The Island Dream

0:04 The long wave lifted the rounded front part of my small boat and placed it on the shore. A dreamer who has lost everything, steps off the boat. He stretched out his hands toward the silent ground. My torn purple bedsheet hung soft and straight down from my waist. My arms and neck had become thin. Because of rowing and starving. My hair had grown long. And it became curly at the back of the neck.

0:54 My face was visible in the deep green and calm water in front of me. I noticed that my entire appearance had changed in this long journey. I had become darker, leaner and more flexible than before. All the troubles, defeats and fights of difficult times were clearly written on my cheeks. The sunless morning when I held the boat with my bruised arms. The lines of the dangers that the storms of the sea had shown me were hidden on my cheeks and neck. But my eyes were clear, alert, and childlike,

1:42 shining in the deep pits of my face. For many nights these eyes kept searching for the infinite stars in the sky. And in the dim darkness of the ocean she kept searching for a sailing boat or land. These eyes had not seen dust for many days and had sometimes seen the greenery of the forests or the smoke of distant cities with smiling memories and now, big and shining, they were smiling at me from the calm mirror-like water.

2:30 Those eyes were feeling happy after seeing the things which they couldn't see for a long time. White stones, brown soil, patches of grass and bushes. The air around the bushes looked like a light white edge to me. Because I had forgotten the clean air of the earth for a long time. With hesitant joy I inhaled the faint scent of meadow and soil and then, firmly and patiently, I

3:15 set foot on the precious shore of the earth. A light breeze brought me the scent of the forest and the faint fragrance of distant gardens. Joyfully I extended both my hands towards the air and felt the soft touch of the breeze gently passing over my hands and fingers and touching my temples. Who was used to the strong sea breeze. I pulled my brown boat and placed it on the sand near the shore. And I ran my right hand over the strong edge of the boat,

4:02 which had become smooth due to my grip. Then I moved forward towards the ground where a dense bush stood in front of me like a round wall. Which extended beyond my sight. I kept walking along the edge of that green circle. I felt happy seeing the blue shadow and the golden green light shining in it. I walked through a field of soft buffalo grass that gradually rose to about my knees. And silky flowers started touching my feet. The

4:49 whole field was filled with sunlight. But the tall bushes created a neat shadow where I was walking. I started to feel slight fatigue in my legs. After walking a little distance I saw a small path in the bushes on my left. In the green darkness I could see a path made of shells and the tops of tall trees behind. But the path was blocked by a garland of flowers. I stood there for a while, looking at the green, dark and

5:37 light colors. There were thousands of shadows, from the bright greenery of the bushes to the secret colours of the deep forest far inside. My eyes followed the shadow as it grew inward and then felt happy as I returned to the pale yellow light of the sunny field. Happily I removed the garland of flowers and opened the way. I wore that red and white garland around my neck and waist.

6:22 Like I 'm decorating for a summer festival. Then I slowly took steps forward into the semi-darkness. I reached a round open space which was surrounded on all sides by a wall of small trees and bushes. This open space and narrow path was created by someone inside the forest. Brown and green light was coming from the leaves of the trees above. There was sand spread on the ground at this place. And two small marble benches were placed facing each other.

7:12 I turned and proceeded further on the trail leading into the forest. There was a heaviness in my head because of the new smells. And he could hear the sound of his fast flowing blood. After walking for some time, the fatigue of my legs increased and I started looking for a place to rest. But then the road widened. And the trees on both sides moved back. I saw a big open garden in front. There were many small and big paths with bushes on their sides. There were

7:59 colourful flower beds in which roses and other beautiful flowers grew. In the middle of the garden was a cluster of old and respectable trees. And behind them was a marble building painted white. Maybe a palace or a temple. I headed for a low bench that was in the shade of the Cyperus trees. I sat down on the soft grass. Placing my hands behind my head, I placed my back comfortably on the bench. Like I used to relax in the boat at night. There was

8:49 blue sky and light white clouds above me. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the red glow behind my eyelids. Then the God of sleep bent over me and gave rest to my tired body. My mind started flying in dreams. The fearful and sad scenes of yesterday came back to life. The sea lashed great waves against my boat, and the angry sky sent storms.

9:37 And the loneliness I longed for for so long. He has now become a burden to me. I heard the sounds of the cities in the land left behind, from which I had fled. A tired memory, a forgotten scent. A vague memory of some forgotten song from childhood came to my mind and the dreams slowly flew away to the glory of childhood till the morning. And he went to my father's house and stayed there sadly. The bright sunlight woke up my sleeping eyes by

10:23 touching them with warmth. I woke up and saw a new view of the sky and the green garden. Happy voices came to my ears from somewhere. There was a deep clarity in these voices. Like the clear water of a waterfall is heard for the first time. I slowly peeked through the leaves. Some young girls were playing with a golden ball. They wore colorful loose clothes and their necks, shoulders, ankles and hands were clean and beautiful.

11:09 She was laughing while playing and running happily looking towards the ball. Suddenly I heard something moving in the branches of the trees above me and the golden ball fell into the grass at my feet. I picked up the ball and my heart started pounding. As if suddenly some great danger or great happiness has appeared. The girls playing started running towards my hiding place. I came out of the bushes and stood like a ghost in front of those happy girls.

11:57 Holding the ball up in his right hand. I threw the ball in the air. But when she fell down, she moved away and kept looking at the stranger in surprise. As I came closer they separated and started making way for me. Looking up I saw a tall woman who was the most beautiful as if she was the queen of all the other girls. I lowered my eyes and bowed deeply in salute. A white cloth was hanging down from her knees. Which was falling in long and straight folds like the priestesses.

12:48 Seeing her purity and grandeur, I suddenly realized my smallness and felt very ashamed. I started remembering all my mistakes, all my bad habits, all the dirt in my life and all my pride and pretense vanished. When he spoke to me in his clear voice, I fell to my knees and lowered my head in shame. Her voice was clearer, deeper, and louder than the other women's voices. Hearing this I got scared.

13:34 He said, my friend, why have you come here? And how did you find your way here? I looked up and saw her big eyes looking at me seriously. I have reached here after crossing difficult seas through hundreds of lonely days and nights. After many dangers and frightening nights my arms are thin and bruised from the hardships of travel. This purple cloth I am wearing is from your country. And you gave it to me in my childhood.

14:20 But now my hands are dirty. My eyes are filled with hatred. I am tired. And now I am not worthy of wearing this purple dress. This makes for happy hands and happy eyes. I have come to return it. Is this royal cloth so little valuable to you ? the Queen said, still without moving. Looking at me seriously, I know you very well. Tired soul I have always been there for you in your life. I gave you dreams of blue mountains in your childhood

15:05 and taught you to worship the gods in your boyhood. In between I also showed you many signs of beauty. Was it not you who destroyed my temple ? Here I taught you how to worship. Wasn't it you who polluted the gardens of my love? Whose path did I show you? Wasn't it you ? Who turned the songs I taught into songs of dirty streets. And when I gave you cups of happiness you misused them. Yes, that was me.

15:54 Whenever you were away from me, I lost my way. Many times I remembered you and extended my arms. I called you and remembered all the good things from my childhood. But you did not hear me. And the life that passed me by was dead. Then I lost my heart. He cursed his gods and fell down from his high dreams. Now I am tired of falling. Take back the gift you gave me. Put it on some strong shoulders. And let me be like a normal person. The queen looked away.

16:40 I quickly looked at him. His face seemed familiar to me and I saw a shadow of a slight smile on his lips. He said, I am surprised that the weakness has reached our island. It is very difficult to reach here. No weakness my queen. I hated the smoke of the cities and the noise of the temples. So, I left that life. My desire to see you grew every day during my journey. Difficulties made me stronger. Loneliness cleared the smoke of the past life from my eyes.

17:29 When I see the hills of your country rising from the blue sea. So my heart became young again and I was filled with new happiness and pride. When I set foot on your land, seeing its beauty, I prayed with outstretched arms. I walked through your forests as if I were born again. Please believe me. I wrapped my purple cloak more tightly around my shoulders and walked proudly, not ashamed. I was hiding in the grass listening to the sounds of your women playing.

18:15 And my heart was beating with joy. But when I saw you, I became ashamed of my filthiness and weakness after seeing your purity. Stand up. Do n't ask for a quick answer, he said in a deep and kind voice. Be my guest and try to live under my care once again. I stood up and looked around in surprise. The most beautiful woman held my left hand and led me towards the women who were waiting.

19:01 Say hi to my friends. He said, “See now if you recognize any of these people.” Then when I went among those beautiful women and started greeting them casually, a strange thing happened. Familiar eyes were looking at me from all around. I had also seen some of the moves and gestures before. But surprisingly, I was not able to tell anyone's name. Gradually I recognised some of them and soon realised that all the beautiful women I had seen in my life were there.

19:48 But every woman had that same special quality because of which I was once attracted to her. No woman was older or younger than the other. Only in the queen was the beauty of all combined together and she was the most beautiful and the tallest. The night engulfed the garden. I sat near the queen's feet. And he started singing a song about his first childhood love. Some of the different women smiled at me, while others looked at me seriously with wide eyes. When I looked at the most beautiful woman,

20:37 her big blue eyelids were closed. I saw her sweet lips, soft colored cheeks and smooth forehead with light colored curly blonde hair. I remembered my first love which was full of memories and dreams. Just as I saw her in my sweet dreams. My heart was filled with enthusiasm. From the heaviness of old songs and old desires. I touched the queen's hand. Do you remember my most beautiful? She smiled and opened her eyes.

21:22 Tell me were you not happier than others ? I nodded my head slowly and said yes. My eyes were still on her lips which were Eilish's lips. But did you thank me for that ? Then I became sad and had to bow my head down again. He gestured to a woman who poured white wine from an elegant silver jug into a pale cup. He gave me that cup and said lovingly, now you need rest. Drink this and lie down. My house will take care of your sleep.

22:12 I drank the wine and held his hand, thanking him for his kindness. A beautiful maid took me to a room inside the palace. She lit a lamp there and went away. The room was not very big. But its windows were high. There was a low and simple bed in the middle. I lay down and I saw that at the bottom of the walls there were some nice figures carved in the stones, depicting Wisdom, Moderation, Justice and Courage. All this was serving and offering beauty to her.

22:59 Seeing these figures, my troubled mind became calm and I fell asleep dreaming about them. I woke up early in the morning fresh and happy. I saw a smiling face above me with soft colored long hair all around it. My heart recognized him. And I called her by the same name that I used to call her earlier when she used to roam with me in the fields and forests. Frao Gut said lovingly, let us walk again on the paths we used to walk earlier.

23:47 Behind the palace was a forest of old trees standing side by side with dodahs and small shrubs. Frau started walking with me on that path. This path and forest were exactly like the one we had roamed around earlier. My heart was soft and I slowly listened to the sounds of the wind and the birds. My feet had wandered through the same grass before, and my ears had heard the same sounds before. I couldn't understand if this happened yesterday or many years ago.

24:33 Do you remember this? Frau asked. Touching a big tree which we earlier called the father tree because it was the oldest and the biggest. I kept nodding my head silently saying yes and this green and yellow color and these paths and small forests were full of comfort and I kept nodding my head silently again. This is your last summer dream. He said, your favorite are the songs around you that you created for this dream. These are the days when this

25:19 dream used to come flying to you. With your memories and wishes. I took Frau's hand. I again found her slender fair hands and her pink fingers very beautiful. Do you remember that first day? Frau asked as we sat under the flowering tree. Yes, I remember everything. I remember. You consoled me and gave me advice. You reminded me of my distant mother. I was sick and lost, and you awakened my last remaining sense of goodness and respect.

26:08 You taught me to find lost beauty and feel young again by seeing it. Once you wanted to write a song about me and your happiness. Do you remember? Your days and nights were filled with this song. With a lot of hard work and love you discovered all the beautiful things that no artist in the world had seen. Look, the whole song is here. Absolutely beautifully made. There are beautiful trees, bushes, golden light and songs of beautiful birds here. And

26:53 look at me too. All that was small and false in me is gone. What you see now is more beautiful and real than any reality. Listen carefully to the sound of every wind and fill your eyes with all the colours of the leaves. When you go away you will miss all the sounds and colours you lost. But then your song will come to you through hundreds of paths. Your old songs will find you. And one day that song will be ready and will come to you. Beautiful and fully made.

27:42 Frau fell silent again and took my hand again. We were listening to the sound of flowing water in the distance. Up in the sky, a big bird was flying with its wings spread. The next day I woke up early. There had been a light rain during the night before the birds woke up. The ground was wet and a strong fragrance was coming from it. Drops of clear water were hanging on the leaves. At every step I could feel my youth and strength. The sky was dark blue and the ground was nowhere to be seen. For the first time since childhood, the earth looked so happy to me.

28:29 I set off down a rough path that gradually led into an old forest. A strong wind was blowing over the big trees. Who were holding each other with their crooked hands. Sometimes I saw footprints of small animals. At one point I felt like a deer was watching me in the bushes. I kept listening to the sounds of the forest intermittently. Then I arrived at a familiar valley. Where there was a pond where I used to spend hours in my childhood. The trees were clearly visible in the calm water of that pond. I first dreamt of poems on the

29:17 banks of this pond. I put my hands on my eyes and looked at that old place. The sound of grass and water brought me back to old memories. Church bells were heard from a distance. His soft voice passed slowly over me. There was an old building behind the hill. Where I first learned to think. It was there that I first tasted the bittersweet words of wisdom and recognized the signs of hidden beauty. There for the first time I heard the big names that elevated my thoughts. Perry Cleopatra, Socrates,

30:06 Phidias and the biggest name of all, Homer. I could clearly see in my mind the old tall halls and pointed windows of that place. I really wanted to go and see that place again. But I stayed there. I was afraid the beautiful picture I had in my mind would be shattered. I was afraid that when I went there I would see others. Whereas in my dreams I was the only one living there. The sun was shining on the pointed roof of the church. There was

30:54 seriously a hill standing between me and my past. Feeling emotional, I extended my hand towards him. A part of my soul, my childhood and my unfulfilled dreams were buried there. There was a small wooden bridge over the pond. I stepped onto the shaking bridge and leaned over the edge as before. My face appeared in the water of the pond. I searched for signs of those days on my face. I then walked slowly away from the pond back towards the forest. The queen and her friends were sitting in a circle in the garden.

31:41 They were taking fruits out of the bowl and giving them to each other. The person picking the fruit had to say something about the fruit. I hid behind the bushes. A short dark- haired woman took the bowl. When she was picking ripe fruit. I noticed very white skin on the back of his neck. He picked up the fruit and said laughing. The person to whom I want to give this fruit is not here. That's why I will not give this fruit to anyone. Saying this he ate the fruit. Then I came out from behind the bushes. The

32:27 women sitting in front started laughing after seeing me. Gradually everyone started laughing. The one who had the bowl in her hand looked back and became nervous. Then she got up, turned towards me and offering me the fruit she had eaten, said take it Rani said smilingly first you also say something I said this sweet fruit is a gift of fortune for me, it would be wrong to refuse it I will call this brave girl Fortune, Fortuner for you

33:13 and I ate that fruit. Now it was afternoon and we all went and sat in the shade. There was fruit, honey, milk, bread and wine. We washed our hands and sat down to eat happily. The Fortuner was sitting right next to me. The other girls were teasing her. But she kept laughing. After some time, a girl started telling me old stories from my life. Hearing this everyone was laughing. Rani also asked, do you remember Blue's story from your childhood ? I suddenly saw something from my childhood that

34:00 I had forgotten and I began to listen. When I was very young, perhaps not even six years old, I heard somewhere about a singer named Bluedale. I really liked that name. I asked my friend to call me Bluedale. I would feel very happy if he called me by this name. But one day he shouted loudly outside our house. Come out Blundell. And my parents and guests heard this and I felt very embarrassed. So I told my friend that

34:46 our friendship is over now. Later, we became friends again. Rani said ok now tell me where were you this morning ? I wanted to show you the morning sea but you were missing. I got up early and went to the forest. There I found a beautiful pond which reminded me of my childhood. Across the pond I saw the tower of the old building where I spent my childhood. Yes. The queen said. It was the best and the saddest time of your life. I used to see you even when you used to wander alone in the forest. He

35:32 walked sadly amongst the leaves. I was there with you even when you read a book or played music. I knew one day you would come back young again and with new sadness. The memories of those days taught me to love you even in your lost life. Hearing this from him reminded me of my entire childhood, looking at me like a sad child. The dinner was over and Rani showed me a musical instrument and asked me to play it. I played it slowly at first. Then happily

36:19 played the tune of his childhood. Then, at Frau's behest, I played a beautiful melody of Schoppa that was like the waves of the sea. Later the queen took me through the forest to a palace which was near the sea. There was a beautiful painting on a big wall. This is my favourite picture. He said there was a beautiful garden and fountain built there. And a veena was kept on one side. Do you know this garden ? He asked, No, but this Veena belongs to Hariyostu. The queen smiled.

37:06 Yes, he comes here sometimes. He sings songs for me. We laugh and I put a garland of flowers on her. Then at the queen's signal the wall disappeared and the real garden appeared before us. A tall man came. He played the harp and then went away. Rani and I went to the beach. The queen placed a branch of flowers in my boat and said lovingly. goodbye. I know you will come back again. One day you will come without a boat.

37:51 A big wave came and my boat was swept away. I waved my hand and said goodbye to Rani. Which gradually disappeared. Night fell and my lonely journey began. The stars kept watching me from above and I slowly started returning towards home.