Full transcript of “The world is full of starving vampires, protect yourself no matter what”. Click a timestamp to open the video at that moment. Need another video? Use the YouTube transcript generator.
0:00 Hi guys. I am free from my last seasonal job that I'll probably ever work. And I'm right next to a highway. Sorry if you can hear it. I got a hotel for the night because it's just so hot and humid. I can't sleep a full night, a whole full night through. I've been driving for like 5 hours and I drove a lot of hours yesterday and it's just very hot and very humid. I'm not used to the humidity. What is this? How can you guys live with humidity? Anyway, it feels amazing to choose myself to escape from people who just it's just a bummer that people just they will manipulate you to they want you to
0:46 see them a certain way, but they just can't help but re reveal their true colors. Eventually, it'll come out. Like you can't mess with people who are highly intuitive, who are on their own and very street smart. You got to understand human nature. Understanding human nature has released a lot for me to just finally be on my own and do the things that I want to do in life and let go of trying, of caring so much. I can't even believe that really this this whole time I I really just I mean it's so sad to say it, but like I I just
1:32 really wanted to find my people, my friends, a partner. I let that go a long time ago. But yeah, it's just not I thought doing seasonal work I would find more people who are living more nomatically and I could learn from them and have fun with them. I just wanted to have fun with people. I wanted to relax and enjoy life. And I thought I would meet them and be able to do that more doing seasonal work. But life for me is much better just being on my own, living in my car. I will work to get a minivan and convert it into a camper and just continue on from there and see where life takes me. But I I cannot be giving my my soul away
2:20 to these weird vampire type of people for this type of work where you're not paid that well. You're treated like wow like scum like a scumbag. [clears throat] Like you're so disposable. And this last seasonal job, you know, they they tricked me into this fake concern about my well-being and my health because I I really did not the seasonal job before this one. You know, I was up by Yuseite Mountains and there was only one store. It was so expensive and had a limited amount of groceries that you could get, but I already was paying rent on top of food included the meals that we would be served uh three times a day. But it was like crappy food. It was just carbs and
3:06 cheese and it it I gained weight from it. It made me so lethargic and just bl and it made me more addicted to crappy food cuz it was just all uh converting into sugar. So it was just not good. And I just felt like crap and I was so drained from what I experienced and the humiliation that I experienced when I was there. and then driving all the way across the country to work at this last seasonal job and I thought I was going to be relaxed. I mean, that's what my boss told me. We would have conversations about it and I I would ask them, "What needs to be done? What do you expect of me?" You know, I asked all the right professional questions and they answered them. But then they turned that around after I got there and kept putting more and more work on me. But but first they gave this false
3:52 concern like about my well-being and my health and they gave me a lot of like supplements and things to try and help me out and just they they were into natural medicine which I appreciated. I I am too. Um but then it just became then I just kind of stopped. I just would said like oh I feel good even though I didn't. I was exhausted. But I also like I don't want to keep speaking about how I feel bad because I don't want that to keep manifesting. You know, I don't want to deny it. But to other people, I don't like to talk about what's like if there's any type of physical or mental suffering that I'm going through, whatever. I don't really
4:39 want to talk about that with people at all anymore because it will just manifest. And most people don't care. They don't [ __ ] care. Um, but I do I Okay, where am I going? There's so much I want to talk about. But yeah, but eventually they got very condescending and kind of used um my health against me and they would say little things here and there and like the way that they would look at me after like that toxic narcissistic look with like that smirk on their face just like, "Oh [ __ ] I know what's going on here. I've been through this rodeo many times and I definitely felt like because this person, it was an older woman and her older mom and there was older women that
5:25 worked there and an older man that worked there and it definitely felt like my parental figures growing up. That fake concern, we care about your well-being. Tell us more. What's going on with you? Only to just use it against me later. Like it was definitely old patterns coming up. Yeah. Um like feeling like you should I should constantly be fixing myself. I talk about this a lot. Like a lot of people think like if they find out something's wrong with you, they think you should instantly fix it. Hurry up and fix it. You shouldn't be tired. You shouldn't be this. But and then you explain, well, I'm not getting enough sleep and like I'm working really hard and working in the heat. really exhausts me. On top of
6:12 it, it's not even I wasn't even telling anyone or ever telling anyone like, "Oh, I can't do this. It's just I can't give you 100% every day." And that's normal. I'm not a robot. We're not robots. You can't give 100% all day every day. Sometimes it's 80. Sometimes it's 50. Sometimes it's zero. You know, especially if you're denying it and you keep going and going just trying to please other people because they can't accept that you're not a robot, it'll go down to like 1%. And then you can't do anything at all anymore. I mean, I got very sick in my 20s cuz that's what I was doing. And my f like I remember I had reoccurring shingles when I it started when I was like 23 years old. And my mom
6:58 passed away when I was 18. And after that, like I moved back. My grandma, I was very close with my grandma when I was a little girl, but then she got weird once I like was going through puberty and stuff and just wanted to hang out with friends and drink and do drugs and stuff like like every kid, right? Um, but she'd always be like, "Where's my happy little girl? Like, I'm not happy anymore. I know who my [ __ ] parents are. You know, my family's [ __ ] toxic as hell. Very abusive. I'm not happy. I'm not going to be happy all the time." I didn't say that. Like, but now I know that's what it was. So, like when you're a teenager, your home hormones are going crazy. You're not going to be happy all the time. Like, what the hell? But it was always like, you need to provide me this energy consistently, be at 100% because I need to feel better about myself. Not cuz I actually genuinely care about you and your well-being, but I need to feel
7:44 better about myself. And I had reoccurring shingles. And every Sunday I would go to my grandma's and uh we we would have dinner together, pasta, Italian, every every Sunday. and I just I couldn't keep up with it anymore. And then one Sunday like like it was like calling calling into work. I was so paranoid about that. I I used to never call in to work either because even though I was so sick, I was so afraid of the consequences or just feeling like they're mad at me. [sighs] Now I don't give a [ __ ] It's like I literally don't feel good. I'm not coming in and I don't owe you anything. Like I work for you anyway. But I I told my grandma like a couple
8:29 hours before that, I woke up just feeling like hell. And she knew I had reoccurring shingles. I had nerve damage from it. I had a leaky heart. I was not doing well. I had parasites. I was not doing well, you guys. I had the immune system of a 70-year-old. It was older than my grandma at the time or maybe around that in my early 20s, okay? And she knows my mom passed away and I was going to therapy for it. And I was just so tired, man. So tired. and she knew all the family drama. So, like what do you expect? But she got very upset with me and she said, "Next time you need to give me a better uh a heads up at an earlier time, like I had done that to her on purpose." And she's like, "I already was preparing dinner and you got to give me a heads
9:14 up." I was like, "What?" And I I kept going over there. I just kept giving and giving and giving to these people in my family who could care less about me. That's why I had to get into therapy because I didn't realize how manipulated I was be how manipulated I was, you know, and my mom passed away too. So like they use used that grief for their benefit like this fake concern. I didn't expect to talk about this at all, but but I definitely like I see the patterns in people and like of that old part of me like just giving and giving and giving to these people who really don't give a [ __ ] and they get more mad that you're not constantly there for them. It's like I have my own life. How come you get to have your own life? How come you get to put up these
10:00 boundaries and you know and say like I need a bigger heads up and when I do it it's the end of the world. So I had to go through that with my own family. I'm not [ __ ] doing that with just people I don't even know. New friends, new partners, new employers. I'm not doing that anymore. I have been on my own long enough. How long? Five or six years now. Getting [ __ ] over left and right by people who I thought were my friends, who I thought cared about me and just and by complete strangers that I just I just needed a place to live. I needed roommates. I needed a place to work. Not that big of a deal. Like there, but they want my energy. Like,
10:45 we're in a spiritual battle, you guys. There's vampires everywhere. There's vampire type of people everywhere. They will drain you dry. And you will be so [ __ ] manipulated and confused and so sick and lethargic that you have no idea where it started, what's actually going on, who's actually draining you, what's happening at all. You have to be very aware of what's going on. And I think it's better to be paranoid about it because that's something too. These manipulators, they'll be like, "Oh, you're being paranoid. You're overthinking it. It's not it's not like that." Sometimes maybe, but no, every time that I thought that, it ended up being true. It's your intuition telling you something. And who cares? These people don't know what you've gone through. You're allowed to say no.
11:31 You're allowed to be paranoid and cut people off. You don't owe anybody anything. Your well-being is the most important. It's not like you're doing it to be rude to them. They're upset because that's how they treat you and other people. That's that's how you know the they're manipulators is when they get upset with you for setting boundaries, for taking care of yourself, for needing time alone to just simply take care of yourself or just simply because you want you have things you need to get done. That's your number one sign. It's so it's so ridiculous. and the way the world is now and how we're all just so exhausted and everyone seems to know more about psychological and spiritual work and all that. There's definitely like no more. I have no patience to give anybody chances like that anymore. It's
12:17 so ridiculous. And for these people to think I will keep giving and giving chances and giving giving my energy when I went through that with my family and cut them off. I was married for over 10 years, got divorced, cut it off. All my friends that I had since I was a little girl, cut it off. You think I'm gonna do it again with other people? I don't think so. A part of me really wanted to. I wanted to rebuild. I I I thought, well, I healed enough and I know all this. I'm more aware of it. I'm a more softer, accepting person now. I'm away from my toxic family that made me so angry all the time and so rigid and paranoid. I know better now. So, now I'll attract better. But people just they see that. They see that light in you and they'll come for you. and everyone's cutting off their toxic family members. So, they're like, "Who
13:03 else can I drain? Who else can I manipulate? Look at this girl over here. She's alone. Let's manipulate her." It's [ __ ] crazy. You have you your boundaries, your cut off games got to be top top score, top top. It's not the top because people literally they will try to unalive you. People you don't even know. People are so lost. These vampire people are starving to drain other people that if if they find any sort of goodness in you, any sort of understanding or any light within you, they're going straight towards you and they will do whatever they can. Like because you know
13:49 it's just like an addict who like quits heroin and then when they do it again they do so they do as much as they did before they quit that they end up overdosing and passing away. It's the same with these vamp vampire people like their families have cut them off or their partners whatever cuz we're finally waking up and choosing ourselves now that they're starving for it. So when they meet someone who's willing to give them a chance, who doesn't see it yet, I mean, they'll go to the absolute extreme and they'll do thing they will do things that they wish they did to the last person. It's not cuz you're special or anything like that. It's just they need to get their fix. They're vampires. They're toxic. They need to drain your energy. They'll do whatever they they want to, whatever they feel is
14:37 will soothe them. They don't care about you. It's all false fake concerns. [sighs] And I don't I don't care if if these people don't aren't going to go to that extreme to unal alive me or anything like that. I'm not taking any chances. I don't care if it I don't care if it's just a little bit of you say one condescending thing to me, you do one little thing, I'm gone. I'm gone. It has taken me so long to get to this point and I'm I'm not backing down now. I'm not allowing anyone to make try and make me feel guilty or that I'm being too extreme or, you know, overthinking anything like that. I don't I'm not taking any chances. You cannot take any chances.
15:22 Especially now that I have this YouTube channel and I actually feel like I'm contributing something something to this world, like my soul's work. I'm going to save my soul's work over everything. It's not me or my body, my ego, or anything like that. It's my soul and it's my soul's work that I'm giving to this world. That's what we're doing. The good people with the good energy that are doing their their soul work, that are living as their soul and they're able to show that to other people and shine in this world. You need to protect that at all costs. This is a spiritual battle. there's something much more sinister going on that even the toxic people that they'll never recognize it. And we have to be here for each other to wake each other up from this because there's a lot of good hard people that don't know any
16:08 better. They second guess everything. They think they're being ridiculous. They're overthinking that they should give people chances cuz they have empathy. They don't realize how sick people are and how starved they are to drain you. And they will go to they will do anything possible to drain you. I think uh Nirvana has this quote, the band Nirvana, just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they're not after you. And it's true. Just because you're paranoid doesn't mean that they're not after you. Like, we just live in a whole world with that energy. And to and to be more than that is a [ __ ] miracle. And you got to savor that. You got to savor it so other people who need to see you will see you.
16:56 Not so you can save these toxic people. Let them die and starve in hell. I'm so mad. Dude, this last job too, there was this guy who worked there. Him and his wife lived on property and he just immediately so interested in me and was getting more and more irritated every day. Every morning he would come in just good morning and then he would try and do this flirty banter with me. It's like at first, the first time I met him, I didn't know any better. The second time I knew. I [ __ ] knew. And he was trying to invite me over to their house all the time. And it's like, what? Why? Why don't you ask the other women who work here? They're they're asking for things that we did that they could have easily done for them, too. Why aren't you going towards them? But he was getting increasingly frustrated that
17:41 I wasn't happy golucky and doing the flirty banter with him. And one morning, he was just like, "Pick it up. Pick it up." I was like, "Holy [ __ ] this guy's breaking. I need to get out of here before something happens." Because my last seasonal job, if you watched my video on the the craziest humiliation ritual I've ever been through, a guy headbutted me, you know? Another guy like wanted to have like a domestic dispute with me to like intertwine with our energy cuz I wasn't interested in him or having a relationship at all with him. But he would just say the craziest [ __ ] that was like I don't know. that was like love and relationships to him was being toxic and violent.
18:27 So yeah, I got out of there real quick and the day before I left too, people were the people who work there were telling me how my boss is. And that guy was saying like, "I can't believe you drove all the way from California not knowing how she is." Like they were trying to make me feel stupid. Well, maybe maybe they weren't trying to make me feel stupid, but like why would you tell someone that like dude I I drove all the way here that like keep this [ __ ] to yourself. He would He also was so rude. The the first time I met him, he was so rude. Like I went into town and I got like an ice matcha and I even thought when I got it like, "Wow, this is cheaper than any other place I've been to. It was like three bucks." I was like, "This is great." And it was good. And then I went back and he introduced himself to me and I met his wife the day before and I I
19:15 said my name and everything. He's like, "I know my wife met you last night." Then why the [ __ ] are you Why do we need to introduce ourselves then? And then he was like, "Where did you go? Where did you get your matcha or where'd you get your drink?" He didn't even know it was matcha. And I said where I got it and he's like, "Wow, you're going there? That place is expensive and you haven't even gotten your first paycheck." Like why is that any of your business? And then there was like an issue with like the little mini fridge I had up in my room that was like on the third floor. And he was being so rude to my boss. And I I didn't know how crazy she was yet. So I didn't understand where he was coming from yet. But still the way he talks to people. And um he was like she asked him if he could go up to my room and get it. And I was like
20:00 and I I was down working and I was like it's fine. I'll do it. I don't want you I don't want you in my room. Cuz they kept pushing for it. And I finally said like, "I don't want you in my room if I'm not in there." And he was like, "I painted your room." Okay. Well, now someone lives in it and I'm not comfortable with you being in my room. What the such a weird thing to say. It's just stupid [ __ ] childlike mentality. I can't be around people like that. It's just so rude. And my boss asked him to help me with something and, you know, he showed me how to do it and I was like, "Wow, that's a lot easier than I thought." And he's like, "Yeah, cuz you didn't do shit." Okay. And then that's that was before he was like, "Come on, give me more energy." Because he was just constantly like saying things that were supposed to be jokes, but it was so rude. And he
20:45 just kept asking me like, "Are you okay today?" Like he would follow me around if I didn't smile at him. And he would come confront me later and be like, "What's up? You all right?" It's like, "Yep." Like I wanted so badly to say, "Maybe I just don't like you." Has that ever occurred to you? Maybe I don't like you and that's why I'm not giving you what you want. Yeah. Especially when he's so rude and like cussing and I don't know you, dude. Anyway, holy [ __ ] But these people were there for years and years and they try to make me feel like, wow, I can't believe you drove from California. I'm like, I can't believe you're locals and you've worked here for years. What? You think I'm going to stay? Like, I already knew in my mind. I I already had a getaway plan. I knew when I was going to
21:30 leave and everything. So, and it just felt so good to be like, I don't I don't have to ever do this again. I'm never doing this again. I have reached a point in my life where I can live with less. I can be on my own. I'll figure a way out. God provides in perfect divine timing. He brings me people that help me get through things. I know how how life truly truly works now. And I need to trust that more than toxic people who are just there to give this false concern, give you fake hope. fake help. It's dangerous. It's very dangerous. And I I finally have accepted that it's better to just be on my own and trust in God. I remember one time when I was leaving the last house that I lived in
22:15 when I was paying rent before living in my car. I was talking to my landlord and I gave or the guy who had my room before that was this Ukrainian guy and he moved back to the Ukraine to find a wife. But that was like two or three years ago. I'm talking in the driveway with my landlord and I think we were talking about him. He [ __ ] comes up with luggage just coming down the driveway. We were like, "What? We were just talking about you." And I I wanted to get out of there so quickly. Or no, this was before I found another roommate to live with. Just a single woman who ended up being psychotic and was bringing violent men back to our house and just trying to cause disturbances every single night.
23:02 She just really had it out to get me. I've been through a lot, you guys. She really had it out to get me. Um, but she seemed great before that. And I have thought, I just want to move with one person. I have my own room, my own bathroom. I just want to cook, be healthy again, like have my space. I was very clear about that with this woman. So, I thought this is a great opportunity to move out. But then I had to move back into this place that I'm talking about that I talked to my landlord and stuff because she was absolutely psychotic and I felt like I my life was being threatened. But this roommate or the guy that I had the got the room from, he came up and I I left like a month before my actual lease was up and I let him have my room cuz he had to come back and like get some court documents and stuff to get
23:48 married back in Ukraine and whatever. And I remember he was like, "Thank you, God. Thank you, God." When he found out like, "You can just stay in my room for a month." And for a split second, I was like, "I I I'm giving you the room. But I just I loved I think about it that moment all the time that he instantly said, "Thank you, God." Not thank you to me or anybody else. He did thank me, but the first person was God because it all aligned. Like he just showed up. He took a big step by coming back all the way to America. Didn't ask anybody anything. He came to the only people that he knew and we were able to help him out and give him a place to stay for free for a month. Anyway, so yeah, I make sure I'm always
24:34 thanking God before anyone. And I know that everyone who supports me and cares about me now is sent from God itself. And it's not out, they're not out to get me or anything like that. And I I can recognize the sign because of all these toxic people that I've interacted with, that I've worked with, that I've lived with, whatever, been friends with, partners with. I know how to recognize it a lot sooner. And you you have to be thankful for the what you've been shown cuz that's the truth. It's these old patterns. You got to get wiser and that's what you're being shown. You feel like you can't take it anymore. I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. It's just over and over and over. People are everywhere. These toxic [ __ ] people,
25:19 this toxic energy, this soul sucking way of life, you can't escape it, you know? At least it feels like that and it feels like a long long road of escaping that. But the more you trust in your higher power and in yourself, the more the I don't even want to say who cares about the time. You will be moved away from it. you because you'll be able to recognize it faster and you'll be able to trust yourself to say I have to I don't even if you don't have the money or a way to get away right away you know something will happen once you take that step once you choose yourself and you choose to trust God more than these crazy demonic people
26:04 everything will align for you and you have to keep practicing that over and over I know you're terrified I was so terrified to ever be on my own move to a new state I was terrified to ever get divorced or do anything get rid of my family cuz I felt like this is all I got and if I say no no no to them like you know I don't you're just so terrified to change but we have to change in order to see what like oh it's possible and it's not as bad as I thought it was going to be you just keep going going through it over and over and over to prove to yourself what's possible that you can become lighter life becomes lighter it's not perfect it's just it becomes better. You know, we h we What else are you going to do with your life with the way the world is
26:49 every like I know you guys know what I'm talking about. Like everything's just so toxic. What else are you going to do with your life but strengthen your ability to connect with your soul and your source? You really like you really want to just keep living the way life has been meant to be lived this whole time. They're changing everything up anyway. We're being more controlled, more surveiled than ever. It's only getting worse. So you have to do this work and you'll be met with everything that God provides for you when you trust that it's not meant so you can put it in you know set it in stone because you can't take anything with you here. You need to remember that you are a spiritual being more than you are a
27:35 human being. You need to you need to practice remembering that you are a spiritual being. and practice being a spiritual being here in this human form. Then you're practicing being a human being. That's what I've been doing. I moved across the country for this job thinking I got to, you know, you got to make money and if I have if I don't have the money to do this and that, things don't show up that way anyway. My energy is drained. I can't connect to source who is so abundant and get provides everything for me. We are so abundant, you guys. You are so prosperous as you are already. There's literally an energetic field within you and all around you that brings you things like magic. And you need to start trusting in this
28:20 more and more and more and more and more than anything in this physical world. This physical world is a giant manipulation tactic. That's why there's so many people, other humans, other souls who react this way now, who are going crazy, who are vampires trying to drain your energy because they've been manipulated by these vampire manipulation that rules this world. Let them be. Choose yourself and be met with better. This your soul is so important. Why would anything else matter? Like I say, unless you have small children to take care of, nobody else matters. Nobody else matters. And even then, I don't know. I don't have kids, so I
29:07 don't know. People will just try and [ __ ] with you and manipulate you no matter what. And it's disgusting. It It needs to stop. Things have to get uncomfortable and have to get things have to get uncomfortable and have to be unknown for a while until you really figure out how to listen to your intuition and that you are a spiritual being. You're not going to logically understand it. You have to move through your life as though you are to really know it and not let anyone get in your way. And it's going to continuously get in your way though because it's teaching you how to release it and to choose better for yourself. Choose your soul more than anything else. So allow your life to be experienced
29:53 because you're doing your soul's work that way. [ __ ] these people. Leave them. Leave them. Like everything in my life is making more sense now. Even though I don't have it all together for you or anybody else to view it in a certain way where it makes sense to other people, it's making sense to me and I'm making sense of it to you in my words in these videos as I go along. And nothing is ever set in stone. Like I said, it's an ongoing process. And don't let anyone trick you into thinking that you have to have it all together all at once cuz what are they doing with their life? And anyone who puts themselves on a pedestal in a way where they care about themselves and they put themselves first in a very healthy way, they will never try and put
30:39 you down. They're up on that pedestal. And yes, people are beneath you. If they try and bully you or criticize you or judge you or try and tell you that you're not doing things the right way, that you're being ridiculous, you're overthinking, whatever. They try and put doubt in you at all. It's because they are beneath you. Anyone above you would never sink down to to a lower level just to put you down and then go back up on their pedestal. We need to rise up. We need to see our worth. Understand that we deserve more. That we are spiritual beings and we deserve to live life knowing this. This is the main work that we're here to do. This is the spiritual work. This is the chosen one type of work.
31:24 let people stay where they are and figure out how to elevate themselves on their own. I mean that I've had to leave so many people behind. So many people it hurt for me to do that, but they were just continuously dragging me down. Help me. Help me. I think of that like Hercules movie, that Disney movie with all the the lost souls and they're just like trying to grab at them. Like that's how people are. That's how people are. And you have to stay away from them. They They're lost, dude. They're lost. And I found a safe space. Well, I mean, people still try and make [ __ ] hard for me, but I found a good spot to be my spiritual self and teach it, whatever, pass it on as much as I can
32:10 without so much of my energy being drained, you know? Like, you can't come to my channel and try and try and put me down and not expect me to block you, you know? Like, I've been doing that more and more. Like, why are you even watching me if you hate me? If you don't like me, if you think what I'm talking about is [ __ ] Why would you even Why are you putting yourself through that? I would never waste my time watching people that I don't agree with. What are what block them? Block people in real life. Block people online. Your soul's work. Whatever resonates with you, keep that going. Keep that you are energy, you know. Keep that frequency going. You are a signal to source. Your whole body is
32:57 just a a full antenna. It's what your intuition is. You're an antenna to God. And so is everyone else. So is everyone else. So you don't need to provide and care for other people like that. Help people out that that need help, that need guidance when they're going through like a hard time. Things like I'm not saying leave people to suffer. Not at all. But there's some people who just they play that fake. They put on a mask just to drain you. And some people you try and help and they they need more and they [music] need more and they need more. We got to we got to recognize that and move on. and and people like my last employer,
33:43 I could tell like she wanted me to be rely reliant on her and I just wasn't. And most people like they they don't want to think for themselves. They want to be told what to do. They feel like it's easier for them, but it's not easier in the long run. It feels awful. Then you're just a slave to that person and their needs and their wants. And it's something in our childhood that started. We got to please people all the time. And I just want mom and dad to love me. [ __ ] them. If they don't love you, [ __ ] them. Move on. You know, I p picked up a hitchhiker in Yoseite like a week before I left. Um, and I I drove him up to Yusede Park
34:31 and he told me that he was in his early 20s and he's been homeless for 5 years. like he just backpacks everywhere and he said he's traveled around America like a few times and he's doing it one last time and then he's going to settle down somewhere and where I was actually from in the Pacific Northwest. That was the crazy part cuz the day before I was watching a documentary on the guy who the book Into the Wild and the movie Into the Wild it's based on Alexander Super [ __ ] I keep forgetting his actual real name but I remember thinking like I'm just going to meet people like in person on the streets. I'm not going to I don't care to meet people online. I I don't trust it. I'm going to meet people out in the world. When I start doing what I love to do, that's when I'm going to meet my people. And the next day, there was that hitchhiker and I pulled over immediately, picked him up,
35:17 and uh I felt totally safe. Whatever. It's okay. I'm not going to pick up every hitchhiker now. You guys chill out. But um yeah, he he was homeless for like 5 years since he was 17 years old. His mom just woke up one day and was like, "Get out of the house." She was on meth and kicked him out. And I'm not trying to put his life on the internet or anything, but I thought it was so beautiful because he said, "You know, if I saw my mom today, I would give her a big hug and say thank you because I wouldn't have been able to experience everything that I have over these years and seen more of the world and met all of his friends and everything." And that's so true. Like, you got to find ways. And some people have just been kicked down so much and and they just don't stay victims to
36:05 it and it's not always easy and you're going to feel the pain and yes your life is now set up in a way because of that pain. You know like now he doesn't have a home because of that but he turned it around. He didn't stay a victim. I turned it around. I didn't stay a victim because of what I was or was not given by my family. by people that I wanted to care and love me. And I just I think about that all the time. And there's just so many beautiful people in this world that we have no idea exist because we're so focused on the toxic ones. And we're so focused on just constantly doing our inner work through a screen instead of going out and experiencing life. And this is something that I always have wanted. I
36:50 wanted to I want to make it real. I want to make it real. I bring it to you, but I want to I want to experience it through me, my own eyes and my own ways of perceiving and living life through my own experiences. And I asked for it and I got it. And that that's how you truly pray. You don't ask and beg. You command it and it is given to you [snorts] anyway. Yeah. But I just think about that all the time. and and he knows people that I know that I've met on the on the streets. Like like this world is actually a lot smaller than we think. And the right people always show up at the right time.
37:36 Little winks from God that you're on the right path and you're doing good. And you just you got to you have to be with that more than anything else. You have to. And yeah, it sucks. We have to go through a lot of pain and a lot of darkness to get to the light. But that's how everything that is light is created. You create in the dark. You don't create in the light. You create in the darkness. That's how you manifest. It's not here yet. It's in the dark. You use your imagination to create something and then it's brought into the light. Now you could see because of the light. Everything is just light. It's holographic. It becomes light and now it's here in the physical. It's not really real. So don't be afraid of the darkness. Don't be afraid of being alone and and your ego death and all that. And don't
38:22 be afraid to use your ego either because that's how you get things out of this life and you stand up for yourself. Thanks for watching. This was a long one. Have a wonderful day. I love you.
