0:00 You have done so many things that may not happen to you. You may be lost to the point of extinction. You may be lost while working and then return home. You were in deep sorrow. In Meles, so many people were killed and many people expressed their grief. Your mother died. We are your spirit. It is your faith that saved you in that time. You're shocked, I'm so shocked. At some point, it felt like I was standing alone in the middle of a deserted field, completely empty, and nothing was happening. I felt like I was being led in this or that direction by someone.
0:46 Some people just keep going with what they have in front of them, and some people look at things from different angles. [Music] Hello, dear viewers, this is our weekly program called Photo and Game. As you can see, today's guest is Dawit Alemayehu, a singer who spends time with me outside of the game, taking photos. How are you? Thank God. We brought you a macchiato, okay? I think he's the only one who started with a macchiato from the guests, right? Yes, you
1:32 have a record. Macchiato. Now, when someone meets you on the street, they ask you to invite them for a macchiato. Are you addicted to macchiato or are you invited because of a chance? No, I'm not addicted to coffee. Even though it's very good, I'm happy without drinking it. Coffee, coffee, okay. Yes, there's no other addiction besides that. I have to do some things [laughs] I don't have to do some things. I had a crush on these before. Now it
2:22 's not the same addiction. Did I stop him? Yes, why? What can I do? It's not as smooth as I used to be. I haven't used it much. It's because I don't drink coffee before, by the way. I didn't drink coffee for 30 years, so I had a lot of it. Have you recently started drinking coffee? I was in the third grade, I stopped at some point and after a while I went back to it. I was like, "How much do you drink? I was addicted. When you said, 'I'm
3:08 addicted,' how much do you drink a day? Or do you use it when you're working? It was very much like that before. First, Koch said, "I'm used to drinking coffee." I'm used to drinking coffee. I'm used to drinking coffee. I'm used to drinking coffee. I'm used to drinking coffee. I'm used to listening to music, whatever. The studio is nothing. This experience in the studio was new to me. I had to stay there for a long time at night. I didn't use anything else. I was drinking coffee before I drank it. Before I drank it well, yes, it's a little heavy. It's not good. It's not something I recommend. Yes, I was drinking it. I remember it's a very strong thing. I was drinking coffee and I was drinking it. When I said, "Be prepared so that you don't fall down,"
3:56 there are people who know the line. It was 14 cups a day. It's true. Maryam. Yes, I've never heard of it. Here I am. Our cinematographer is watching you here, Fawad, he has coffee in Permuz, now yes, and I'll tell you, you're drinking a lot of coffee, he's Basque, but now it's the same, no, it's not like that, before, it was good enough, to the point of being addictive. If I didn't have work that day, I thought I was going to get coffee and I thought he had told me about another place, Kingston, Kingston, okay, and he was very bored and he said, "Okay, there's coffee, okay, there's
4:43 coffee, it's a place, I'll wait, because it's known before, because it's known, yes, he was very angry, he himself said, "You go in a hurry, but you drink 14 and you drink something." And I was so addicted that I stopped at that time. At some point, I thought it would be many years before I could stop. After many years, now that I've returned from a year away, it's started again. Now, how can you be seven, even if you're not fourteen? I don't even know what to do there. Yes, no, just three or four if you can guess. Yes, our viewers, we
5:30 started the game with a soft start. We're holding a latte, it looks like my own lens, so we know it doesn't look like coffee, so we're going to make it our Cuban. I'll hold it for you, just give it to him, and don't tell me how you're not drinking it. So we spend time together, playing and taking pictures . Dave, as usual, we'll be chatting on this program, and I'll ask questions. If there is a question you don't want to ask, you can say, "God forbid," and you can answer what you want. We'll spend some time together playing. You are so famous, I am surprised that we are performing together. Oh, David, my dear singer. If only your name had been mentioned, I would have
6:20 performed together when we traveled together. I am friends with many famous people. Many of us may not remember many people. But you can't ignore it. Many people were saying David, David. Now, for example, yesterday we were doing a walk. Many people know you. Did he stop you on the road or tell me about him? Yes, it's very difficult to talk about such things. But what do you mean? Yes, thank God. It 's He who gives the grace. To tell the truth, it's not something you can bring with your strength. It's not from a person. It's not like that. Sometimes you do a lot of things and it
7:09 may not happen. You can get lost in the process of destruction. It 's a big thing to be left in a person's place while working. God's judgment is God's work, this is not something that I have much control over. Yes, as you said, you were lost. You said you were lost. It's true that many people know about loss, but your profession, especially as a musician, is not known for its loss because your music is always played on television or on YouTube in various places. When you returned from your loss, many people were shocked and expressed their sadness. You described your mother's death. How are you now? Are you strong?
7:59 Yes, thank God, well, what was it like at that time ? It was strange. Sometimes, people used to say things like, "What is Musele?" It means a lot when I'm not in music. There were people who liked what they did, and they were very big. And I wanted to be like them. When they talked about the stories of adults, they were mostly readers. They were mostly readers and I liked them a lot. I would say, "Tell me about it." And this was like this. And in some way, what would they say to me? Some things, for example, it might be a headache. You
8:52 can know things that happened before your age. Only age can teach you, but there are many things that you do n't know until you see them. They would say, "What are you thinking?" I just thought, "Just wait, calm down." And this is one of the things that really happened. It means that age has taught and understood . Yes, when you lose someone, it's hard to describe. For example, if you asked me what it's like to lose a mother, I wouldn't be able to put it into words. If someone asked me what I looked like, I would say, "You don't know me. " Because it's not something that can be described like this, it
9:39 has a different form, it's its own thing. And at that moment, I was thinking, "This is enough, I'm sorry, I'm just going to change, I'm just going to work, what should I say?" It's only been a month, what does that mean? I'm not going to say anything, but you've heard the saying, " Beware of anyone who reads a book, Deacon Nok, who is a little older than me," right? Yes, I mean, there is a story of King David. When his son died, did you see how sick he was? At first, he was
10:27 very upset and cried a lot. He begged his creator because he had to be there. But in the end, his son passed away. And he said, " Enough, my son has passed away." And they were waiting for him to go crazy. They were waiting for him. They were waiting for him. They were waiting for him. Because even when he was sick, he begged for mercy. He was out of the body. As soon as he said, "My son has passed away," he went out, washed himself, and said, "Bring me his robe of honor." He sat on the throne and said, "Prepare for me." The man who had not eaten anything said, "Enough." There is nothing more I can do.
11:12 God has done the last thing. So I'm done. What I'm going to do from now on is to complain to God. It won't make any difference." And he said, "I'm done." I mean, you're saying, "Yes, what are you trying to do? Is there something you're trying to learn? Isn't it something like this? And like any other grieving, what shouldn't I do? Well, one of the truths doesn't make sense. Then the thing that comes after that is because we are humans, we can't do it. Then, when it comes to
12:22 motherhood, it has its own thing. Especially if you have something very close to you, it's hard. But the concept is right. Because in the end, what God allowed happened. So, it's right. It's right. It's right. But the concept was right. What's wrong is my pride and what I thought I could do and what happened. What's wrong? You think, " Thank God, it was a very special time." After that time, it was something that people, even close to me, would say to me. As I said, we haven't met for seven years. A total of one or two years ago, I used to go every year for a holiday, but after that, for some reason, I didn't go for a year or two for work. As I said, it 's especially true for the holidays, when you often go out with your family and
13:09 even when you're at work, you're out a lot, and I didn't go because of that. By the way, this thing called war came, so he was only together for almost seven years, so he came to see us. Yes, she was sick. I was taking care of her here. I was also taking care of her. My brothers were here. My sister was here. My sister came for a while. One of the times I was very grateful to God. What can I say? For example, the time of the war was very long. What can you do when a person is far away? Maybe you
13:56 can't explain it to him. But in front of you, you can't show him my big thing, my mother, who you wish for, from far away, and now something bad has happened. From now on, he heard bad news. He said, "It's not right." You don't wish it on anyone. It's not right to say, "It's not right." It's not right to say. It's not right to wish it on anyone. It 's not right to say. It's not right because it hurts you so much. It's very difficult. You will suffer until a mark appears on your body. You can talk to people, it
14:44 can be important, no talking will do much, it will not make a difference, this is what you are talking to my creator, he is a big, She brought her here for a while to take care of her. Especially when she goes there, she spends most of her time with her. You do n't see what I have outside. People tell her or in the media. You do
15:30 n't see what I have here. She tries to see what I have with someone. She tries to see what I have with him. He likes her. She is very surprised. Why do they say that? Because she knows that she is the one who used to wash clothes. She does n't know the boy who is working. When he goes home, he is at home. So in the house, I also want light. His name is David, the son of light. I don't want David, the artist. I don't want him at home. He is the one and she saw him. Then, as I told you, I got the chance to take care of her. I met her after a long time. This is a very big thing.
16:16 To be honest, she could have stayed there for about two or three months. She almost came with me. You came to me because you were sick, and that's a big deal. I am very happy about this because it is a great opportunity, a great blessing. Maybe God knows my inner prayer and thought, "I won't just leave you alone." He did this. And I thought this was a good comfort in itself and this is combined with no, I'll just comfort you, no matter what, no matter what, no matter what, no matter what, I can't help but be strong. I was playing this great hero hero at a certain time, but if not, no, no,
17:05 this seven-day thing, this is not what you sit down for, when it starts, I can say that I didn't feel anything at that time, but apart from the first and second days, there are people around you, you play whatever, you comfort them, you laugh, you play this map, whatever, there are many games, there are people, you only get along with people, whatever, and as I said before, it's normal to say that sadness is like losing someone you love, you just consider it normal sadness. Then the thing comes, it takes a little longer and it comes. Then if you're a guy, just wait and see after three months. It means something.
17:53 What memories come to mind? Yes, memories come, as I said, the closeness that was there determines it. I think I understand, for example, we are very good friends with her. Well, well, well, well, when it started, I didn't call her by the time I started, my mother didn't call me and she called me Birhin. It's Birhin. Her name is Birhin. I don't know what to say. I don't know what to say. I don't know what to say. Since childhood, she has been advising me on things that are beyond my capabilities. I listen to her. I listen to her. I understand her. If I have to give her advice, I give her advice. Before, she had a family matter and she
18:55 advised me on something. She's not the kind of person I can handle a lot. But at that moment, she made me a very good friend. What did she feel when she advised me on things that I thought were beyond my capabilities? I was very confident. Okay, okay, okay, she was telling me how big my head is. Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, she trusts me. Okay, okay But I'll hear what she says first. I just want to tell her what I feel, so that she can feel better. She will be happy to find a counselor. We're talking about anything while drinking our coffee, and in a casual way, it's like, "Don't you think this house is good like this?" Dawit says. Yes, and he said, things will come to you. And then there
19:45 are many things, for example, in music, there are many things that have passed. This is going to be ups and downs. It's not something that is easy. There are many things that you have to go through on your own. The idea that she was happy in every way was a huge strength in itself for me. For example, when I was really desperate, I tried so hard to get out of this and I just stood there in front of her and said, "No, no
21:06 You can see my face and tell that I'm snoring. A real person is someone who can make you feel good, someone who knows your inner self, someone who can read the pain inside you while you are crying. A real person is someone who can make you feel good, And if someone like that wanted to be the first, especially at this time, then there would be no one better than her. But if there is, he himself could be a person of that level and I have not seen anyone else besides her. There can be no one like that. I accepted him and he was something and you were shocked. I was so shocked. At some point, it was like I was standing alone in a deserted field with nothing. What do you mean? Three
21:58 months or four months after she passed away, what do you mean? It's getting worse and worse. You feel the gap. What does it go? What do you mean? I just keep quiet and think about it. You ca n't. It has its own time. You deal with those things and then you start over again. So you enter another life. And that thing was very difficult. I did n't understand this. We spent a lot of time, adding to the sadness, until you said that the pain was there until a mark appeared on your body. What do you mean? Yes, it was before, now, the
22:44 war, what were the times at that time? Things are really looking up, why are you asking me here? Yes, it means the story that came out. When we met, you knew something. You didn't know anything about it. If it's from this, we suddenly met after years. It's Delmela. We met in a cafe. Yes, Bole. Yes, we talked. What happened? So this story came from that. Yes, of course, before. Yes, this is something that you can't say. This is something that you can't say. It's something that you can't do or something that you can't solve. It's very difficult. It makes you feel
23:39 very bad. And it's true. At the time, I didn't notice it. I didn't think so. But after a while, it's true. It's very good. At some point, it was very bad. It was especially true in the war zone. It was a little difficult. You go through things like work, like a country. It's unstable. It's like work. Nothing is easy, like any Ethiopian. It 's like your country. There is one thing that happens to her, and besides that, she is not the only one. She has a mother, a sister, a brother, and so on. There are families called "whatever." So you are afraid. If it is like this, you will be afraid that you have heard bad news. What if
24:26 the situation is not good for you? You do a lot of things. You are a media person. You can't be understanding. There may be a lot of expectations from you. There may be things that people expect. There are many things that can happen just by being a media person. You can do it. Apart from that, there is that thing. I'm just like you said, "I'm just like you're alive right now." My mother is watching me. I didn't say anything to anyone. You didn't get the text to the people on my phone. It's true for many people because I wasn't in this country. For those who know me,
25:13 especially for those who know me, this is true for those who are greeting me. It's true for people who are texting and my mother is fine. I met her in Danako. No one asked me. It's true for many people. That's amazing. At that time, this was what happened during the war. Then you mentioned it earlier. As a person, there is something you expect from a person. It was a terrible war. It was a very, very difficult time for all of us. Especially when you are a person of art, and a person is either on this side or with this side now. There was no chance for you to weigh things in the middle, just support this
26:00 or support that. Yes, there were problems that happened to you because of it, weren't there? Yes, we are not related to him. So, who made this Tigrigna song that you released recently? What kind of person was he expecting from you and what was he criticizing you for? Okay, what do you think? The first thing we need to do is to be careful about what you do when you go out in public. What is the good thing about it? The same person gives you representation. You are given the authority to be a person of mine. You are a person of the people. Yes, you are a person of the people. You are
26:46 careful about what you do because you come with the identity of many people. That's right, when someone gets to know you after you've done something, and they respond well to you, there are rights that they give you, but at the same time, there are things that you need to be careful about. He wants you to express your feelings towards him. He wants you to be upfront about the things he wants. This old thing is something that everyone does without work itself. One of the things that used to reach you at the time was that you would receive such messages saying, " How can you remain silent?" Now when you
27:33 talk to me about the matter, you have already explained that your mother, brother, and family are there. You were there at the time, in the middle of the war, but there were also people who would comment as if they were feeling emotions. How can you not do this? They say, "Why are you keeping quiet about this?" Is that him talking to me? Yes, yes, and I didn't ask the question, but I told you that the same person thinks well, by the way, you see the place you gave us, in other words, when you look at it from the good side, you see the place he gave you. You
28:19 see how close you are to him because he is saying, "Express my feelings to me." But as I said, one thing is not whether it is right or not. One thing is what is the main issue, but what is the situation of the person you want to express your opinion to? What does he think? Secondly, he also has his own opinion. For example, I can think that there is something that needs to be discussed, it is not the time, it is not useful. Did you feel the same way at the time? First of all, for example, when I told you about the general who was there, my position is that first of all, practically, many things were happening, we went through many things,
29:07 so it's not like the country said anything like that. When we come to what David believes, it means more than just talking, first of all, what does my faith teach me? First of all, you pray. It doesn't matter. It's above all. By the way, the biggest thing you do is pray for your country. It's not an extra or an extra. The main thing is to tell the truth. Second, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after all, after
29:55 all, we are all brothers, people of the same country. It would be better if that didn't happen in the next century. It 's not the kind of thing I expect much these days. So you can't say anything about this. What can you say? What are you commenting on? Praying. Yes, praying. Secondly, right now, if you ask me, I want to say what I have observed as a small country. It is not about what happened in Tigray at all, but sometimes it is better to remain silent about things that we do not understand. By the way, it is a very good solution. He himself, by the way, is a media opportunity and because he has this camera and everything, he does
30:44 not comment or talk about it. By the way, he himself, by the way, is a rumor. He has created a lot of things. As I understand it, I am sorry, there may be people who do not believe this, but I believe it. I think we have a lot of opportunities. We have started to comment on this social media platform with that nothing and things that we do not know and do not understand. He is not right and silence itself is a very good solution, especially at this time, silence is a solution. Just do not say what we do not know, because someone is silent and does not understand the issue. Silence itself can be a very good solution. You are right. You are right. You do not speak when you find it. You
31:31 have to distinguish time and place. That is the difference between a wise person and a wise person. So, when you spend your time in silence, you choose your path. What is the other thing? I am not a politician. One of those things is not my knowledge, not my interest. Everyone works with their knowledge. Everyone goes with their knowledge. I go with what I know. I go with what I am given. So, you followed her. Now you are a singer, a talented poet, a talented songwriter. Take it and now express that feeling in music. Do n't play me a song about it. Okay, what is the music, you think? It's an
32:19 overture. What is it saying now? What we should be as a country and as a people? What I have observed is that we have lost this idea of opposing or supporting, not believing in anything, but as a people. To tell the truth, the biggest people in a country are the people. Now, when they want to fix something, the people who have the most power over the government can fix it. Now, not only in relation to Tigray, but all of us, like Ethiopia itself, for example, if you ask me, we have seen a lot of things in our reading and
33:06 writing. Maybe we have seen them in our living standards, but there are many values that we have lost that are not there now. There are many things. We have now abandoned the things that were so valuable to us, our identity, our bodies, without us even realizing it. That's why nothing is tested now, because nothing is 100%, nothing is in this But happiness is not something that a person can give you, it is something that a body or a government or whatever can give you. It is just a system that comes to manage. The government cannot manage every value outside of that. No, it is not capable of doing so to begin with. The people are like the people, what is their problem and what is my problem with them? I have a question for
33:53 all of us, including myself. Is this music now described as Tigrinya by many people for various reasons? In Tigrinya, Aday Abay Aday Abay means what is it? Translated as Qalbe Feqal, who is the eldest? What is this house name? For example, as you say, Aday Abay means what is it that is often called by grandparents? In Tigrinya, it means that the character is a character and it is Tigrayan. We are separated in thought. You are big, you have a lot of history, you have a
34:43 lot of people, you have a lot of things to love, but it is not the same as what we call a mother. Many people have died. Many young people had dreams. It is said that the young people who are there had dreams. What are you thinking about now? Things mean to return to our previous love. To return to our previous love, what should be, what are you waiting for now? Is he still a person? Should he die or what will happen? He is
35:33 asking her and saying that. At the end of the song, you say, "I miss the time when you were with everyone, when you were at peace, when your children were together, when your house was lit up, when you were preaching peace, love, and good things, when you were good, when you were dressed in white." And this is the idea. Let's sing this song in your voice. Remember this song in your voice. Let's
36:22 sing it quietly. Let's say, "My soul is yours." We are all Zebeyo Adeize Abay Zeinef from the past, the art of the artist, Adeize Abaye Zeinef from the past, the art of the artist, dear viewers, we are playing with our beloved and respected singer, Dawit Alemayehu. Of course, recently you have added the name Wodi Ora
37:10 and people are now used to calling you by this name. That's how I have been doing the interview so far. Until we got here, they were like, "Okay, you're forcing me to call you by this name. From now on, you're going to call me like this or not. I can't say that for two reasons, except for saying it in the media. One is that they brought it with them. There is a common person who is known by himself. For example, if a new person is just coming, it's easy for everyone to start, and when they start, they don't say it like that, but now there is a name that is in the common vocabulary. Of course, there are many names that are added to it, but there is nothing that is unique.
38:02 But what's surprising is that it's the opposite. Sometimes, here, Bole, they're calling me "What's up?" I didn't say "You're welcome." I just said "I'm going to go." I said, "Oh, what's up?" Then they turned around and said, "Remember?" They were calling me "Oh, I'll just announce myself." I said, "I'll just announce myself." I said, "What's up?" I said, "I'll just announce myself." I said, "I'll just announce myself." I said, "What's up?" I said, "I'll just announce myself." I said, "I'll just announce myself." I said, "What's up?" I said, "I'll just announce myself." I said, "I'll just announce myself." I said, "I'll just announce myself." I said, "What's up?" I said, " What's up?" I said, "I'll just announce myself." Secondly, when you use the same name and do things well, it will get used to it, so it will take a little time because it already has a familiar name. The second is that there is no problem, for example, Ora is not just Ora,
38:49 Ora is David, so David was David. There is not much difference, there is not much difference, Ora is my mother's name, in Hebrew it means light. That was an idea that was with me before. By the way, when I came to her, I came to her name with the idea that it was new, because it came with many new identities. I came to it with the idea that it was with her name, and I thought a lot about this. This is not something that I thought a lot about its origin. So from now on, it is with me and it will continue to work on it, but I decided it myself. Yes, you didn't even know it yourself.
39:35 Therefore, if he does not call anyone, there will not be much of a resurrection. Saying never is something that takes time to get used to. I think it's nonsense when you see people repeating the same thing over and over again in their work, saying that because it's known, it means that they're slowly getting along with someone because they already know the name. For example, there are people called David, there are musicians, when it comes to using it as a label, it itself gets
40:23 used to it. At some point, that's right. Yes, David, you said a lot. Yes, David, there are two laws. When you say "to the evil one," David replied. There are two David's letters. David replied. David replied. Since there is a lot, the additional name "ora" is actually good for a label. Yes, you're saying that if you just go outside of that, there are a lot. Well, now we've only called it music. Yes, anyway, our program is called "photo and game." I talked so much that I forgot to move my camera . We're taking pictures so that the audience can wait for us when we return. I heard you talk about something that really shocked me in an interview, and the moment you decided to kill yourself because of the sadness and the image you described of the moment you entered the room, it created something in my mind. It reminded me of that moment and because it's a feeling that people can feel when they go through such pain,
41:13 I want you to tell me how you got through it and we'll talk about the moment when you had a bad thought of killing yourself and that time you went through, saying, "I can't bear this anymore." It 's your right not to respond. But since you already talked about it, I'm listening carefully, yes, yes, it's good, in fact, I think it's a little bit of a thought, we'll talk, okay, okay, let's take a picture, the macchiato has arrived, the macchiato is here, you said, yes, I
42:23 'm not addicted, I'm ordering it again, it's very messy, okay, give me the macchiato, I'll drink it again, [Music] Okay, you've had it, relax, no problem, right? Yes,
43:22 [Music] I'm a person who takes pictures, I see, it's gone, it's gone, I'm doing this on Instagram, I'm doing this They said no, they didn't spend money here. I met them today because of you. They invited you, but what have you become? They are thrifty. [Music] How did you see? Our studio is beautiful. They gave me a place in the corner. Is it a residence or an office? It's an office. By the way, I'm in a very studio. You haven't seen it. It's not comfortable. It's a place that's made for women. Now we're recording. It 's a whole hall. It's very big. Yes, in this case,
44:15 I think you'll use this particular psychologia a lot for your work. You're using such studios. So if you want to use it, can I work for you in the same advertisement? Yes, we'll talk. Let's talk later. He's had lunch. He's saying, "Hey, look, he's saying, "Hey, look, he's saying, "Hey, I'm doing free advertising for them. We'll talk while we're eating lunch. Okay, I'll introduce myself. Yes, I'll introduce myself. I'll just say it because I saw it first. I didn't think anyone else could use it. I don't think you've opened it up for other uses." No, there are so many, many
45:03 professionals coming and filming. Various music videos have been made here. There are various television stations in that corner,
45:48 and now you see them there, and Yes, I'll repeat in the middle. By the way, I have another one. If you give it to me for free, there's no problem. Okay, so there are games like this that are slow, simple games that you can play that are fun. Then the question I asked earlier was, suddenly, a broken David, a desperate David, that was the interview I saw and what was it that made him so upset. We already told you that the mother's grief, the
46:38 war in the area where your mother was, was very disturbing. But in the end, I had enough. When you go into a room and say you can't take it anymore, and you're about to kill yourself, and what happened to you in front of you, okay, let's talk about it in detail, because I think the idea can be useful to others, and we'll talk about it thoroughly. And it didn't start with the grief. A little before that, some things weren't going well, some things were going badly, for example,
47:24 there was an album. I was working on it for a long time. You know what it was? Yes, yes, and the album. For example, what was it that I was working on until now? Before the album, I had the idea that I hadn't done any singles. And the album. As you know, it takes time. It needs money. You try to do good things. You invest a lot in the album. You choose from many things. You worry about a lot of things. And that thing is
48:10 getting smaller and smaller. It's taking me away from the media a little bit. I mean, especially from the work. I don't say much about the media, I have n't lost anything, but it's taking me away from the work area because now it's really funny. Before, you liked this and I didn't see it. When you came out, it was almost. Now, I'm a fan. I didn't see it and you like it. It's been almost a year, two years. Yes, they came out in a row and were very successful. So, recording is
49:00 another thing in itself. As you know, the thing with us is not the music industry, it's the market. So there are many things that change all the time. Just think about what the next two months will look like. You don't know, you don't try, so you have to be in the zone to know things. This is not something that you can just sit around and say, "If you have 30 years of experience, you can just sit there and wait six months and then get up and come back and say, 'This is it.' He doesn't give you many days and then he took me away a little bit. Even so, it wasn't done successfully at the desired level. His work itself created a lot of gaps and he had a lot of
49:48 stress. It was very difficult. You can do a lot of things on a budget, but in music, maybe it's the same person who's in the same profession who's doing it. That is, if the work itself does not wait for the right time to be done and the time to be released, the work itself will be lost. It's just a matter of how it works. That is, only after it is released can music transcend time according to its potential. But there are things that you can do with poetry, music, and other things that you don't think about, like a test, like a color, and then after a while, those things can become things that you don't want to do anymore,
50:47 and he, I
51:43 mean before, when I came back, it was just like that, right The
52:45 second sadness came, and as I told you, it became more and more unbearable. What can you say to people who understand you? What do you do next to them? It 's not about saying what I said to you. Sometimes it's about saying what I said first. You can say, "I'm like this," as you go along. It's not much, it's not like that, it's like that, people who are real and care about you come to you, they check you out, you don't go away, and I tried a little,
53:33 because people are people in this kind of thing, human medicine, and you see the environment, and you see You
54:32 think about it, I don't know what kind of feeling it will bring. By the way, this is a feeling called suicide, a feeling that lasts for seconds. You've been thinking about this all week, what's the point of saying one day, what's the point of saying nothing, you can work all week, that feeling can develop, you can think about things that you're not good at, I don't have this kind of person, people don't want to say anything to me, people can think about it, or you can think that I'm not good at it, there's no one around me, what was I like before, what did I get from where did I get from where did I get from where did I get from where did I get from my previous job, what was my energy
55:18 level, where did I come from, you wonder who I am, what and all those things that lead to lowering your self-worth, I'm nothing, if it comes to you, you're ready at the right time, at some point, while I'm playing peacefully with oil, history can change. When did you suddenly feel that way? Do you remember it? Yes, I was alone in the house most of the time and there was a housekeeper who helped me and there was a housekeeper and there was also a surprise for you. I am now in the process of trying to get myself back to something. But that
56:06 feeling that I had now, whatever it was, you know that it was working. Whatever it was, it was in there and at some point it suddenly came. I don't know how it came. To tell you the truth, it wasn't for me. It wasn't for me. It wasn't for me. I never thought that if something came to me, I would have a mindset that would reach this level. I never thought that their own assumptions were right. When you start, a person shouldn't think like that. Well, that's what I've learned in life. It's not about you. It's not about what you do or the result of your thinking. It's
56:54 about when you strengthen yourself in an opportunity that can determine that. Your past history can't be anything to do with this. It's absolutely strong. He has gone through a lot, he has done great things, it's not that he is not in the moment, it's just that he is in the moment, for example, when the moment comes that can make you do this, it's the strength that you have at that moment. It's the decision you make that will save you from this, not your history. It doesn't matter if you win over all the governments in a row. This is not the case. There was a moment when I was watching something and suddenly I felt a sense of relief. I thought, "Is this really a relief?" Is it okay to die? Yes, that's it What is
58:43 happening now is for the good. I mean, what am I saying? I have had this kind of experience before. They argued like this. I am talking about it in a loud voice. What am I saying? And you are telling me that it is for the good. Now, what is this that I have not satisfied? Now, what is this that has failed? Now, what are you telling me? Okay, give me a week, give me something like this. There is something like this. This is an experience that I am presenting and I am not saying it. And with the Virgin Mary, it is like that. In fact, it is like that with her. Sometimes when I ask her to do something for me, she goes and just sits there and says, "I'm happy that what I asked you for last time was successful. Thank you very much. Whatever happened then, I'm happy if you participate.
59:29 Otherwise, it's a problem. Whatever happens, I say this. So, when this kind of feeling comes, I don't know what it is. Thunder went into the bedroom. Is it in the bedroom? Okay, so I came in looking for medicine, but I didn't want anything at first. When I entered, there was a picture of the Virgin Mary, and when I entered, there was a picture of the Virgin Mary. I saw her on the window, both sides, then I went there, and I cried and cried, and I cried, and I said, "It's
1:00:15 instinctive." If it happened, I woke up at that time and cried and got up and I was lying on the floor, and people were crying. Yes, I remember that time. There was a boy. At that time, he was a boy who was with me in many things better than anyone else. I'm sure I know him. He's in the movie. I just texted him. It's not very clear what I texted him, but I doubted that he felt the way I did. I thought he was texting me. Of course, no, I don't remember much. I'm telling the truth.
1:01:03 Thank you, but what kind of thing was it? And I thought he was far away and couldn't reach us. We are one in the same place. We live in a real estate compound. We are one in the same place. He sent the people around, including the owner, to go and check it out. Yes, go and say it quickly. He does n't know where it is. It's not just one thing. I said it was definitely like that or only when they knocked. I said it and when they came, it was ready. But a lot has passed. I went there for a long time and started to look. I
1:01:52 remember when I was like this. Why are you silent? Now it's for the good. You're going to see this now. This is for the good. There's something like this for the good. I started to argue there. What is it? Now it's for the good. How did I do this for two years? I'm lazy. I'm not strong. I haven't lost many things. I started arguing for work. After that, I don't know what I said or what happened. But I understood this well. I just woke up and opened the door for them and when I got up, there was absolutely nothing that I saw before. It does n't seem like something is wrong with me, I got up, I said something violent, I was
1:02:39 very calm, I just went in and one of them came and said, " What is this, what is this, what is this?" Of course, I didn't tell him everything in detail, I'm not talking about the real things, I'm talking about what I said and in fact, he himself said, "You're right." I'm surprised, but thank God. First, when I talk to people, I never think of anything, I don't think of anything, I don't kneel down to anything. I was talking about what I was talking about and he cried like this. I never thought I would see you in such a state of mind. The only person in my life who
1:03:27 shocked me was him. But the second thing I said was, "Thank you, okay, okay." It means that there is a broken spirit. I don't know what to do with it, because I don't know what to do with it. I've been thinking about it for a long time And what I mean is, it would be
1:04:16 good if everyone had the same relationship with the Creator in their faith. This is not meant as advice or advice. As long as anyone has faith, they must connect with their Creator. Even though God takes the biggest thing out of that, what is the one thing that was prepared? God never just stands there and says, "What is this?" He wants your things. He wants your actions. It's in you that He does things. And that experience saved me. I think I 'm a very lazy person. I don't pray much. As I said, when something happens to me, I go and
1:05:01 cry to the boss. There's nothing more to it than that. But I love him, and that's the first thing. When you go to church and feel like this, it's not a time to be bothered by anything. Especially when you say, "God is good," he just accepts you with a smile. When you go, he just sees that you're close to him and that you trust him. Sometimes he puts you in favor that you do n't expect. He doesn't say anything. He 's a father who accepts you with joy. So I think it's good. It's not that Christmas will happen to me tomorrow. It's
1:05:48 good to talk to God about anything. It doesn't require any kind of prayer level or qualification. By the way, the first idea is to get close to him. Some fathers say, " Now, when we go to church, we judge people by their clothes, their hair style, their conversation, because they are the same people. In the first place, you don't know what's going on in their hearts. You've been serving the church for a very long time, and you say, "I'm very disciplined." You may be the one who knows which of the creators you are pleasing, the owner himself does not know anything, because you see the heart, he is the God of research that comes from the heart and kidneys. But what do the fathers say about that person? It could
1:06:36 be something like his hair, it could be something that doesn't follow the church rules, it could be something that doesn't follow the church rules, it could be something that doesn't speak well outside of church, it could be something that doesn't dress well, it could be something that doesn't look
1:07:22 good, it could be something that doesn't look good outside of church Yes, it's been a journey for me. That's the only way I 've gotten used to it. That's the only way I've managed to get there. But history can change. It's not like that anymore, for example, I'm really surprised now. How did I get into such an idea? But it's a silly thing. I'm strong, whatever it is, it's better if you forget about it. Yes, he's talking to me, he's amazing. When I looked at my interviews before, he was very insightful. If you remember, when
1:08:08 we did the interview before, you said I was 24 years old. Oh, now that we've gotten to the point, how old is he? Six years, 30 years. It's amazing. I'm not trying to know my age now, but what you're talking about and age is very far away. He 's a mature person who has matured in thought and has examined things very thoroughly. It is a visual perspective. what is Where did it come from? Is it from reading? It's about sitting down and meditating on things. He's still young, so 30 is n't an age we'd say is too old. And what made you see things this way ? Oh no, I didn't even see it that way,
1:08:58 but what is it? First of all, God still takes the credit. What else is there? I think I touched on it a little bit before. First of all, even though it wasn't very long ago, the people I met before I came here are great, they are very good at what they do. They have made a great impact on me, making me want to read and understand things like this. I mean, since my mother . After that, although it wasn't that exaggerated, I
1:09:48 think that certain readings that existed at a certain time are still sometimes things that I try to do like this. So, what you said is not true. I do n't believe that I am really like that, but if so, I think that perhaps the current David was made in that way. There are people called tinkerers who research a subject in this or that direction, while there are others who just stick with what they find in front of them. He's the kind of person who examines things from different angles, maybe an artist or a poet, or something that helps you to understand things well. Of course, yes, he's one of them. He's a work of art. He's something that I'm telling you about. Apart from that, maybe this is what they call reading. I
1:10:36 don't want you to follow me on my reading list right now, but yes, whether it's one or two chapters or three chapters, just going through that thing is one good thing. You leave knowing that you'll be left with one. By the way, he's the one who makes you realize that the more you learn about something, the more you learn about it. Your curiosity increases and your vision improves. It's not something I'm saying is familiar, it's something that's becoming more and more apparent. There is something that art itself brings about, something that art itself does. Especially when you strive to do your job well, you are working on yourself. It
1:11:23 means that you don't take out something that isn't there . I think he has a big problem. Is David living alone now, or is it true what they say? Has he gotten married and started working? [rock me]
