She Died and Came Back To Life 4 TIMES

0:00 For those who don't know about Blue, basically it's this girl um and she was found out to have faked her death. She came back. She was disabled. She was claiming she was disabled. She wasn't disabled actually, but she does have mental illness. Probably schizophrenia. And uh I'm not even saying that, you know, like as a as an exaggeration. I think uh she might actually be judging from, you know, we're talking to some of her mods and we're in contact with some people close to her. So, she seems to have like, you know, multiple personas. She's faked an entire agency before, faking every single talent, multiple agencies at the same time. She could literally be a onewoman show if she was honest about all of this. So, I made my video. Cat is out of the bag. When I

0:46 made that video, she already had another persona going on. Now, her mods and her asked us to remove any mention of her new channel in the comment section. Even though I asked for people not to mention her new channel so she doesn't get harassed, people were still spamming it in the comment section and we had to like [ __ ] stalk the comment section for like 2 days to like remove all of them. But regardless, apparently the video made her go up in subs on her new persona. like so she like kind of benefited from it and she didn't receive any harassment there. People just thought she was cool so they went to find her. But the thing is we thought she had learned her lesson but I guess she didn't. And now what happened is

1:31 that a few months ago, I think it was, there was a comment on my video that made me worry. And it was something like, "Well, now let's all let her rest in peace or something." And that comment was kind of alluding that she had died for real this time. So we contacted her mod. I contacted Hermod because I was like kind of worried because of that one comment I got and he was like, "Yeah, I think something happened. I'm working on getting confirmation that it's a real death this time, but yes." So, we were like, "Oh [ __ ] that's some serious stuff." Yeah, for real. For real. This time, we thought she was gone. But that

2:17 but I but I still had a little bit of doubt, guys. I still had some doubts. But of course in this situation first you always have to assume it's real so you can intervene but because it you know it's like the the boy who cried wolf too many times then after the third time even though it's real well uh you're kind of have your doubts and then it was radio silence. I was like you know what I'm not going to I'm not going to push them for an answer because uh this is a sensitive topic and I still want to be polite and respectful. And now she came out with a Twitch video where she admitted to everything again and faking her death again. This is terrifying. I need to come forward with something

3:02 that I did that was really bad. Something that I shouldn't have done that I've hurt a lot of people close to me by doing this. You may know me as the girl who faked her death supposedly. Well, not supposedly. >> Yeah, not supposedly. Not not supposedly. Blue, you faked your death for reals. For real, Z's. And she she did once, you know, her Amirialist Blue persona. Then she faked a suicide attempt which left her friends scrambling and panicking and her mods for like 24 hours or 48 hours. I don't even remember. And now this. So it's kind of like the third time. >> Well, I did it again a second time,

3:48 didn't I? I have decided to come clean about it because I feel terrible to be honest. the person that I hurt. Well, the people that I hurt a lot with what I did and I wish that I could take it all back, but it's too late for that now. >> And at one point in the video, she says something like, "And yeah, so things were going rough, so I decided to fake my death again." I'm paraphrasing right now. We'll watch a video. She says something like, "Yeah, I decided to fake my deaf again because this is what I default to." And I'm just like, "What? What do you mean this is what you default to?" How is this your default? I'm freaking out. Blue Phantom should be

4:36 like, "Oops, I did it again." And, you know, just even trying to make sense of this entire story. I'm so confused. I was talking to somebody close to her to try to find out more information about what was going on. And at one point they're like narrating stuff for me and they're like, "Um, yeah." So at this point, she switched to another persona. And I'm like, "Oh, so she's she has another VTuber account. She switched to another like alt account." And he's like, "No, no, not a Vtuber account, a persona." In her head, I was like, "Oh, uh, okay. I'm I'm confused." Like, "What the [ __ ] is this story? So yeah,

5:26 the thing that I want to say at first is go and attack the one known as Himari because she was fully under the impression that I was dead as I lied to her as well. I don't want you guys to go attacking her because she didn't lie on purpose. I know a lot of you people think that we're the same person, but it's not true. She's just a victim in all of this.

6:15 Um, I won't come back online after this because I don't deserve a platform after what I've done, after how many people I've hurt. I just wanted to come on here to sincerely apologize for what I've done because I have hurt a lot of people and I'm really sorry. Like I said before, I'm going to keep repeating this. I will keep repeating this. Please do not go and harass Himari Mamo

7:03 because she did not know. She was a victim on all of this, the same as everyone else. I know a lot of people think that we're the same person, but you have to trust me. We are not. She thought that I was dead as well as everyone else. And what I did >> Yeah. Was that her cousin? Wait, was that her? Her cousin was Maria. No, Mooros. Yeah. Yeah, it was her. Yeah, she was in that video. I mean, it was apparently not confirmed that she was her that she was blue, but I can't believe it. I'm sorry. I don't I don't think I believe it, but I could be

7:50 wrong. >> Was disgusting and it should never have happened. >> I know. Commendable kayfabe tbh. Yeah, she should be on WWE. Moora deleted her Twitter account. She was once again found out. Jesus Christ. Oh, you did B. >> You shouldn't forgive me. I don't deserve to be forgive. Hello. I really don't deserve to be forgive. I don't think it's fair. I don't think it's fair on anyone. Hello. I'm going to write some text on the screen. >> You know, everybody I think really wanted her to get off the internet after

8:36 the first time she faked her death on a mirrorless blue. And everybody was like, "No, she's changed. We're going to still supporting her." And she has a supportive community. That's the worst part. Like, she has a lot of people that are willing to forgive her over and over again. And even now, they don't even care. They don't even care that she fakes her death again. They still want her around, but god damn woman, get some help. I don't know. So, Birdie writes in our Discord server. The third time that she attempted uh he's providing clarification on that was another time where she claimed she was going to do the act and then didn't. And uh this fourth time was a situation in which a guy who she made mod after the main batch of us was putting a lot of pressure on her. Makes sense. This was someone who knew Blue before the first time she quote had a heart attack cuz

9:24 she probably faked that. I assume he's a 30 plus year old man who has some difficulties with socializing and was simultaneously treating her like a daughter she never had or he never had, I assume, and was dumping a lot of personal [ __ ] on her. She eventually crumbled and to get away from it, she faked her death. That is that's crazy. Surely there's better there's easier ways to get away from somebody online. Like um I don't know. Off the top of my head, I can think about blocking somebody, muting them, you know, unfriending them. Like if if this was a real person, okay, maybe I get a a little more, although it would still be inexcusable. But this is somebody you met online.

10:09 Just I don't turn off the computer. Just turn off the computer if you want to get away from them. You don't need to fake your death. This is taking ghosting to another another new level. Himy/Momo was slightly active during this time. A person we believe to be blue. Okay, so it's believed uh to be blue, but not confirmed. The guy in question was being weird about the whole thing and treating it as casual drama when he was under the impression that he drove a young girl over the brink. >> I'm that is a weird uh situation. And I walked away at this point after only being in the server to prevent raids and the like. You did well. I was kept up today little and was provided and all she was active under was she had faked her death. Oh boy. Okay. Antique doll 10 bucks says she'll be back and back at it

10:55 again. Not that I'm okay with any of this. Honestly, she will probably. Yes. She's very young. She's assumed to be 18. Yeah, she's assumed to be 18, but apparently she has one of her persona that's a like a minor in her head. >> So, I'm a bit shaky doing this. Just let me type this up. Wait, hold on. It's too long. My god. Shut up, Twitch. I don't care about the ads. >> But she always does that. That's why I don't She always does that though. She always has like this um so she'll admit that she that she faked her death and then after that she's going to say no but this person that you guys think is

11:42 me is not me and please don't harass them. She did that the last time. Now she's doing it uh with this Himari Momo person. >> Right. Okay. I've written that down. >> Oh, she moved to Amya Custard and then faked her death there and then had another alt. Are you [ __ ] serious? That's She hasn't learned anything. She hasn't learned anything. >> I don't have access to any of my accounts. Um, well, that's not that's not true. I don't have access to my Discord account. Or do I? Let me check. I think I might have. I'll check after stream. >> Yeah, that's the one who lared as an entire agency, >> which is a genuine talent for real. Like, a lot of people really liked her laring as an entire agency. She could make this her thing. >> Who knows,

12:28 guys? I just wanted to come on here and apologize for all I've done, for faking my death twice, for hurting everyone, because I do genuinely feel terrible. I'm not looking for sympathy. I'm not looking for donations. I'm not looking for a platform. >> So, at least this time though, I'll say that uh she's she hasn't taken any uh donations or anything or any money. I suppose there was less like material consequences to what she did. Uh only like emotional damage one. >> I just wanted to come clean because what I did was absolutely the worst thing that anyone could do. Let me see if I can turn off that. I don't know if I'll

13:15 be able to. If she gets a boyfriend, do we consider it polygamy? There are so many moral questions that this kind of situation has brought on to me to think about that I didn't even know where to start because I was like, I've never seen a situation like this. But she pretended that she had a boyfriend at one point, which was also her, and she would leave Discord messages, uh, like audio voice messages in her Discord where she was like faking the male voice. It was really funny. I put that in my video, too. It was great. I yeah I think the people that are supporting her and enabling this behavior um are not doing her any good. I hope she has like a really good therapist uh following her too or psychiatrist.

14:02 >> You guys are too nice. You're mad. You're actually mad. I don't really deserve a platform. Come on. >> You guys are talking about did that's like a disease. If she did have did it's very likely that so many of her personas would be into Vtubing. Do you know a lot about the about this disease? The therapist is probably also her. Shut up. This is horrible. Oh, dissociative identity. >> Doing this >> cuz it's been so long, right? >> I want to learn more about this. I can fix them. Yeah, I don't think I'm allowed to turn ads off. I'm sorry.

14:49 I tried. Well, a lot of people think that I should be off the internet and they are correct. I wasn't going to make any more content after this. >> I mean, I don't have access to my Tik Tok anymore because Facebook deactivated >> my account and um my what's it? My Tik Tok was only connected to my Facebook. So, I don't have access to Tik Tok anymore. I just don't understand why you guys are being so nice. Like, after everything I did, why are you guys being nice to me? I don't get it. I don't deserve it, guys. You're just too nice. I never wanted to hurt anything. Or, sorry, I never wanted to

15:35 hurt anyone. The reason that I faked my death the second time is because I wanted to completely stop. >> Personally speaking, I do agree if you did was wrong, but I don't believe you should disappear. There's plenty of people who have done similar actions. Plenty of people have just went along like nothing happened. You do deserve a platform. You deserve forgiveness. Even if some people won't give it easily, just give it time. I have a friend believe most people deserve some for Yes, she does believe forgiveness and she does deserve a platform eventually if that's what she still wants to do. But she needs to not fall into these patterns anymore. Like there needs to be a change. And for a change to happen, you need to start by changing your habits. Doing the same thing over and over again is the definition of craziness. >> Fresh. So I cut myself off from everyone

16:22 and I just started new. But >> yeah, she needs to she needs to get off the internet for a while and seek help. But uh I feel like these people are not going to stir her in that direction >> eating away at me for this past month. And I just couldn't take it anymore, especially after one of my contacts told me that Himari kept trying to kill herself. And it made me feel so terrible because she doesn't deserve any of that. And I know I've hurt her more by coming back, but I love her so much. And I know she'd never want to be with me now, but I just want her to live in peace. I want her to enjoy

17:09 her life now, but it's too late, really, isn't it? I mean, yeah, but I kind of panicked and went with the first thing that I knew how to do. It was stupid. I know it was stupid. I shouldn't have done it. I know. [Music] No, I I don't think they're Kiwi farmer types. They're just uh they're just doing this thing where you know when you're too nice to somebody but you're not telling them the truth because you have like no backbone and that's like detrimental to them. That's not being a good friend. A good friend will tell you even the stuff that you don't want to

17:54 hear. It's just like I've ruined everything, you know? What do I do? >> A lot of her audience are pretty damaged and socially challenged, for lack of a better term. A lot of dead folk and a lot of people don't know how to be sociable, etc. Yeah. Well, exactly. There you go. >> Now, I've done so much. I've done so much damage and I can't go back. Why are you guys being so nice? You're not making it easier. >> Yeah, exactly. Birdie, >> you're not making it easier at all.

18:42 >> She got quite a few subs from this stream from what I've seen. A lot of people seem >> You guys being so nice. >> A lot of people seems to be glad that she's back. You can still start fresh. She can still start over. Yes. Yes. Make make her go into the whole loop again. That's a great idea. That's a great Are we stuck in a time loop? What is going on? You can still start fresh. Just make a new account. Yeah. And then kill that one, too. And then start over. Why not? [ __ ] it. This is the internet after all. No. No. This is the worst advice ever. What the [ __ ] >> Why are you guys being so nice to me? I don't deserve it. I don't deserve it.

19:29 Me? >> Yeah, just restart. Yeah, just restart like as as if it's a video game. The thing is she's not really getting any perks from this. She's like gotten in famous for it and no author notoriety that you you probably don't want. She's not really getting any significant amount of money from it. She's getting

20:15 attention. and she got a community, but she could keep this community and she could keep the attention if she didn't keep on doing this. So, really, it's uh it's only damaging and kind of toxic. I love you guys so much. I'm so sorry. You can cry for a lot of things though. You can feel guilty about it. Uh I feel

21:02 like these are guilt tears that she's shedding right now. Yeah, if it was Kay would be okay when she crossed the line into lying. Yeah, even if they meet fake tears, I can't help but think she's an actual destroyer because she doesn't know how to stop. Yes, that's why she needs help. No, I think she genuinely feels bad and feels remorse for what she did. That's why she's crying. Yeah, she she hasn't done any like real damage. She's she's she's she's done mental damage to people and she's made uh this artist uh uh Maidas uh I mean create a model for her rush while she

21:48 was like and then she got sick from it and where's my walk? >> She sounds really young. This is this is the actions of a team for sure. Not that it excuses it. I mean, at 18, my mother was already married and moving to another country. Like, guys, thank you so much. I didn't expect anyone to want me.

22:34 I think >> I mean at 18 men used to go to war. What do you guys think? Yes, 18 is young but they got agency. Think of yourself at 18. What What did you think about? What did you dream about? You thought you were going to change the world. I was quick at 18. Now I'm slow slower. >> I might try again. Not on any new alts or anything. I'll try just to stay on this account. I didn't expect anyone to forgive me. Oh, thank you for the subscription.

23:20 We would dusk. I don't I don't deserve your money. I don't deserve your money. Oh my god, guys. Please. I don't deserve it. >> Email saying I went straight to community college. Now my job is at 22. I'm the store manager at 23. Yeah, exactly. I mean, people start driving cars at 16s. These are like killing machines. You need to be responsible. You're not like stupid at 16. you know, you're probably already taking care of yourself at 14. Your parents are leaving you alone and stuff, unless I don't know, people are are way more immature

24:06 nowadays. But also, I mean, she's she's definitely got mental problems, which changes uh her reality completely. And you guys are saying that the UK mental health system is really really bad. So, she may not have somebody like following her very closely. From now on, my mom from now on. >> I don't think she Okay. Birdie saying I don't think she has a social worker. Also, Mom's in the server. Yeah, they messaged us. Yeah. >> I love you guys so much. I hold on. Part two of my IT series. Yeah,

24:52 I won't lie anymore because this pain is too much. But I just want to Oh god, I can't breathe. I feel like I'm going to be sick cuz this is what I get for crying too much. I'm always sick when I get too emotional. Just please don't harass him because she didn't deserve any of this. >> Oh my god. >> Oh. >> Oh my god. Be unapologetically myself. Guys, you won't be ready for how cringe I am.

25:38 Okay. I do love you guys so much. I really do. Oh my god, guys. Oh, guys, please. Stop giving me your money. You're making me. So, Momo being linked to Blue and the whole they might be the same person put a lot of pressure on her. Uh, there was no announcement that Blue had passed and it was kind of just leaking out from Momo and her new mod. Eventually, the new mod posted this whole ranting announcement about how he is not to blame that people being angry that he drove a girl to suicide were putting unjust pressure on him. And Birdie says

26:25 he told him to seek help and he left the server. >> Oh god, Milo, I'm so sorry. >> Please, you just have to believe me that I'm sorry. You don't have to forgive me. I'm not asking for you to forgive me. >> I um Thank you. I'm not asking for you to forgive me. Not ever. Not you. I just I do have a Twitter again.

27:14 I don't have any profile picture or anything. Momo is saying she's not blue. She's adamant in Discord right now that she wants anything to do with this. Well, um, okay. I'm not sure I believe it because it's hard to believe anything they say. We need blue list back on this. It's under the same handle, but you don't have to follow. I'll probably just be posting random stuff. >> I mean, when I spoke to another mod, they were like, I've seen them interact a lot, but in hindsight, I've never seen them talk over each other. >> Maybe not Twitter. Oh, yeah. That's where everything started, wasn't it? Okay, you know what? I'm just going to

28:01 I'm just going to stay with Yeah. You know what? I'm going to re re >> She was like, "I'm making a Twitter account." And her chat is like, "No, no, don't make a Twitter account. How about Blue Sky instead?" You know, the ultimate echo chamber. >> Deactivate the account. Hold on a second. God, I don't want anyone to [ __ ] dox me. Oh my god. Hold on. Tell me your password. Okay. Deactivate. deactivated. It's done. We're sorry to see you go. Goodbye. Goodbye. Okay, now that sounds like a confession. My god. Okay. >> Yeah, the platform is in the point. She shouldn't be online. >> I don't think I'm >> Yeah. Again, about the Mory stuff, you know, I'm not saying I'm not convinced

28:48 that she is blue. I'm just saying that uh it's Yeah, it's impossible to truly believe what she's saying. >> Try blue sky, maybe. I don't know. I think for now I'm going to just stay with Twitch. Just do Twitch things. I'll have a look at Blue Sky, but for now I know. I'll let you know if I come back. But I'm going to make a a post on my YouTube, my other YouTube. I just hope that one day things can just kind of go back to normal in a way. I don't even know what to talk about. I don't exactly want to talk about me

29:36 my life at the minute because I'd rather keep it all private. Well, yeah, but I'm hoping that in time I'll prove that I'm not lying anymore. Guys, you're too nice. Stop. We'll cry again. God, I don't want to lie anymore. So, I'll try my best from here on out. Okay. I don't think so. The thing is, if she truly has like a multiple personality disorder, it might be that she tr, you know, she truly believes she's not this other person and it's not like really her fault for believing that cuz she needs help.

30:22 >> Of course. Well, I took my medicine, so I'm tired now. Thanks for all the support, guys. I'm I didn't expect it at all. I expected everyone to hate me, which you have every right to. I can't believe it. I really can't. Yeah. Good night, I guess. Oh, hi, Jane. I need to get my second water out, cut out, and things like that. But on a stream, it's like raw, you know. I sort of thought that might help my case a little bit. Yeah, I'll let you know when I'm ready to get back to talk.

31:09 >> You're proving your remorse by letting everything out. I've gone through worse mistakes and I am still gatekept from a comm What do you mean worst mistake? What have you done? DGY kill. Still gatekept from community because of it. You deserve to continue living your life. I'm going to tell you right now, it's such a red flag when somebody comes in somebody else's community and complain that they've been kicked from another community. That's almost always like an instant ban in our Discord server. So, don't do that. That just means you're troublemaker or some [ __ ] But >> I just need a little bit of adjustment time, I think. I'm really sorry, guys. We'll talk more tomorrow because I'll try and stream tomorrow after my doctor's appointment. We'll definitely talk more tomorrow.

31:56 I love you guys. Thank you. Thank you for Oh god. Thank you for all the support. I didn't expect it. I don't deserve it. But I love you guys. Good night. I feel like there was not a lot said there just um that she admitted to faking her death and asked mostly it felt like this was done so people wouldn't harass this mori person. No one is interested in harassing Blue. That's what she needs to understand. And nobody actually hates her. They just think she's crazy. They just criticizing her because it's crazy. My mistake in all of this was thinking I could help initially, but I'm glad I walked away when I did. It seems some of the other mods have way more in front of me these

32:42 days. I've given what I can. Yes, you've made the right choice. Walking away when you did because we know somebody that didn't and then they got tangled up in all of this again and then they were like, "You know what? This is too much." And they're also like taking their distance. Uh it's just not worth it. It's sad. It's kind of just it's frustrating. Yeah, it's frustrating to listen to it because when somebody makes a mistake and they get really good advice because she was well surrounded like her mods are good. She had actual people that really cared about her and uh she did not listen to them and now she's back at it again. And I fear that she's going to surround herself with more and more dangerous friends because you kind of drive away to people that actually care about you after, you know, a few times of repeating the same

33:27 patterns. People get like, you know, when somebody doesn't want to help themsel at the end of the day, you can, you know, try to toss them every lifeline that you can, but if they don't want to help themselves, they're not going to take it. And then your only choice is kind of to just take some distance like, "Oh, what else can I do?" So, um yeah, I fear that she's going to slowly like filter out all like the the good people and then she's going to be left with the um kind of scums uh scum of the earth that the internet can drag in sometimes in your Discord servers. Yeah. And she seems like a very vulnerable person. So, I hope she's going to stay safe. Hey, you don't forget to like and subscribe and hit that bell button and I'll see you in the next