0:04 Asia had a phenomenally unique look she did many things that she's not exactly proud of and my whole world just stopped and I don't really remember much after that this is a place Between Heaven and Hollywood it's the Boulevard of Broken Dreams [Music] I played the piano at Carnegie Hall that was in the New Jersey state Youth Orchestra I was a nerd all my life she is unusual to a degree of
0:52 Brilliance both musically and intellectually people look at individuals that make choices such as she did kind of shake their head and go bun she smart enough not to to know not to do that I turned to porn because it was a damn good source of money once a child prodigy now an adult film star Asia carrera's life is a study in contradiction you just tell me what you want whatever it takes Asia Carrera was born in 1973 her given name was Jessica I was born in New York City and uh raised in New Jersey on the Jersey Shore and I'm the the oldest of four kids I'm half Japanese and half German my parents had really really strict expectations they wanted all high A's if I brought home
1:39 B's I got grounded I think the disconnect with their family was the inability for them to show love and affection I would try as hard as I could and Win More Words than anybody else but it was never good enough for them intellectual ability got the child prodigy into an exclusive Club Mena is a society for high IQ people over 140 you have to be certified Jessica Excel at academics but her dream was to become a musician I wanted to be a Pianist when I grew up but my parents said no you're going to go to Harvard and they actually made me quit playing the piano for a few years to concentrate on my studies but their plan backfired I ran away from home uh let's see I was about 17 or so my mom and I got into a big
2:25 fight but the next morning I packed a bag full of stuff went to school and didn't come home for the streets and the incredible misery of living on the street to be a lesser evil than living in your own home the profound pain in the home has got to be overwhelming by day Jessica continued to go to school at night the teenager did what she could to survive she slept with men to get a hotel room for the night to get a meal where you headed I don't know whatever she uh did many things that she's not exactly proud of to survive but I also think that's where her ability to to separate romance and sex came into play I think that's where it started ironically it was Jessica smarts that got her off the streets with a 1400
3:11 plus SAT score she got a full ride to Ruckers the whole reason I went to college was not because I wanted an education but because I was a runaway and I wanted free room AB board for spending money Jessica went to work as a cocktail waitress that led to a change in plans one night the guy who owned the bar said I'm having a private party if you want to stay and uh it's going to get a little wild and uh he wound up giving us alcohol to get us relaxed and then uh we were dancing on the bar me and the other shot girl and people were just stuffing money and throwing it at us and I went home with 350 bucks and that was when I decided to make my round to the strip bars I said okay money she could knocked down you know 100 Grand a year spending four or five
3:57 nights a week dancing in a club and and I think she started thinking wow it's a little silly to be spending so much time going to school when I could be spending all this time making money and saving it every single stripper or adult film star I've ever talked to who said they did it because of money when I you really scratched the surface there were 10 other sources of money there they could have tapped into but they didn't want to this one was much more gratifying Jessica began posing new for magazines one day on a shoot she asked the photographer about getting into adult movies I said you know I think I I could do porn it's just the Heat of the Moment I think the fans will like it and he says well I know just who you want to talk to I know this producer named Bud Lee out in California and I'll send your info to him and I called her and uh she
4:42 came out in early December of that year and started making some movies for me the move to LA also brought a name change when I met her she was Asia Carrera and that's what she wanted to be called all the time she never wanted to be called by her real name ever the reason I go by the name Asia Carrera is because the name Jessica reminds me of a little girl who ran away from home when Jessica became Asia Asia became a star Asia had a phenomenally Unique Look unlike any girl that had ever been in the business people wanted to pay to see me have sex on camera and I could make a good living off of it well damn I'm going to have sex for free anyway why not get paid for it they may enjoy it but there's always a price to be paid for this this this is not a road
5:28 that they would take to Financial independ if they could have written their own script Asia did write the script to one of her most successful films it was about a young lady who ran away who was pursuing music and wanted to be known for music I wrote it it was semi-autobiographical that was me playing the piano it was a very special movie to me a passion came from inside of her from her [Music] heart in February 1995 Asia and Bud made their personal relationship official we were in Las Vegas I asked her on the way over there why don't we get married she was in a pair of cut off combat boots and a Metallica t-shirt life with Bud was
6:14 everything you would imagine a porn star marriage to be think of all the crazy cliches you can think of and yeah it was an open marriage they were [Music] swinging the pairs separated after 3 years but stayed friends and business partners oh my God how many movies did a and I make together I don't know 75 80 she was my secret weapon Asia created a website to expand her fan base and sell her films directly to the public the money poured in but the Easy Cash didn't make up for low self-esteem she was depressed at times and she had reason to be there was there was crap back there behind her and sometimes it just was bigger and greater than what she could push away from herself Asia
7:01 distracted herself by trying to beat the odds I had a gambling addiction I had a problem I was extremely depressed Asia qu heading towards gambling is again using arousal as a way of managing primitive painful feelings every day was just like a nightmare I just didn't want to be alive I cried myself to sleep every night and I would sit there and do online gambling just to try to take my mind off of being [Music] lonely I dropped to my knees and I wrapped my arms around his legs and I said please don't go and he goes you're being traumatic and I said please don't go
