0:00 I'm very normal. A lot of you think I'm not normal. David, she into girls. My type is men who have brain cells. Is there any guy you like right now? Mom, please pop another one out. And I'm like, oh my god, why am I doing what I'm doing? I know. She could treat me so good. Are your stories real? The truth. Hi. What is going on with the hair? I look like Bob Bra. Ah. Ah. Oh my god. Ow. She's okay. Oh, rise and shine. Today I'm going to be talking about myself. Round of applause. So many of you don't know what I like. I like a lot of things. I like David Salvatore. That's it. That's really all I like. I feel like there's a lot of new people that have been subscribing to me and following me along and they're like, "Is this girl okay?" And truly, the answer
0:46 is no. She's not okay. But although I could and also, am I okay? And also, I thought I'd be saying the truth on some stuff. Um, it is 1:00 a.m. It is really dark outside and I thought, what better way to spend my evening than talking to you guys and making coffee at 1:00 a.m.? So, the answer to the question, am I okay? No, unfortunately not. Let's ice it up, shall we? Is that a hair? I know it's my hair, but still. This is a new coffee. It's Florence coffee by Mills. It's by Millie Bobby Brown, and I've never ever tried it. Oh my god, that's strong. Oh, I'm supposed to shake it. Oops, I
1:32 forgot to shake it. And that's why there's trunks. So, the answer to the question is, is she okay? No. What is happening with shoe guy? Is he real? Yeah. Unfortunately, I haven't had a boyfriend in what, like a year and a half now. My last boyfriend was Chad. I've had many little situationships in between. Like, I'm craving love. But do you know what I think is happening? I feel like I'm at a point in my life where I shouldn't be chasing a guy. Yeah. Every time I'm chasing a guy, it's ending up to be a bad guy. So maybe like I just need to let the guys come to me, attract the men and not chase the men.
2:19 Also, why am I chasing men? Is she into girls? No, I wouldn't say that I'm by. I think I'm straight. Unfortunately, not a thing for men. Unfortunately, again, I'm the biggest man hater, which is really surprising to a lot of people, but I absolutely think men are so absurd. Like, why are they here? Why do they exist? excluding my brothers. Actually, sometimes excluding my brothers. No, I mean I think there's probably some men out there that are good maybe. And if they are, then I don't know where they are because clearly they don't exist and please let them exist. Um, I'm not into girls. I think been on a couple of dates with girls now. I've
3:05 been pursued by girls. Um, I think sometimes when I get pursued by a girl, it's like exciting because I'm like, I know she could treat me so good and I know I could treat her so good. I need a man unfortunately. God. Um, Leah, what is your type? My type is men who have brain cells. And as much as you think, oh my god, they all have brain cells. No, no, no. The majority do not. It's a minority. Brain cells in men is a minority. Not that picky. Like I don't even need him to be tall. He can be my height. He can't be shorter than me because I'm just like, but he can be my height. Like we love short Kanges. I'm 5'9, 5'10. He can be my height and I would be fine. What matters is he has brain cells and he's intelligent. I think intelligence and smartness is like such a big thing
3:51 for me. Um I hate a man that is sensitive. I'm so sorry. No, you can be sensitive. Men are allowed to cry. I think if a man is like very sensitive and it's like if they watch a movie and they're crying, I'm going to be looking at you with a side eye. Um like if they hug me and they're crying, what is wrong with you? Um if I'm holding your hand and you're crying, um hello. If you see a dog and you're like a tears shedding, are you okay? Stay away from me, please. But no, other than that, you can cry. Just like hide. preferably colored eyes because like 100% possibility my child will have colored eyes, but like I don't even want children. I want to adopt. I'm definitely adopting. Like there's people
4:37 that have told me, "Oh, I'm not ever going to adopt." Like mom to a little girl and her name I hope will be Maya, but because I'm adopting, I don't ever want to change her name. Um, if I get to name her, that's amazing. She went through a lot and she's already old enough to know that that's her name. I'm not going to go and change her name. I want to give her the best life that I could. That is one of my goals. Like, if I ever have a child, my first child will be a girl that I adopt. That's it. I don't ever really want a child of my own. I'm just like a girl mom. I don't know how to describe it. Like, don't you see me as a girl mom? I don't know. I'm just like, she'll have everything that I did not have as a child. She won't be spoiled. She'll be wearing Prada. Let's try this coffee.
5:26 Are your stories real? I've said this so many times and I'll say it again. Some stories I share online I have been through in the past. I couldn't talk about them back then, so I talk about them now and I react them and I relive them. Some stories are currently happening and I do share them with you guys, but it takes me a while to process them. Like when I went through sort of like a boy problem or a breakup, I don't personally say it online right away because like I'm going through it. I'm dealing with it. And I know putting it out there online is going to cause so many people to also react to it. And that's just so much added on my plate. Do I exaggerate my stories? Oh, 1,000%. I I exaggerate stuff. But it's also what I love to do. I love acting. But yeah, I
6:12 think being able to like reenact something, relive that same emotion I relived in the past is such a talent that I think I do have. Not being cocky or anything. Your favorite everything about social media. It's sometimes, not all the time, I don't read comments because comments scare me, but sometimes I do. And this morning, I swear to you, I sent my mom a picture of a comment and it's this mom wrote, "Thank you for normalizing things for my girls. They love your content. I've started to feel pride and excitement about wearing traditional clothes and even fasting during Ramadan." And I sent it to my mom and I'm like, "This is what I do. This is why I do it." Like, that just warmed my heart. Like
6:58 for a mom to send me that and being like you are normalizing something my daughters feel ashamed of. I'm like are you kidding me? Like that is what I do. This is why I love doing it. Coffee time. If you could have a sister, would you have one? I would say yes, but honestly, there's a reason God did not give me sisters. He blessed me with two brothers that I would give everything to. So, no. I think I used to always say yes. I wish. Mom, please pop another one out. Um, but now I'm like, no more popping any out. We're good. Three is the capacity here. I think in a way you guys are like my little sisters. It makes me feel really old. I'm 23. I cannot believe I'm going
7:45 to be turning 23 in July. How do you feel about reading hate comments or hate videos? I'm not going to sit here and be like, "It doesn't bother me. I'm so cool." Like, I think sometimes when I'm already feeling down and I do read that, it I like it makes me feel even worse and I'm like, "Oh my god, why am I doing what I'm doing? I need to stop." Like, anytime someone tells you something, a stranger, a relative, your friend, whatever. Um, hey, you look tired. you're going to be like, "Oh my god, I'm never getting out of the house again without putting something on my face here and lie to you and be like, "No, it's all good. It's amazing." And I feel like I used to do that. It really sucks sometimes and it gets to you. But I think you just have to remember who you are, why you do what
8:32 you do, and your morals and your beliefs. If you love yourself, truly love yourself, it does not get to you. It might like affect you a little, but eventually you're like, you know what? They're not telling the truth about me, so why is this affecting me? And it really does help. This is a deep question one of you asked. Do you love yourself? I think every day I learn how to love myself more and more. Some days I'm like, some days I'm learning to love myself. Every day, every week, every month, me loving myself increases and increases. And I think that's sort of me growing up, me finally starting to understand what I want, what I like. I think a few months ago, I used to put up with things that I don't think I would
9:18 put up with now. It's realizing what you want. I think when you realize what you want, you stop wasting other people's time and you stop wasting your time. And that's even with like school, too. It's like, oh, this major is fine. I like it, but like I hate this. I hate this. I don't see myself doing this. Okay, why are we wasting four years studying this, putting money into this, putting time and effort for at the end to be like, I'm not working with this degree. I think that's why when I majored in biochem, I was like, I love it. I want it. Becoming a doctor is going to be my thing. And of course, I have to see it through always. Is there any guy you like right now? I don't know the answer to that because I recently met a guy at a coffee shop
10:05 and I am trying to figure out if I do like him or not on a deeper level. I haven't talked about him at all on social media cuz I kind of wanted to keep it close to my heart actually and figure out myself first and then maybe someone but there isn't if that makes sense. That's all I'll say for now. And if God is intending for it to happen, it will happen. It makes me sad. It makes me sad. And if I love him, I love him. And if I don't, I don't. I'm not going to force anything. I'm not going to push anything. God's will. God's will. God's will. God's What is something you'll never give up? This coffee. Never ever ever getting back together. You can copy your friends often enough. If you could have
10:52 a relationship with your grandparents, would you have one? I mean, tell me one child who would be like, "I actually don't want a grandma or a grandpa." Like, ask me that question 6 years ago when I was like 17, 16. I would be like, "I wish." Like, I used to be jealous of people who had grandparents who'd be like, "Ooh, my grandma baked me this." Then I realized some people don't even have parents. Some people don't even have siblings. They don't even have a relationship with them. So why am I going out of my way looking for grandparents who don't want me, who want nothing to do with me when I have amazing, wonderful parents who would give up everything for me and my brothers and I have amazing siblings and we have such a close bond. So no, I don't wish I had a relationship with
11:37 them. Would it be great if I did? Yeah. But isn't going to add anything to my life? Absolutely not. They're missing out on getting to know such a kind soul, me. Um, and yeah, I think it's a little bit too late for that now. Do I think it would be great? Yes. Do I wish for it? No. Because I never had it for me to wish for it. You know what I mean? Like I I don't know the feeling of having grandparents for me to be like, I wish I had it. Darn it. I hope I have an amazing life far away from me. I mean, walk me through your day. Well, I wake up at 5:00 a.m. like a psycho. I don't sleep till like 3:00 a.m. So, imagine me sleeping every day for 2 hours. a psycho. I drink coffee like a psycho. That's the first thing that enters your body. And I'm literally studying
12:22 medicine. And it's the worst thing that enters your body is coffee in the morning. And then I study for a bit. I'll go to a coffee shop. I'll study. Um I'll go to the gym. I'll run. I'll come back home. I'll make videos. I'll edit. I'll record. You know, all that fun stuff. Six. The latest. I might hang out with a friend. I know I said friend. We're getting into that. And I will study even some more. Um, obviously another coffee. I'll finally have lunch, dinner, and then another coffee. I'll do something with my brothers, maybe. And then another coffee. And then I'll jump. And then another coffee. Now, a question that's been on your guys's mind is, Leah, have you been making friends?
13:08 And sadly, the answer is yes. Um, I have one friend right now. Um, other than my friend in Australia, we're not counting that one because I haven't seen her in two years. It's like, it's a tough topic, but I have made an amazing friend and we both study together. And I really thought after college was done, I would not be making friends because like, where am I going to meet friends? So, if I did not make friends in high school or college, are you kidding me? Really? And just when I said that, like, God put someone in my life who literally went to every single class that I went to. Every single one. every single one. And I never talked to her once. I mean, colleges are so big and classes are so big, but like same major, we graduate in the same day, same class, same
13:53 everything. And I met her on graduation day. Actually, I met her little sister who's a fan of me. And then um her little sister invited me to her birthday party and I showed up to her birthday party and I got her a gift. And then I met her sister and we hit it off and we talked again and again and again and again and now we're like besties. I would say you might think I get jealous of people who have such a good love life. Oh no. I get jealous of people who have such a good friend in their life, such a close friend in their life. And I never thought I would actually after college make any friends because I'm like, well, my time is up. You know, that was the time I was supposed to do and I didn't. But I did. And it's insane. We've gotten close. We've cried together, laughed together, we've drank coffee together. To have such a genuine
14:41 friendship with a girl is one of the best things ever. And I kind of always didn't understand that until I did have a friend like her. I always get DMs from you guys of like having troubles with girl friendships. If that friend is making you sad, if that friend is making you cry, if that friend is making you question things about your friendship, if that friend does not give you a good vibe, they're not your friend. Friend is such a word that gets overthrown here so much. Oh yeah, I met this guy. He's my friend. Oh yeah, I met this girl. He's my She's my friend. No, no, no. Friends are like friend. She's talking about you behind your back. That's not a friend. Just because you hang out with her, that's not your friend. Like the feeling I have with this girl is like, I know she has my back. I know I have her back.
15:26 I want nothing but the best for her. Like if I did not find this friend, I actually would rather be alone and not have friends than be surrounded with people who actually hate me and pretend to be my friends. Also, another friend group chat is like these amazing, beautiful, sweet, kind, genuine girls who are fans of me but also are friends and they have like a fan page and it's a group that I actually made with them and it's called Diabolicness. They make the best edits ever. I'm like watching myself all day and I'm like, "Oo, I look hot." Okay. Um, wish all of you and I wish all of them nothing but the best and they're all so young and like it's just I see myself in them and it's like the best thing ever cuz I know
16:12 they're going to be having such a bright future and I love all of them. Um Um I'm old. Put me in the retiring home. I'm 22, turning 23. 23. Going to wrap it up. This is my bedtime. It's granny's bedtime. Um, I hope you guys have an How am I going to sleep? Oh god. I love you. Yeah, that's it. I love you. Bye. And I know Ramadan is coming to an end. And for all of you fasting, happy Eid, Eid Mubarak, I'm so proud of you. You're doing amazing. Love you.
