The Madman (HINDI/हिंदी में)

0:04 You ask how I became crazy? This is how it happened. A day long ago when many of the gods were not even born. I woke up from a deep sleep and found that all my face masks had been stolen. The seven fake faces I created and wore in my seven lives. I started screaming, running faceless down the crowded street. Thief thief bastard thief, women and men started laughing at me

0:49 and some ran away to their houses out of fear and when I reached the market a young boy standing on the roof shouted this guy is mad. I looked up at him. The sun touched my bare face for the first time. For the first time the sun touched my real face and my heart burned in love with the sun and I no longer needed my fake face. Like a magician I shouted thank you thank you to the thieves who took my face. This is how I became crazy.

1:36 And I found both freedom and security in my madness. The freedom of being alone and the security of not being understood. Because those who understand us, capture some of our things. But I'm not too proud of my safety. Even in jail, thieves remain safe from other thieves. [MUSIC] In olden days when the power of speech first came to my lips, I went up on the holy mountain and said to God, Lord, I am your servant. Your hidden wish is my law

2:24 and I will always obey you. But God did not say anything and went away like a strong storm. After a thousand years, I again climbed the holy mountain and said to God, O Creator, I am your creation. You created me from clay and I am your everything. God still did not say anything. But flew away like a thousand feathers. After a thousand years, I again climbed the mountain and said to God, Father, I am your son. You gave me birth with kindness and love and with love and worship

3:11 I will attain your kingdom. God still did not say anything. And went away like the mist lying on the distant mountains. After a thousand years, I again climbed the mountain and said to God, my God, my purpose and my whole life, I am your tomorrow and you are my tomorrow. I am your root in the ground and you are my flower in the sky and we both grow together before the sun. Then God bent down near me and whispered sweet words into my ear and just as the ocean absorbs the small river

3:59 within itself, similarly He absorbed me within Himself and when I came down from the mountains into the valleys and plains, God was there too. My friend, I am not what I appear to be. Pretense is just a garment that I wear. A cloth that protects me from your questions and you from my carelessness. The me inside me, my friend,

4:44 lives in the house of silence and will always remain there. Quietly far away. I don't want you to believe my words or believe my actions Because my words are just your thoughts in voice and my actions are your desires my friend When you say the wind is blowing towards the east I say yes it is blowing towards the east Because I don't want you to know that my mind is not on the wind but on the sea. My friend,

5:29 you cannot understand my thoughts about the ocean and I also do not want you to understand. I want to go to the sea alone. My friend, when it is day for you, my friend it is night for me. Still I talk of the sunshine that dances on the mountains or the purple shadow that comes into the valley, because you cannot hear my dark melody nor see my wings that are striking the stars, and I too do not want you to hear or see.

6:20 I want to be alone in the dark. My friend, when you ascend to your heaven, I descend to my hell. Then you call me my companion my friend and I call you my friend my companion because I don't want you to see my hell the fire will burn your eyes and the smoke will fill your nose my friend and I love my hell so much that I do n't want you there alas I want to be alone in hell. My

7:06 friend, you love truth, beauty and goodness. And for your happiness I say that it is good to love these things. My friend. But in my heart, I laugh at your love. But I don't want you to see me laughing. I want to laugh alone. My friend you are good. He is going to walk carefully. He is intelligent. Yes, you are absolutely right.

7:53 And I also talk to you carefully and intelligently. My friend. But I am crazy. But I hide my madness. I want to be crazy alone. My friend, you are not my friend. But how do I explain it to you? My friend. My way is not your way. Still we walk together, hand in hand. My friend [MUSIC] I once said to a Bijuka,

8:40 you stand alone in the field. I don't get tired. He said there is a deep pleasure in scaring someone. I never get tired. I thought about it and said it is right. I too have experienced this joy. He said that only those who are filled with straw inside can understand. Then I left from there. Couldn't understand. He complimented me or belittled me. A year passed. Bijuka now became a thinker. When I passed him again, I saw two

9:28 crows making a nest under his hat. In the city where I was born. There lived a woman and her daughter who walked in their sleep. One night when all was quiet. Mother and daughter were found sleepwalking in their misty garden. Mother said, at last my enemy, you have ruined my youth. I built my life

10:17 on my broken life. I wish I could kill you. The daughter said, “ Hey bad woman, selfish and old, you have come in the way of my freedom.” You want my life to also become like your old life, I wish you die. Just then the [ __ ] crowed. Both of them woke up. Mother said lovingly. Are you there, son? The daughter replied lovingly. Yes mother, one day a wise dog passed by some cats.

11:07 He sees the cats doing something. She was not paying any attention to him so he stopped. Then a big and serious cat stood up from among those cats and said, Brothers, pray and when you pray again and again without any doubt then surely there will be a rain of rats. When the dog heard this, he laughed in his heart and went away from there. Thinking, hey blind and stupid cats, is it not written like this and haven't I and my

11:54 ancestors seen that the rain that falls by prayer and faith is not of mice but of bones. [MUSIC] On a lonely hill lived two hermits who worshiped God and loved each other. He had only one earthen pot. That was his biggest thing.

12:40 One day, an evil ghost entered the heart of the great ascetic and said, it has been a long time since we have been living together. It is now time to separate. Let's share our things. The younger ascetic felt sad and said, Brother, I am sad that you are leaving. But if you want to go then it's okay. And brought an earthen pot. Seeing it the younger ascetic said, how should I distribute it brother you keep it. The great ascetic said, I will not beg. I just want my share. Utensils will have to be shared. The little

13:27 ascetic said, “ If you break the utensils, it will be of no use to you or me.” If you want, you can send a letter. The great ascetic then said, I only want humans. I just cannot leave my share to fate. Utensils will have to be shared. The little ascetic could not say anything. He said if you really want this brother then let's break the utensils. Then the elder Friar’s face darkened, and he screamed.

14:14 You are a coward. Why don’t you fight? There once was a man who had a valley full of sleep. One day Jesus' mother came to him and said, " Friend, my son's clothes are torn." Have to get it stitched before going to the temple. Will you give me a needle? But he did not give the needle. Rather, he explained to him a long discussion on giving and taking so that he could narrate it to his son before going to the temple.

15:10 The quietest time of the night when I was half asleep. My seven forms sat together and slowly began to talk. The first form is this crazy man I've lived in for years. During the day I renew his sorrow, and at night I create his grief again. Now I ca n't tolerate this. Now, I rebel. Second form: Brother, my condition is worse than yours. I have to become the happy version of this crazy person. I laugh at his laughter. I

15:58 sing about his happy moments. I dance with fast steps on his good thoughts. I am also tired of my life. I also rebel. Third stance And what am I, I am crazy in love, with fiery passion and strange desires, it is me who has gone mad, I too rebel in love. Fourth Form: I am the most unhappy among all of you. All I get is hatred and destruction. I am the embodiment of dark fire, born in the black caves of hell.

16:43 I'm tired of serving this madman. I also protest. I am not the fifth form, I am a thinker, a dreamer, a hungry and thirsty person who wanders in search of something that has not been created till date. I do n't you, not all of you, I really oppose it. Sixth form and I am a poor working labourer who gives a new picture to the day with my hands and desired eyes. I give new form to inanimate objects. I alone protest against this restless madman.

17:31 Seventh form. How strange it is that you all oppose this man because you all have your own destiny to fulfill. I wish I was like you, who has some work to do but I don't do anything. I just sit quietly in the empty space. When you are making life new. Tell me, should you protest or should I? When the seventh form said this, the other six forms looked at him with sadness but said nothing, and as the night grew darker, one by one everyone fell asleep embracing the new and lovely Maang,

18:24 but the seventh form remained awake looking at the empty space which was behind everything. One night there was a feast in the palace. A man came and bowed before the prince. Everyone was looking at him. They noticed he was missing one eye and blood was oozing from the empty space. The prince asked what happened to you? The man said, Prince, I am a thief and tonight there was no moon. I went to rob a gold shop and accidentally

19:11 entered a weaver's shop. I collided with his machine in the dark and my eye went out. Now I want justice from this weaver. Prince. [MUSIC] Then the prince called the weaver and it was decided that one of his eyes should be put out. The weaver said to the prince, the decision is correct. You can take one of my eyes but I need both eyes so that I can see both sides of the cloth. My neighbor cobbler also has two eyes. Both eyes are not required for his work. The

19:57 prince called the cobbler. One of his eyes was also taken out and now justice has been done. [MUSIC] A fox saw his reflection as the sun rose and said " I will eat a camel this afternoon." She kept searching for the camel the whole morning. As it was afternoon he saw the shadow again and said even a mouse would do.

20:44 In the distant city of Desolation there lived a king who was both powerful and wise. People were afraid of his power. Loved with understanding. There was a well in the middle of that city whose water was cool and clear. Which everybody used to drink. The king and his opportunities too because there was no other well. One night when everyone was sleeping a witch came and poured seven drops of something strange into the well and said that

21:30 from today onwards whoever drinks this water will go mad. In the morning everybody drank the water except the king and his officer and they all went mad. Just like the witch said. People kept talking about this all day long on the streets and in the markets. The king went mad. The king and his officer are not understanding. How can we accept a mad king ? We should remove him. In the evening the king asked for a golden cup. Drank full water from the well. He also made his officer drink and the whole city was filled with joy because the king and his officer had started understanding again.

22:30 Three men met at a liquor shop. One was a weaver, another was a woodcutter and the third was a ploughman. The weaver said, Today I sold a fine shroud. Two gold coins were found. Today I will drink as much alcohol as I want. The woodcutter said, " And I sold my best coffins. Today we will have a big feast with wine." The ploughman said, I just dug the grave but the owner gave me double the money. I will also eat sweets today. The shop was crowded the whole evening. Because

23:18 all three were repeatedly ordering liquor, meat and sweets. All three were very happy. The shop owner rubbed his hands and looked at his wife with a smile as the guests spent lavishly. When the three left, the moon was high in the sky and they were singing and shouting on the way. The shop owner and his wife stood at the door and watched them. Hey, the wife said these people are so open-hearted and cheerful. I wish it comes like this every day so that our son does n't have to work in the shop. I should have sent him to study.

24:05 He would become a priest. Last night I thought of a new fun and while I was enjoying it for the first time, an angel and a devil came running to my house. Both of them met at my door and started fighting over my new pleasure. One shouted, this is a crime. The second one said, "This is good work. [Music] Three days after I was born, I was lying in the silk cradle,

24:53 looking at the new world in wonder. My mother asked the nurse, "How is my baby?" The nurse said, "The baby is doing well, Madam." I have breastfed him three times. I have never seen such a small baby so happy. I got angry. I shouted. This is not true, mother. My cradle is hard. The milk tastes bitter. I am not happy at all. But my mother did not understand. Neither did the nurse. Because I was speaking the language of the world from which I came.

25:40 And when it was the 21st day of my life. I was being named. The priest said to my mother, Madam, you should be very happy that your son was born a Christian. I was surprised. I told the priest that then your mother will be sad in heaven because you were not born a Christian. But the priest also did not understand my language. One day, after 7 months, an astrologer came and saw me. He told my mother, your son will be a leader.

27:01 I shouted. He is lying. I will become a musician and nothing else. But even at that age no one understood my language and I was very surprised. And today after 33 years when my mother, milkmaid and priest all are dead. May their souls rest in peace. But the astrologer is still alive. And just yesterday I met him at the temple gate. While talking he said, "I always knew you would become a great musician. I had told you your future even in your childhood. And I accepted it because now I too had forgotten the language of that other world. Once upon a time I was living among the pomegranates. I heard a seed speak. One day I will become a big tree. The wind will sing in my branches. The sun will dance on my leaves and I will remain strong and beautiful in every season. Then the other seed said,

27:46 When I was as small as you, I also had similar dreams. But now I can weigh things and understand them. Now it seems my dreams were in vain. The third seed said, I do not see anything in us that shows such a great future. The fourth one said, but if there is no big future then our life will become a joke. The fifth one said, until we do not even know what we are, why fight about what we will become. The sixth one said, whatever we are, we will remain that. The

28:35 seventh one said, I can see everything so clearly as to how it will happen but I cannot tell. Then the eighth one spoke, then the ninth one spoke, the tenth one spoke and then many others started speaking. I couldn't recognise anyone's voice. And that is why that very day I left the pomegranate and went among the vines. There are less seeds there and almost everyone is silent. My father has two cages in his garden. One contains a lion that my father's servants

29:21 brought from the desert of Nanwa. The second one features a bird that doesn’t know how to sing. Every morning the bird calls the lion. Good morning prisoner brother. Three specks were found on the nose of a man who was sleeping in the sun. So everyone greeted each other according to their customs. Then she started talking again. The first ant said, "These hills and plains are the driest I have seen. I have not found any grain all day." The second ant

30:08 said, "I have not found anything either. Look everywhere. Perhaps this is what my people call soft shaking ground. Where nothing grows." The third ant raised its head and said, friends, we are currently standing on the nose of the supreme ant. That great and infinite ant whose body is so big that we cannot see it. Whose shadow is so long that we cannot trace it. Whose voice is so loud that we cannot hear and he is everywhere. When the third ant said this, the other two ants started laughing.

30:53 Then the man moved and in the dream raised his hand and scratched his nose and all three ants were crushed. One day when I was burying an old soul of mine. The gravedigger came and told me that I like you the most among the people who come to bury me here. I asked, I like you too. But why? He said everyone comes crying. They go away crying. So he comes laughing. He goes away laughing.

31:50 Yesterday evening I saw a woman on the white steps of the temple. Who was sitting between two men. One of his faces was pale. The other one was turning red. When I was young I was told that there was a city where everyone believed in religion. I thought I would find that city and see its joy. That city was far away. I set out after much preparation. After 40 days I saw the city. On the 41st

32:38 day I went inside and saw that all the people there had only one eye and one hand. I was surprised and wondered whether the people of such a holy city have only one eye and one hand? Then I saw that those people were also looking at me with surprise because I had two eyes and two hands. While they were talking among themselves I asked, is this the blessed city where everyone follows religion ? He said yes this

33:24 is the same city. I asked what happened to you? Where is your right eye and hand ? Everyone became sad. He said, come let me show you. He took me to the temple in the middle of the city. Inside the temple I saw a pile of eyes and hands. All are dry. I said, hey, which winner did such injustice to you ? There was some light conversation among all. An old man came forward and said, we have done all this ourselves. God has given us victory over the evil within us.

34:12 Then he took me to a high platform. Everybody followed behind. He showed me something written on a stone. I read it. If your right eye tells you to commit a sin, then take it out and throw it out because it is better that one part of you goes to hell than the whole body goes to hell. And if your right hand tells you to commit a sin, then cut it off and throw it out. It is better that a part of you goes away than that your whole body goes to hell. Then I understood

34:57 and I turned towards everyone and said loudly, is there any man or woman here who has two hands or two eyes? He replied no, not even one. Only those children are complete who cannot read about religion yet. And when we came out of the temple I immediately left that blessed city because I was not small and I could read the religious matter. The

35:43 good god and the bad god met on the top of the mountain. The good Lord said hello brother. The Bad God kept quiet. The good Lord said you look sad today. Bad God said yes because nowadays people think of me as you. They call me by your name. You treat me like you do. I don't like it at all. The good God said, "People mistake me for you and call me by your name." The bad God went away in anger. He kept saying how stupid humans are.

36:31 [Music] Defeat, my defeat, my loneliness and my solitude. You are dearer to me than a thousand victories. And sweeter to my heart than the honor of the whole world. Defeat, my defeat, my truth and my stubbornness. Because of you I came to know that I am still young. I can run fast and

37:18 not get stuck in old flowers. And in you I found loneliness. And also the happiness that people may not like me or understand me. Defeat, my defeat, my shining sword and shield. In your eyes I have read that to rule means to become a slave. To be understood means to become the same. And to be caught means to reach your fullest. And then to fall like a ripe fruit and end.

38:05 Defeat, my defeat, my courageous companion, you will hear my songs, my screams, my silence and only you will be able to tell me the sound of wings, the sea waves and the burning mountains at night and only you will be able to tell me my difficult life. The stony soul can be climbed Defeat me Defeat my immortal courage You and I will laugh together with the storm And together we will dig the grave for everything that

38:51 died in us And we will stand strong in the open sun And we will be dangerous Defeat me Defeat me I am like you. The night, black and naked. I walk the burning path That is above my daydreams. And every time my foot touches the ground, a great peepal tree grows. No. You are not like me O crazy because you still look back at

39:39 how great a mark you are leaving on the soil. I am just like you. O night, silent and deep. In the heart of my loneliness a goddess is giving birth to a child. And in what is being born heaven and hell meet. No you are not like me O crazy because you still tremble with pain and the song of the depths frightens you. I am just like you. O night, wild and terrifying. My ears are filled with the screams of conquered nations

40:27 and the tears of forgotten lands. No you are not like me O crazy because you still look back at your own

42:18 The small one considers you a friend and the big one like his wolf cannot befriend you I am just like you that night is harsh and scary In my chest there is the light of the boats burning in the sea and my lips are wet with the blood of fallen warriors. No, you are not like me that crazy one Because you still long for a companion and you are not yet alone in yourself. I am just like you. Oh night happy and cheerful. The one who is my shadow, is now drunk with new wine. And the one who follows me, is committing sins by laughing. No, you are not like me. Oh crazy one Because your soul is still wrapped in seven layers and you do not hold your heart in your hand. I am just like you. And the night is patient and passionate In my chest thousands of dead lovers lie wrapped in a sheet of old kisses. Yes crazy one. Are you like me? Are you like me? Can you ride the storm like a horse? And can you hold the lightning like a sword? I am like you that night, strong and high like you My throne is built on the heap of those fallen gods. Days also come in front of me. They kiss my clothes but never see my face. Are you like me? Child of my heart of darkness. Yes, we both are twin brothers. Ho night. I saw a face which had a thousand faces and I saw a face which was just one face. As if cast in a mould. I saw a face whose shine I saw and

43:05 reached the ugliness below. And I saw a face whose real beauty was visible when I removed the shine. I saw an old face which had nothing and I saw a smooth face in which everything was written. I know faces because I can see the real by crossing the net made by my eyes. My soul and I went to bathe in the big ocean. When we reached the shore, we started looking for a hidden and lonely

43:51 place. But while walking, we saw a man sitting on a brown stone taking a pinch of salt and throwing it in the ocean. He is a whimsical person. My soul said, let's go from here. We cannot bathe here. When we moved forward, we saw a small place. There a man was standing on a white stone. He was pouring sugar from a shining box into the sea. This is the one with hope. My soul said, and even this one cannot see us naked. We moved further ahead. On the

44:36 seashore, a man was picking up dead fish and putting them back in the water lovingly. We cannot bathe in front of him either. My soul said, "This is a kind person." We moved ahead. Then I saw a man making his shadow on the sand. I used to erase that shadow by waving it. But he kept making it again. This is spiritual. My soul said, let's leave this one too. And we moved ahead. In a quiet place, I saw a man picking up sea foam and filling it in a white bowl.

45:24 [Music] This is the one with dreams. My soul said, even in front of this one we cannot show our naked soul. Still we moved ahead. Suddenly a voice came. This is the sea. This is a deep sea. This is a big and powerful sea. When we reached near the voice, we saw the man standing with his back towards the sea and putting a glass to his ear and listening to the voice. My soul said, let's go, this is the one who sees only a piece of the whole sea after turning his back.

46:09 And we went further. There was a man between the stones and grass. His head was buried in the sand. I said to my soul, we can bathe here. He cannot see us. My soul said, this is the most dangerous. He is the one who sees the truth. Then my soul's face became sad. The voice also became sad. Let's go from here. She said, there is no hidden place anywhere where we can bathe. I don't want this wind to blow my hair. Neither should I show my moon-like chest in this wind nor should this light bring my real naked soul in

46:57 front of everyone. Then we left that sea and went to search for bigger seas. I shouted to the people, crucify me. And the people said, why is your blood on our head? I replied, you rise only after crucifying mad people. Then they listened to me and crucified me and I got relief. And when I was hanging between the ground and the sky,

47:43 they raised their heads and looked at me and they

49:32 They were happy because for the first time they had raised their heads. But when they were looking at me, one of them said, for which mistake do you want forgiveness? The second one said, for what work are you giving up your life? The third one said, do you want to buy the glory of the world by enduring this pain? Then the fourth one said, look how he is smiling. Can so much pain be forgiven? I answered everyone together. Just remember that I smiled. Neither did I apologize, nor did I give my life, nor do I want fame. I don't want to forgive anything. I was thirsty and I asked for your blood from you. The thirst of a madman is quenched only by his own blood. I was silent so I asked for wounds from you so that my wounds could speak. I was imprisoned in your day and night so I searched for the big sky. And now I am leaving. Just like the rest of the crucified people had gone. Don't think that we are tired of crucifixion. We have to be crucified with more big people and between the big earth and the big sky. In the shadow of the temple, my friend and I saw a blind man sitting alone. My friend said, look this He is the wisest man in our country. Then I left my friend and went to the blind man and talked to him. After a while I asked, don't mind, but since when are you blind? He said since birth. I asked, which path of knowledge do you choose? He said I am a knower of stars. Then he put his hand on his chest and said I see all these suns, moons and stars.

50:21 Here I am sitting between my brother, mountain and sister ocean. We three are one in loneliness. And the love that connects us is deep, strong and strange. No, it is deeper than my sister's water. Stronger than my brother's strength. And better than my madness. So many centuries have passed since we saw each other after the first fog and we have seen many worlds born, growing and dying

51:07 but we are still young and restless. We are young, restless. But till now no one has made a connection with us. No one has come to meet us and we are lying in a half circle. Still our heart is not satisfied. And what consolation is there in the suppressed desires and unfulfilled wishes

53:20 Of love. From where will the god of fire come? To warm my sister's bed. Which wave of water will extinguish my brother's fire? Which woman will win my heart? In the silence of the night, my sister sleeps and calls the name of the god of fire. My brother calls out to the distant cold goddess. But I don't even know whom do I call. The grass leaf said to the autumn leaf, you make so much noise while falling. You break all my winter dreams. The autumn leaf said angrily, you of low birth, you live below, without voice, without song, you never live in the air, so how would you know the color of sound. Then the autumn leaf slept on the ground. When spring came, he woke up again and he himself had become a leaf of grass. Then when autumn came again. His winter sleep came and leaves were falling from above him in the air. So he said to himself, oh these autumn leaves make so much noise. You break all my winter dreams. One day the eye said, I see a mountain ahead of those valleys which are hidden in the blue mist. How beautiful it is, isn't it? The ear listened carefully and then said, "But where is the mountain? I cannot hear anything." The hand said, " I am trying to feel and touch it, but I cannot find any mountain." The snake said, "There is no mountain, I cannot smell it." Then the eye turned its face away and everyone together started talking about the strange thinking of the eye and said, "It seems there is something wrong with the eye itself."

54:13 In the old city of Afkar, there lived two wise men who hated each other's understanding. They considered each other to be inferior. One did not believe in God. The other had full faith. One day both of them met in the market and started fighting and arguing on this matter, whether God exists among his disciples or not. They argued for hours. Then both of them separated. That evening, the one who did not believe in God went to the temple. He bowed down at the altar and

54:58 started asking God for forgiveness for his evil ways. And at the same time, the other wise man who was on God's side , burned his holy books because now he too had become a non-believer. When my grief was born, I took care of it. I took care of it with love. My grief also grew strong like all living things. Beautiful It brought a strange happiness. Both of us, me and my sorrow, loved each other

55:44 and loved the world too because the heart of sorrow was soft and my heart also became soft with him. When me and my sorrow talked, our days would fly away with wings and our nights would be full of dreams. Because the language of sorrow was sweet and my language too had become sweet with sorrow. When both of us sang, my sorrow and I, the neighbours would sit at the window and listen because our songs were as deep as the ocean and our tune had the colour of old memories.

56:32 When me and my sorrow would walk together, people would look at us with loving eyes and talk softly, some people would even get jealous of us because sorrow was a big thing and I was proud of my sorrow. But my sorrow died. Like all living things die. And now I am left alone. Just to think and remember. Now when I speak, my words sound heavy on my own ears. Now when I sing, my neighbours do not come to listen.

57:19 Now when I walk in the streets, no one even looks at me. Only in dreams can I hear the voice. See, this is the same man whose sorrow has died. And when my happiness was born I held it in my arms. I stood on the roof and shouted. Come neighbors, look, today happiness was born in my house. Come see this laughing thing in the sun. But no neighbor came to see my happiness. I was

58:04 very surprised. And every day for seven months I kept calling my happiness from the roof. But no one listened to me. I and my happiness remained alone. No one came to see me. Then my happiness turned pale. Got tired because only I felt its beauty. No one else. Then my happiness died of loneliness. Now I remember my dead happiness only when I remember my dead sorrow. But either is just an autumn leaf which

58:51 makes noise in the wind for a while and then becomes silent. God of the forgotten people, you are also wandering among the gods. Listen to me, kind fate who keeps an eye on us crazy wandering souls. Listen to me. I live among a race that is absolutely perfect. But I am the most incomplete. I am a human being who is shattered from within. Everything is confusing. I walk among the complete people. Such

59:38 people whose laws are complete. Whose life consists of only cleanliness and action. Whose thoughts are locked in different boxes. Whose dreams are lined up. Whose thoughts are very few. Their goodness is weighed by God. Their sins are kept on the scale. And everything that is neither good nor sin is also recorded by God. Here, even day and night are divided according to work. Everything runs according to rules. Eating, drinking, sleeping, covering your body and then getting tired when the time comes.

1:00:26 Working, playing, singing, dancing and then becoming silent as soon as the clock rings. Thinking is enough, feeling is enough. And then stopping thinking and feeling as soon as a new star appears. Stealing from the neighbor with a smile, giving a gift by waving the hand. Praising with understanding, speaking ill carefully, ending someone's voice by speaking a word, burning someone's life with a single breath. And then washing hands after the day's work.

1:01:15 Loving is also done according to rules. Showing the good person inside you in a prepared manner. Worshipping God in a straightforward manner Talking smartly even to the devils and then forgetting everything as if the memory itself has died. Seeing dreams with a purpose Thinking and being happy after thinking Bearing sweet sorrows calmly and then emptying the cup so that it can be filled again tomorrow All this Oh God Made with thought and understanding Born with a purpose Raised with utmost care Moved with wisdom

1:02:00 and then destroyed in a systematic way And all this that is silently buried inside, they too have a mark They too are counted This is a perfect world The best, the most amazing God The ripest fruit of God's garden The biggest thought of the world But why am I here Oh God I am the green seed of an unfulfilled desire A crazy storm That sees neither east nor west A stray piece of a burnt world Why am I here Oh God of the forgotten people You who are

1:02:47 lost in the gods. Why am I here?