a time when we are not cycling through these Cycles we are not cycling because we're punished we're cycling because it's renewal renewal and they will end because they are meant to end not because we like 10,000 million candles and fast and crawl on our knees they end because they are going to end and our job is to learn again and again what do I learn this cycle what do I do
26:19 better how do I stay in Balance better better and better because this is the nature of life and the nature of life is the nature of God this is how the structure works and if you want to have any fa faith in anything you have faith in the the structure of it and in the guarantee and the intimacy is prayer because it is all run by laws laws have no religion thank you God for that they have no religion and yet what is a miracle miracle is when the laws are bent for you and they are bent for you be and the and and the and the chord that singular
27:04 intimate chord is prayer so for some unknown reason that I can never explain and I'm not supposed to with this vast incredible hugeness that is life this impersonal universe that is set up where the tides go as they go and gravity goes all of us will fall off this building if we jump it is just the it is still you are known by name Every Breath You Take registers every thought you have it matters every kind act it it blows my mind but it's the fact it's a fact it's just a fact and you have to trust me on this one and you and there's no reason why you should but try test it out try and be mean to someone and see
27:49 if there isn't every part of your biology every part of you says what are you doing this for there's what's hovering over for you that says stop it why are you doing this what's warning you what part of you stands up and says why are you doing this why you doing this who's the guardian there if it didn't matter why does everything in us want to put a bit in our mouth and say stop it and why when we see somebody who needs help does everything in US say go do something now if it didn't matter if we weren't being watched how come when you do something when you're
28:36 told to do something when you hear it go now move and you don't do does heaven never let you forget that that you didn't listen you are never let off the hook that's called regret what's a regret you are never let off the hook for not listening to God that is the one one thing you are never let off the hook and if there wasn't if it didn't matter you could just walk away and say oh well no big deal but it is a big deal because if I said to you you know what write down five regrets you'd have them at the top of your head if I said write down all the good things you've done you won't even remember them since yesterday because you don't keep track of them
29:22 that's Heaven's job regrets you know them cuz they won't let you go that's how come I know the system is the way it is and I absolutely believe Angels show up all the time I bet you every one of you has seen an angel and you haven't B disguised as somebody and you don't know it and that French that French adage you you be you be careful how you te you you treat a stranger because that's how you meet an angel they always come as strangers so you be careful because you may be encountering a stranger and that is so true that whenever I'm with a stranger I'm always like
30:08 this I really am like oh I don't know I don't know who you are sit down sit down anything you want you know I I get particularly formal around you know could be anyone could be anyone not kidding I sound like a superstitious kid I'm not in fact I'm the furthest thing from it it's just I have come to see too much now I'm I'm past that I've just gotten really hardcore practical and have seen far too much and I just know that it's at the same time we have a world that's gone crazy we have a world that's gone crazy and so what I I know is that we are living in a change we are living in
30:55 this incredible time where the way where one way of life is evaporating and we are the Pioneers structuring the beginning of what will be a new way of life where we are the very crude versions of people who will one day fully accept that they are multi-sensory that they are intuitive by Nature that they are that they are that they perceive each other's energy field as clearly as they perceive each other's bodies we are we are very crudely
31:41 beginning to you know we're we're like we're like the people who just discovered the wheel for God's sake when it comes to that world but but in a sense our inner Frontier is the New Frontier like outer space and Inner Space are the two New Frontiers and our Inner Space I think on a micro is as vast as the outer space that's how vast we are who knows how many dimensions we are participating in I have no idea but but I know that we have shifted into the beginning of a new version of human
32:26 being that's a big mouthful we are not five senses that is not true anymore we have much more capacity in us we can heal much more than common medicine has has is capable of not because they don't want to but because they are bound by fears and time and space and selfishness and all kinds of things those are perceptions and rules that that our species abides by but if we didn't abide by that and
33:11 that wasn't our values we could regrow spinal tissue we could do all kinds of things if that were not our value system if we had our solar technology s o u l a r and s o l a r and we put our soul s o l panels on our heads and really really allowed ourselves to access the power of our soul not as a religious thing but if you understood your soul as your conscious companion and you shed the idea that the soul was somehow or other a participant
33:57 in a religion and you finally got it as the titanium battery of your physical body that it is your Cosmic Alter Ego that it's your Cosmic Powerhouse that understands the nature the cosmic nature of your nature so that's how I want to approach what we're going to be doing together for the next few days and uh I hope that that sounds appealing to you
