I'm losing my god damn mind..

0:00 I got to do something because uh this house, bro. Like I I was going through everything yesterday and uh I was having like a [ __ ] ex like I I just want y I want I want to take you guys through what happened yesterday. All right. So, as soon as I end my stream, I do the usual. I go outside. I go for a walk and uh you know, I'm just walking around doing stuff, exercising a little bit. I come back in the house and I realize, "Oh my god, this house smells like [ __ ] shit." And so, not [ __ ] I wish it smelled like [ __ ] It'd be better than it smelling like a dead animal. And so it smells like [ __ ] garbage. Uh, so I I go to my dad's house and I'm like complaining to him about it for like [ __ ] an hour. And uh then I finally go and I come back home. I eat my food and I I play Tainted Grail Avalon, which

0:46 honestly uh you know, the world in that game is cleaner than my [ __ ] house. Uh and then I fall asleep on the floor. Uh, I wake up at about 4 in the morning and I realize that the only thing that I can taste and smell is dead animal. And so I'm like, this this is 4 in the [ __ ] morning. So I go downstairs. I'm going to go to sleep and I can't even go to [ __ ] sleep because of this [ __ ] smell. And so it's bothering me so much. So [ __ ] nasty. So I I'm laying in bed and I'm like, "Fuck this." It's 4:30 in the morning, by the way. 4:20, 4:10 in the morning. I get up. I put on my clothes and I go into the [ __ ] attic and I'm in that [ __ ] attic. This is the attic, by the way, I fell through the ceiling in. I'm in the attic. I It's 4:20 in in the morning, right? I'm not

1:31 even kidding. Going through this [ __ ] trying to find this [ __ ] uh this [ __ ] animal and uh I'm going to eat lunch and I'm I'm there for an hour and a half and and I It's so bad. I'm sweaty. I'm [ __ ] like there's dirt all over me. And at the end of it, it was so bad. This is gonna s This is how you know it's desperate. Okay, this is how you know it's really really serious. I took a shower. Like I had to take a [ __ ] shower. Like it was so [ __ ] disgusting. And so I went and I took a shower and then I finally went to sleep. Oh, actually after that I went and I got orange citrus spray and I sprayed it all around the house. So now it smells like an orange it smells like an orange rat died and which is slightly better,

2:17 right? And uh that's it. And then I didn't find it. I did not find it. I made literally zero progress. [ __ ] zero progress. And then I messaged somebody and I'm like, "Listen, we got to get this done. Somebody got to get this is something's got to happen here or or I'm going to [ __ ] die." Like that's it, man. And so anyway, so my dad is even saying he's like, "You've got a moldy carpet. You've got mold all over the house. You were sleeping with moldy pillows. You've got dirt everywhere. There was like a [ __ ] uh bugs, uh you know, there's the the dead animals, everything. He's like, I don't know how you're alive. Like, I don't know how you're breathing. How are you able to breathe? And I'm going to be honest, it's been difficult the past day or so. So, I'm I'm I'm trying to get this [ __ ] solved, man. I really am. I'm losing my [ __ ] mind, man. I'm losing my goddamn

3:04 [ __ ] mind. And so, yes. And uh No Mortal. And No. No. And to be honest, like I after all of this, I still wake up and I still go live. So whenever I hear some [ __ ] ass [ __ ] some crying baby back [ __ ] streamer. Oh, it's so hard. I'm stressed out, [ __ ] Shut the [ __ ] up. Shut up, [ __ ] Stop crying. Nobody wants to wants to hear that [ __ ] So yeah, do a [ __ ] job. Yeah, exactly. And so yeah, that I'm and we're still alive every [ __ ] day. And uh anyway, not zero progress. Yeah. No. And I'm sitting there and I'm thinking to myself, I've been buried alive. I've been buried alive by [ __ ] I There's so much [ __ ]

3:52 [ __ ] everywhere in this I'm losing my [ __ ] mind. Like everywhere in this house, my mom has like documents of 1995. There's I don't need a [ __ ] document, a tax document from 1995. And so it's everywhere. And I just I I actually I'm I'm actually losing it, boys. I'm actually losing it. I'm crashing out. It's The mold is getting in my brain. You okay? No, I'm not. I'll survive. Okay. I want to let you guys know I'm a big boy. All right. Like uh I I said that my voice cracked. Very funny. Um Let me take a drink here. Uh because as I said, my throat's [ __ ] up. I Everything that I eat and taste

4:38 now tastes like a dead animal. H I'm going to be fine. I'm going to be fine. I'm going to deal with it. I'm going to tank it just like everything else. Okay? Like I pulled my own [ __ ] teeth out before. This is nothing. But at the same time, it's unpleasant. At the very at this very moment, it's unpleasant. So, yes, if the today is the day that if you make any annoying comment in chat or anything, you're getting banned. All right, I just want to let you know right now, that's what's going to happen. If you're even slightly [ __ ] annoying, getting banned and that's it. So, that Yeah, today is not the [ __ ] day. Uh, if Bloodborne doesn't come out today for

5:25 PC, I'm I'm It's I'm I'm We don't We Let's not even talk about that. All right. Do you have a crawl space under the house? No, I do not. And uh No, I I don't. And uh so yeah, get Airbnb contractors to send about upon Blight Town. There is a high probability that if Oh, actually, no. I have created a fork in the road. If there is asbestos in the house, I'm renting an Airbnb for 3 months. I'm getting the entire house renovated. Whole [ __ ] thing. uh if there isn't esbestos, I'm going to stay here and I'm going to just continue complaining, right? And uh that that's basically it. Uh now I I don't know if that's going to happen or not, but uh yeah, that's pretty much where we're at. And asbestos is scary. Well,

6:11 listen, I mean like everybody dies. It's it is what it is. Like I I I don't think about this a lot, but at the same time, I'm not trying to breathe in a bunch of nasty [ __ ] And uh what about toxic mold? Uh that I mean I I think that that's probably that's probably good for me at this point, right? I've grown up with it. So, uh, yeah. Anyway, um, was going to renovate in 3 months, though. That's fast. Well, it's about getting rid of the asbestos, man. I think it take 3 months to get rid of that. Maybe I'm wrong. I I don't I I don't [ __ ] know, right? I'm not an expert. I don't have any idea. And so, anyway, uh, yes. So, uh, that's it. What about the rotten wood structure damage? It might sound crazy to you, but there actually isn't any. Uh, because I went through the structural damage because I I I mean, I was in the crawl space. Like I'm literally stepping over the hole that I fell down. Like I mean and this is again

6:58 at 5 in the morning after sleeping for two hours. So uh yes uh very interesting day uh very interesting time and uh that's