My Experience With VShojo

0:01 Hi everyone. I haven't done this kind of thing before, so uh please bear with me. Um hi, I'm Phoebe and I was one of the undebuted Vishojo talents who passed the audition last year. I would have already debuted with them by now, actually, if all had gone as originally planned. I was looking forward to everything I was planning to do with the community, other talents, the Voto team. Though maybe looking forward to it is an understatement because for the entirety of 2025, it was my everything.

0:49 Some of you guys in my community might have noticed, but I've been busy all year. Not just with going and traveling for performances, not just with all the other like front-facing stream stuff that I've been doing. But behind the scenes, the things I couldn't share with you guys is that I've been dedicating so much of my time and energy to debut prep. this whole year actually. Um, a lot of passion went into it, not just from myself, but also from wonderful, wonderful staff members. Um, Panini, I love you. I was so excited to join a company with lots of talents that I

1:35 admire and a company who was supposedly truly talent first, a company with an open mind. I was so excited to finally have support and belief in my vision for delivering the excitement of like the idol culture that I love so much to a much broader audience. Especially for the 2.5D Kai idol content I've been trying to shape since my VTuber VTuber VTuber debut in July 2020. And I was really excited. I think most of all, I was excited to find a new place to belong. And I mean, I've been I'm going to be

2:20 real, this is the this is the third agency I would have been part of. And even aside from that, there are like other companies or projects or whatever pertaining to V tubing that just unfortunately every single one of them has met a really sad end. Um the most re most recently last year in the spring prism project that I was part of as the VTuber Ammy Amami shut down. Not even a year like not I didn't even reach my my YouTuber's birthday or my oney year anniversary. It all happened right before right

3:06 before. So yeah, this would have been the third agency I would have been a part of and I was honestly hoping it was going to be the last one. I was really really hoping I wouldn't have to keep searching for a home. I mean, honest honestly, there were a lot of moments where things didn't really feel quite right or I'd feel overlooked. Like, compared to some of the other pre-debut processes I went through at other companies, it was way more like chaotic and and you know, sometimes I felt really alone in it all.

3:53 But we did our best. I did my best. Other talents did their best. Panini definitely did her best. And as the situation became less clear, as things kept getting like super delayed or forgotten about, even as big promises were made and then dropped. when we were left in the dark about a lot of what was happening only to be jump scared suddenly by bad news and then more bad news would come and then more bad news would come. It just kept getting worse and worse. On top of that, I was required to put my second VTuber channel, Amy Amami, on hiatus in preparation for debuting soon.

4:41 I was supposed to debut soon after, but then I learned I'd have to wait a few more months and then a few more months again. I just kept getting pushed back. Naturally, this was a big strain on my finances, not having, you know, or not having Amy's channel to post to as well. I mean, I guess I could have, but it felt really inconsiderate towards my fans feelings to just suddenly be like, "Oh, surprise. Sorry. I I am getting off of indefinite hiatus and then I'm going to be back on indefinite hiatus soon." I don't know. I

5:26 just didn't want to play with people's feelings. But yeah, it was a it was a big strain on my finances and that compounded even further when I found out that I'd have to self-fund my 5-year anniversary album that Vishojo had promised to cover for me originally. But because the debut was not going to be before my 5-year anniversary anymore, suddenly it was like a a personal project. But we had already contacted all these people to work on the album, mixers, editors, etc. An artist. And I didn't want to like they had set aside that time for me in their busy commission schedule. I didn't want to just suddenly cancel that on them.

6:16 And like despite all of these things, I kept believing in my dreams. And I held on to all these promises, thinking, "Oh, it's okay. Things are going to get better if I just work hard and push through. And then I'm going to have this big shining moment where I can join everybody else out there, too. All these all these VTubers in V Showjo that I look up to a lot." And sadly, that moment isn't coming anymore. At least not here. Not at a company that kept so many secrets to the point where like even internally, nobody knew or even really knows exactly what's going on. And definitely not at a company that

7:01 hypocritically claims to be talent first as they withhold charity funds and talent income. And even now, despite the fact that I was supposed to be like on the cusp of my debut, I have learned that due to poor communication, due to delayed payments from Vishojo's side, very, very few of my assets that have been prepared were fully completed or are fully completed by this point. Like aside from a logo and some art pieces for a lore video, I don't got I don't have stream overlays, no BGM, and most importantly, no art or rigging for my new model.

7:50 And that none of this is on none of this is to blame the artists or people that we are commissioning for. It's all due to huge delays in communication because of like just finances being so uncertain and with everything with all this stuff for debut so incomplete. I can't debut my new look even though we worked so hard despite the troubles along the way. And like as messed up as it is to think

8:35 about everything I passed up on for Vishod's sake this past year. Yeah. I've I've had to pass up on some really cool opportunities because I was just like, well, I need to, you know, if I have to choose, you know, I I have this big I have this big thing with Reojo in the works. So, even if I have to pass up on these things now, you know, I can get back to all of it after debut. But yeah, all of that resulted in nothing but loose ends. All that said though, I really really didn't want this to focus so much on

9:20 negative stuff. I really don't want it to. There's there's been enough of that out there, especially on Twitter the past couple of days and just in general in the world. So, what I do want to say is thank you to all of the former, current, future talents for being so so strong, so inspiring. We shouldn't have had to be that strong, but we were. And so, I like really really wish everybody the best, including staff. Thank you as well to the wonderful staff that I had the pleasure of meeting and working with who were legitimately kind, hardworking people. There are quite a few. There are

10:06 quite a few. So So also just know that like there are there were lots of good people in the company. Not everybody was involved in whatever the hell is going on. And also, thank you to my Phoebe Hive community for being so so so patient and kind all of this time, even when you could tell I was feeling down and struggling. I had somebody come up to me at my show at Taco this past weekend and and tell me, "Hey, I've I I've felt like things are kind of off with you lately. I can tell that you're sad. It feels like some of the light was taken from

10:52 you. And I just want you to know like whatever it is, you're going to get through it. And you know what? He's right. He's right. He's right. We're going to get through this. I kind of like just want you guys to know that. Yeah. Yeah. I'm I'm I'm exhausted. Like spiritually, physically, mentally, everything. My heart and my mind and my body are so tired. And it hurts. It hurts to keep entrusting my dreams to different companies and different opportunities, hoping that like the hard work you put in every day is finally going to like, I don't know, grow and blossom into something beautiful only for it to like either be cancelled or fall short for

11:39 one reason or another every time. But even if it's been every time up until now, I am very hopeful for what comes next. I always try to be. So, I'm not giving up. Not even now. I'll keep I'm going to like keep uh I'm going to find a new path. I will keep searching for a different way to reach my dreams. And I know that everybody else, all the other talents, everybody that's been affected by this will, too. So, please, please, please give all of your love and support to past, present, and would be future V Showjo talents and the managers and

12:25 staff who did their best without knowing like what was going on with everybody above us this entire time. I'm going to do my best. We're all going to do our best. it will be okay and we're going to keep moving forward. So, yeah, please look forward to whatever that's going to be for me and for all of us. Thank you guys for listening. Now, I have a spooky black screen video on my channel. Um, thanks.