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2:12 [Music] hi hi hi what the heck do I say after dropping that kind of freaking announcement on you hi [Music] hi hi everybody hi how are you that also feels like I shouldn't ask that i don't know maybe maybe maybe maybe you are doing doing all right i hope you're doing okay i hope you are doing okay please oh it just it feels awkward okay i don't know what to say i've been It's not like I've been totally steaming my brains
2:58 trying to think about how I'm like what do I say what do What do you say after some something like that um hi okay uh thank you guys for your Wait let me wait stop wait stop let me gather my thoughts hold on um I want to say before before everything I want to say uh thank you and hello and and hi hi Mume hi Mume hello hello hello hello
3:45 everybody thank you Mume um thank you and speaking of Mume Mume and I we're gonna do um we're gonna do a room review which should be exciting we're going to look at your rooms which we we've done before we've done this before uh and it was so much fun i don't think I've laughed that hard on a stream or it was before the stream it was before the stream when we were setting up for the first room review i don't I think it was the bunk was it bunk beds somebody What was it we were we were going over the images that we were gonna share with you guys on stream that you know you send in and I remember we got on to one somebody's room it was either like a dorm room or with a maybe
4:31 somebody had a bunk bed um but one of us said something and I just I remember I have not laughed that hard i don't think I've even laughed that hard ever like in a very long time it was so good i don't remember what it was it was I don't know one of those good ones good ugly laugh laugh so hard that it's not comes out kind of thing ew boogers but we're going to be doing another room review i think it's tomorrow i think it's tomorrow uh I'll tweet about it after this uh stream it's It's crazy it's crazy go go go go go time now it is it is i I amum
5:20 The roller coaster is at a uh uh direct direct downward now for full speed ahead so woohoo yay um uh um um um I want to say thank you guys for your understanding of my decision to leave the company sorry whiplash going back to the other topic now i I I want to talk about that i want to say thank you for
6:08 your insane support the I didn't know what I didn't know what to I I didn't I still don't know what to say i still don't know i It's one of those what me just saying thank you doesn't feel like enough it's one of It's one of those scenarios that is so frustrating um but I do I want to say thank you i want to thank you so much thank you for your for your for your love and your all of the all of the even more fan arts that you've created since then and all of your kind words and everything thank you so
6:55 much i But I also want to say I am sorry i'm sorry cuz I I've seen quite a few people feel I think they I'm sure there are people that are unhappy with me i mean I've seen people that are unhappy with me and I'm and I'm I'm sorry um but I hope I How do I say this oh god oh god i [Music] I All I can say is is
7:41 that Oh [Music] I I don't know what do you say to that i feel like the only thing I can really say is that optimism for the for the future oh god that doesn't that doesn't feel like the right thing to say all I can say is I'm sorry thank you i'm so I'm sorry thank you let's have fun while we still can together as we are here and then
8:26 whatever happens in the future I hope I'm sure more fun will happen whether it's here at Hol live minus one shark or you know wherever I whatever I'm doing wherever I am doing god knows what there's going to be a shark loose on the internet everybody run for your lives oh uh and the good news the good news today is that um I I've also got an announcement today of a good kind it I worded it it's the way I worded it makes it sound pretty sad i apologize um
9:13 but it is what it is this is my final project here um in the company it wasn't supposed to be but the way this turned out it'll make sense when you know what it is the way that this ended up turning out is beautifully heartbreaking i don't know how to explain it oh I'm not really sure how to explain it but it will make sense um and I will announce that at approximately the half hour mark so if you are if you're not wanting to hear me blah blah blah blah blah blah blah about whatever then that's when and I got I got to figure
10:00 out I got to figure out how to handle it too cuz I'm a oneman show right now i'm the whole circus here i am the entire circus here for you tonight um so I apologize for my extra extra scatter brain it's a bit It's a bit much um in the meantime though if you want to if there's any if there's any questions I can answer I can't answer there's going to be quite a few questions that I'm sure I cannot answer for you um but but thing things like I don't know if you have anything maybe about I I don't know I don't know about that oh wait there's
10:46 one other thing I wanted to mention i I want to hopefully I can do this i want to put together a compilation of all of the random clips that I have on this PC that I've collected over the years cuz I have so many clips it's like my own personal maybe not even a blooper reel but like unreleased anytime I hit start recording or any like anything like that i thought it'd be fun to like put that together and put it on a put it in a little video i don't know how long it'll be or it could be really short i was looking through it and there's one of all of us the myth girls i'll ask them if I can put it in and then there's quite a few clips of me me starting the stream going
11:35 uh past test past hello audio or something like that i don't know just something silly silly silly yeah something to live to live on the channel forever yeah meow meow meow what did I eat today i actually I felt really bad today um had a bit of a tummy ache all day just one of those days the body knew the body knew that um the body knew that I I was going I was going to uh something was coming
12:23 this stream this stream it was probably anxiety that's probably what it was that's what I'm saying it was anxiety anxious tummy no but um I've been eating uh candy i'm sure that doesn't help the situation of me feeling like utter garbage ooh Easter chocolates sure don't mind me just one of those days hits the guitar riff exactly exactly correct um uh I you know what i'm going to be straight up and say that I don't know what's going to happen with uh
13:09 member member content on this channel i'm going to have to ask you and get back to you on that cuz I I don't know i don't know what I do know is that um all of the regular VODs will be available on this channel um but the comments should be shut off so all of the comments will be locked turned off no longer accepting submissions so they are as they are frozen exactly frozen in time they
13:55 will be frozen in time forever um that's just due to a uh moderation thing frozen and carbonite what is carbonite is carbonite one of those things that has 20 billion calories the thing has more calories than the surface of your iPhone or a piece of carbonite which one is it oh that's uranium oh that's uranium uranium has what is it 20 billion per lick that's what Han Solo is stuck in oh
14:41 Star Wars i've not seen I've only seen I think I've only seen one Star Wars i saw the first one i've only seen the first Star Wars please don't be mad go no yes we're going to miss you i'm I'm going to miss you too but I'm The ocean is big yes i'm sure I'm sure we'll cross currents again someday it's big we don't know what's down there in the ocean we have no idea
15:42 i'm sorry I'm reading what you guys are saying um [Music] How long have I Oh it's for Yeah can I answer that i think so um how long have I known i about leaving um I mentioned it was a long time coming which it was it I don't know if I want to answer that i don't know it it's been a It's been a
16:27 long time it's been a very long time um [Music] yeah it's been a very long time and it's been it's been hard not to speak about it i don't know cuz you guys would ask me "Hey girl how are you?" And it's you know it's okay but in the background I knew not only did I know about me but I knew about you know the others that wanted to leave and it was I was just like God this is getting really this sucks this really sucks having to come on here and and say "Everything's fine
17:15 guys it's good." When it was not okay everything's okay everything was not okay everything it was not It was It It sucked um but now now I do I have I do I was laying in bed the other night with this i don't know if it feels right to say a sense of peace but it kind of did because I it was like okay everybody everybody knows now they know i don't have to I don't have to hide it anymore you know like they know they know now they they know like all of the the weight the
18:01 steam just out of me which it felt very nice the weight off my shoulders exactly yeah [Music] a sense of a sense of relief that the the ele the elephant in the room that only I could see was no longer in the room well yeah there's there's so much there's so much that I want to do i doubt I'll have time to do it all i want to I want to do some collabs i've gotten a lot of uh messages from other members that I have
18:46 to respond to still uh there's I don't know i just part of me wants to do everything like oh everybody's playing Rust now oh no my kryptonite my my rust my holo live rust oh no but if I start playing Rust I'm not going to get anything else done i have so much I have to do uh still up until up until the day I want to return i want to big fish wants to return so bad i want to play so bad but I just know that I was just I just I there's collabs I want to do there's group events that I want to join i mean
19:32 there's not many I can join it's pretty much only a Rust at this point but I also don't want to I don't want to overwhelm myself so so much because I also want to take things easy take things slow I guess take it take it nice and easy take it slow cuz I get I get so overwhelmed so easily 128 hour mega stream [Music] um I don't know if I have the the mental fortitude for that [Music] stamina that would be a lot of I don't have to take a lot of breaks how many days is 128 hours is that a
20:18 week is that how many hours I have left i have 128 hours left your time begins now fine 127 hours whatever oh cool you have 128 hours and 30 seconds until I until I self-destruct no that's that's messed up that's messed up i won't self-destruct no worries i want to do a karaoke within this time i haven't done one in a very long time but I would like to do a a singing stream i want to bust out the ukulele i want to do some of my favorite
21:04 songs ever i have a couple songs that I've learned that I want to do man do I have any immediate plans after graduating i'm I'm going to I'm going to eat a lot of strawberries i'm gonna I'm gonna Yeah I'm going to cry a lot i've already cried a lot but I'm sure I'm going to cry a whole lot more uh I am going to lean heavily on my the the the friends that I've met here
21:50 [Music] um it'll be really weird to not be able to talk to you guys anymore um uh but am I going to open a bakery finally oh I don't know i don't know i feel like my product wouldn't be good enough i don't think my product would be very good gardening baking it's true it's It's spring spring spring spring time for my hydrangeas to come back spring spring
22:39 spring am I going to go back to school to learn math you know what that wouldn't be a bad idea that wouldn't be a bad idea girl girl goes back to school back back to school i just have to explain what uh do what I have to explain what what I've been doing to the school do you have to do this oh god I'm so a nice little a little a little vacation trip would be nice it would be nice uh I don't know where I would go though i don't know where I would go like
23:24 u I don't want to go to a beach vacation i don't like the beach necessarily you need to find three and four the Grand Canyon would be so cool to see i've never seen the Grand Canyon it would be cool come to Massachusetts h what's in Massachusetts i thought the the Conjuring House was in Massachusetts but it turns out it's in Rhode Island i thought "Oh well okay they can have something I guess." Rhode Island little Rhode Island it's on like right the edge it's on the edge of Rhode Island right in Massachusetts they touch each other correct the conjuring
24:11 house see the Alamo the Almo what is that what What other things are nice to see i want to see some mountains show me some some [Music] mountains volcanoes no thank you oh no thank you i'm scared of volcanoes volcanoes kind of scare me uh Mount St helens oh yeah isn't there Wyoming has mountains correct
24:57 i've seen Mount Fuji somehow Mount Fuji is cute i don't know how they did it but Mount Fuji is very cute also a lot bigger than I thought or bigger than I expected fujian girl come to Atlantis oh I'm going to Atlantis i'm going to Atlantis no birthday stream no birthday stream no but you can have cake on my behalf if you would like no birthday stream
25:46 no should I play Minecraft i have a really strong I really want to play this has nothing to do with me graduating but I really want to play Mortuary's assistant please don't get it twisted like I just want to play that game cuz it's it's fun i just want to play that maybe I'll squeeze that in just cuz I want to do it it feels like it's messed up to play it but it there's no relation please there's Please i just that's I just want to play it a scary game cuz that's maybe it's because that's what I started playing and now I came into this world playing scary games i'm going to go out
26:33 playing scary games yeah Minecraft could be fun maybe I'll do one one Rust [Music] maybe maybe but don't expect it because I will play too much and it will I've got too too too much to do [Music] minecraft can we still say chicken jockey or is that has that lived it life already rust is a dangerous rabbit hole i was watching play earlier and the sounds took me back i was like "Oh and the money I spent on that game the little things the marketplace that I
27:20 all the little items that I got for my my favorite whole arrest moment that I was a part of was the the Pepe i was neighbors with uh PCOS and B and we could just see each other like we ever our house is just loaded in in the distance so I put up a sign i drew i drew a sign and it said "Pe." And then she drew a sign it was fun i had fun that was fun you play Street Fighter i've never played Street Fighter i have never played Street Fighter but yeah
28:13 okay I want to talk about the new the new project right right on the dot cuz I'm looking at it right now and it's I'm going to end up I got to talk about it i just got to talk about it um okay so the the final project uh has been a long time it's been another thing that I haven't been able to speak of uh for a long time but it it started out it started out as a I mean it still is but it started as a um I'm going to ask if I can do this i
29:00 doubt it will ever be approved like I doubt it will happen but it would be a dream come true and then it happened and it kind of altered my brain chemistry in the best way [Music] possible and got me through a lot of stuff so my final project it is a song it is one song um but I
29:45 have never put my I have never put my heart on the internet like this if that makes sense i'm not going to cry it might sound like I'm going to cry but I'm not going to cry i promise i'm not going to cry i'm going to get choked up every now and then but I'm not going to cry uh so I have I have an original song coming out in half an hour and I am incredibly proud of this project i am The team involved
30:32 uh was is is and was and will forever be my dream team everybody involved is a dream come true to work with um I thought about this moment for so long and now I don't know what to say oh oh dear help somebody help her somebody get online and help this shark nintendo i'm kidding uh so I had the great honor to uh work together to create a song with
31:18 uh none other than [Music] uh Casey Edwards casey Edwards i wanted to um Casey Edwards I Okay wrote "Wait wait wait wait okay Casey Edwards a lot of you probably know that name from uh working on the Devil May Cry uh game soundtrack Devil May Cry 5 Bury the Light yeah devil trigger
32:03 stop um I wanted to reach out and say like this would be really cool is this possible not expecting it ever to happen but it did and I I it's I I [Music] uh I will I will return to this in a moment but I also wanted to say that it's a fully animated music video as well animated
32:50 by none other Then another name you may recognize especially if you are a Holo Life fan um the the video the music video is fully animated by Ma Ma who is a powerhouse ma animated the myth Bad End yeah this is my dream team i'm so I'm so I am so happy i'm so happy yes Ma and his very small team fully animated this music video uh and
33:36 it is I it is I just I I I And now that you know I'm going to go ahead and should I I don't even know if I should premiere it i think I'm just going to schedule it yes i hope you guys are excited i'm so happy that you finally can know about this i'm so It's very so [Music] so how long has this been
34:22 cooking over a year over a year maybe a year and a half or maybe two i'm not sure it's been a very long time incredibly long time uh I think yeah it's been a long time but you know what do you know what good things come good things happen if we are patient good things come oh god I should have scheduled this beforehand i don't know how to do this now [Music]
35:14 bum bum bum bum bum bum bum don't you mean every good thing comes to an end well that's one way to put it but then I can also hit you with the when one good thing comes to an end another good thing will start what is it when one door closes another door opens good things come to an end but that doesn't mean that good things come to an end forever you know the world is vast there are always good things going on somewhere in the
36:00 world always always always always i should have done this before you know what maybe I'll just make it public now i don't I don't want to I don't want to deal with this set as premiere do this do that public post it jarvis post the video do it live i'll probably just do a live and then I will send you guys over there when the time when the time has come when the time is the
36:48 time ah oh I can show you a still wait that's what I can do check this out here's a little teaser to wet your whistle here's a little teaser this might be massive i don't really know spoiler spoiler garura yes [Music] um but this is a very emotional piece
37:36 for for me um um this [Music] song I How do I say this i It makes me ugly cry oh this song makes me cry um it does it's not necessarily sad did I say it was sad i don't think it's sad it's just it's it's the whole sandwich that the song is it's the the story that it tells the people that worked on
38:23 it and the fact that it's now like the the final thing my final project is a project with Casey Edwards and Moss are you kidding me dude you know what I mean working with Casey was awesome it was so It was so awesome he listened to my story
39:09 listen he listened to everything I had to say quick little trauma dumping in the Discord um in the meetings trauma dump meetings um and he took everything that I said and and turned it into turn turned it into a piece of music that is so meaningful to me uh and so powerful that I
40:00 [Music] I can't really think of a better person to have to have done to to like I can't think of I I just I'm I'm a bit speechless I guess is what I can say uh Casey took the the storm that was in my head and in my heart yeah and just turned it [Music] into a a piece of music [Music] that I will cherish for the very rest of
40:47 my life yeah this song was very hard to sing an extreme emotional battle with myself every time every time that every time it came time to work on the song whether you know vocals or uh meetings about lyrics or or anything like that I had to like prepare myself mentally because I was like "Okay I'm going to
41:35 cry i'm going to cry in front of staff members and also somebody who I think is really cool which is really embarrassing but here we go [Music] haha it's in English this is an English song uh yeah written and produced by Casey Edwards this song is a piece of my soul that I get to leave with all of you forever thanks to Casey and Ma of course Ma and his
42:26 team they are both masters of their craft and I am just speechless yeah um it's also thanks to you all of you because I wouldn't have been able to do any of this ever if it weren't for each and every one of you so again thank you
43:12 so much for for everything for everything thank you thank you always thank you forever thank you yeah [Music] i don't know what else to say it's that peace again here it comes
43:58 the the Zen moment they know they know now they know they know about the They know about the the project they know Oh I should tell you the name oh my god okay before I send you over before I upload it and send it over uh send you over to it uh I want to say uh the same the song I am the fish that is approaching nope uh it's it's it's called Ash again yeah and I feel like now I just I just want you to go listen to
44:44 it okay I'm going to upload it right here right now right here right now well it's been a while since I did this well how do I do this again girl blink twice if you need help of course the it doesn't it doesn't it's not hopefully it did but it didn't oh is it it did okay public publish wait i don't have time to go back and relook at everything and make sure everything is perfect and not you know ah okay
45:44 oh boy okay um let me just fix one more thing it should be up now go ahead and if you would like give it a watch or I will end the stream and I will send you guys over to it right meow right right meow right meow wait can I not do that it's alive i can't never mind can't do it can you
46:32 redirect to a to a video maybe you can't do that maybe that's why I should have done it oh well I don't think you can okay I'll just post it here for you guys here you go i'm going to make a tweet about it nah it's it's I didn't do a premiere i didn't want to deal with that ah no no don't want to deal it's up it's up please go and enjoy thank you thank you guys please [Music] enjoy holy moly that disappeared so fast thank you so much for your support i hope you enjoyed uh the song i'm sure
47:18 I will I will think I will come back here and I will talk about it again in more detail when I've gathered my thoughts and I'm not going 100 miles an hour in my head i'm sorry this stream was so short but I can't form I can't form a coherent thought right now um please go enjoy thank you again so much for your for your support um holy moly that is a fast chat thank you guys i mean I I'll be I'll be back you'll see me so soon don't worry please don't worry don't worry i'll be back thank you so much i'm a mess i I'm sorry i I go okay thank you guys so much and enjoy and and have a nice and a good end all
48:04 and Okay thank you so much i I Okay okay i'll see you in a bit i'll see you i'll see you i'll see you bye-bye bye-bye enjoy enjoy [Music]
